Don't You Go and Carry On With Your Life

Alex

All week long I ignored Tay. Any time she tried to start a conversation with me I would leave the house or go up to Kellin’s room and close the door. There was nothing she could say to me to make up for what she did. She tried to blame what she did on her hormones, but I didn't know if that could happen or not. I’m not sure when pregnant women start experience mood swings and all of that stuff but she hadn’t shown any signs of mood swings before. With her being three months pregnant, it didn’t seem like much has changed about her at all.

This was going to be the first weekend Kylie and Kellin were staying with me after finding out that Tay is pregnant. I was expecting this whole weekend to be tense, and for Kellin to spend the weekend in his room again. I didn't want Tay here while they were here but there was no point in telling her to leave since Kellin already knew the truth. She didn't come home immediately after work which made me think she went to a hotel anyways. She staggered in the door twenty minutes before Kellin and Kylie usually got here. I looked at her trying to figure out what why she was walking funny.

"Don't look s’surprised, asshole. I m’only here to get my shit for a hotel. I figured you won’t want me here with your p-precious children." She spat at me.

"Are you drunk?!?" I questioned her.

"What do you think?" She rolled her eyes.

"You can't drink alcohol! You're pregnant!" I yelled at her.

"Chill out Dad, the baby will be fine." She said sarcastically. She went into my room and grabbed her suitcase and started throwing clothes inside.

“Are you serious right now?” I asked. I knew Tay and she wasn’t stupid enough to put the child’s life in danger. She was probably doing this to get my attention.

“Yeah I’m fucking serious. I skipped worked today because I was having terrible morning sickness.” She laughed and stumbled to get back up. “Then I meet t-this guy at Starbucks and I fucked him in his car. And he took to me to his house where we had sex and drunk a whole bottle of tequila. Speaking of which.” She went to the kitchen and picked up a bottle of tequila from under the cabinet and tried to put it in her suitcase. She definitely wasn’t faking.

"Tay, stop what the hell is wrong with you??" I snatched the bottle out of her hand.

“Oh are you jealous?” She chuckled.

“No I’m worried that you’re going to give that baby brain damage. I don’t give two fucks what you do with other guys.” I said and she frowned.

"Give me back my tequila!" She hissed and pulled on my hand.

“No stop!”

We fought over the bottle, going back and forth trying to take it from one another. She hit my hands knocking the tequila out of my grasp. The bottle of tequila smashed into the ground and covered the floor in glass and alcohol.

"Ugh look what you did! And for what?! A baby that doesn't even exist!!" She yelled at me and her eyes widen as she realized what she said.

"Wait what?" I questioned. "What do you mean a baby that doesn't exist??"

"A-Alex I-I can e-explain." She said with tears building up in her eyes.

"You're not really pregnant?" I asked in a whisper. I felt like I was having a bad nightmare.

"Y-you w-were going to leave me and I-I didn't know what t-to do. I-I panicked and t-told you I was p-pregnant so you wouldn't g-go." She sobbed.

"You're not really pregnant?" I repeated, still in a state of shock.

"I-I was hoping w-we would be t-together and I w-would really get pregnant later."

"You lied to me. I gave up on my relationship with Jack because of you." I said, ignoring what she was saying. I took a seat and put my head in my hands.

"Alex we can still make this work. I can-"

"-Get the fuck out of my house." I cut her off and she began to cry harder.

"Please Alex! Don't do this! You're all I have!" She begged.

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE!!" I yelled at her this time. She quickly grabbed her purse and ran out of the door.

I didn't know how to even process what she had just told me. I wasn't going to have another kid. I stopped fighting for Jack because I thought I should to be there for Tay and the "baby" and she was never really pregnant.

"What the hell am I going to do?" I mumbled to myself. Thankfully Kellin and Kylie were running late so they didn’t have to see any of this.

I began to feel relief was over me as I thought about not having to start over and raise a kid all over again. Then I started thinking about my family. There was nothing holding me back from them now. Especially Jack, I really never stopped loving him and this would make it easier for me to attempt to fix what I broke between us. It’s going to take a lot of time and energy, but I am ready to do whatever is necessary to get my family back.

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*Jack*

Brendon, Alan, and Patrick stole my phone while I was at work today and texted Austin that I couldn’t wait to go out with him tomorrow night so now I had a date, tomorrow. I wasn't as angry as I should have been. I was more nervous and kind of relieved. I wanted to give Austin a try I just felt it was too soon to do so, but they kind of gave me the push I needed to go. Plus I thought about Alex dating Tay as soon as we got divorced and getting her pregnant. If he didn't wait then why should I? It wasn't like I was going to text Austin 'never mind' and not go. So I thanked them for the push and promised I would tell them how the date went.

When I made it home, Kellin was in the living room lying on the couch and watching TV. Kylie was playing on the floor with her toys but she quickly ran to me when she saw me.

"Hi HunnyBunny! Did you miss me?" I asked as I picked her up. She nodded and laid her head on my shoulder.

"How was school?" I asked Kellin.

"Great until I realized that I have to stay with dad this whole weekend." He grumbled.

"Aww I'm sorry, sweetie." I sighed. I really did hate that they had to stay with Alex.

"It's cool, I'm just going to go straight to my room and ignore him the entire weekend. Unless you say we don't have to go?" He asked hopefully.

"I sorry Kells but I already told you, I have no say so in that. The judge ordered that you both have to stay with him two weekends out of the month. I'm sure this will be over before you know it." I said.

"Ugh." He pouted.

"Maybe he'll give you space since he knows you're angry at him."

"I doubt it. If anything that'll make him want to try harder to get me to try to talk to him."

"Well I'm not going to tell you what to do. You can ignore him or talk to him. Whatever you want." I told him.

"I chose to ignore him." He said bitterly, making me chuckle.

"Okay. I forgot to pack’s Kylie’s suitcase last night. I need to do that before Alex comes over looking for you two." Alex was supposed to get them after Kellin got out of school and it was almost time for them to go.

"Daddy I would rather give up my cell phone for the rest of high school than go over there." Kellin complained.

"Would you rather have him get full custody because I'm not holding up my end of the custody?" I asked.

"No." He sighed.

"Okay then." I kissed him on the forehead.

I went up to Kylie's room and she followed me. I grabbed her small Barbie suitcase and went to get her clothes for the weekend. I put the shoes and clothes into her suitcase and went back to her closet to get her jacket. When I turned back around to her suitcase I saw Kylie pulling the clothes out that I just packed.

"Hey! What do you think you're doing?" I questioned.

"No!" She yelled angrily and I raised an eyebrow at her.

"No what? No you don't like those clothes?"

"No bye-bye!" She pouted.

"See Kylie doesn't want to go either." Kellin said from the doorway.

"Don't you want to go see your Dad?" I asked Kylie and she nodded. "Okay well let me pack your suitcase." I began to put her clothes back inside.

"Noooooo!" She whined on the verge of tears pulling the clothes out. Kellin chuckled and I sighed and rubbed my temples. I did not want to have to fight them every weekend it was Alex's turn to get them.

"Kylie either I can pack your suitcase with you right here or I can do it with you in time out." I threatened.

"No Daddy." She said, only hearing the 'time out' part.

"Okay well step away from the suitcase." I told her. She crossed her arms and walked over to Kellin for him to pick her up.

"I know, Daddy is being so unfair right now." He told her and I rolled my eyes.

I finished packing Kylie's suitcase with no more interruptions. Then I walked with her and Kellin out to Kellin's car so he could drive them to Alex's place.

"I'll see you both Sunday afternoon, okay?" I said.

"Ugh alright." Kellin groaned. I kissed them both on the forehead and helped Kylie into her car seat.
"Love you." I told them.

"Love you too." Kellin mumbled sadly. He slowly switched the car into reverse and backed out of the driveway. I watched him as he drove down the street.

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*Kellin*

I thought about driving to my Uncle Joe's house on the way to my dad's. I wanted to beg him to let Kylie and I stay for the weekend without telling our parents where we were. I really didn’t want to go to my dad's house. I didn't want to have to see him after finding out he got that lady pregnant. It was giving me bad anxiety to even have to drive in the direction of his place. I had an idea in mind, but I knew both of my parents wouldn't like it. Especially Daddy after the promise I just made him.

I called Vic through the Bluetooth in my car. He answered after the third ring.

"Hey Kells!" He exclaimed.

"Baaaaby." I said, using the whining voice I always used when I wanted something.

"Oh no, what is it?" He asked.

"Hi." Kylie said from the backseat.

"Is that Kylie?" He asked.

"Yeah." I laughed. "Kylie say 'hi Vic.'" I told her.

"Hi Bick." She giggled. Vic and I laughed without correcting her.

"Where are you at?" He asked and I sighed.

"I'm on my way to my dad's and I really don't want to be there." I told him.

"You never want to be there." He chuckled.

"Yeah but this time I really really don't want to be here. Do you think I can maybe come over and stay the night with you?" I asked. Vic lived with his older brother and he wouldn’t care if I spent the night with them.

"I don't know, Kellin. Your dad already threatened me. I don't want to give him a reason to kill me." He said and I rolled my eyes.

"He won't do anything to you. He's trying to get on my good side right now."

"What about your other dad? Won't he be pissed if you stay the night with me?"

"I don't really care right now. I just don't want to stay there with my dad." I complained.

"Alright you can come. I'll make us something to eat. Are you just going to drop Kylie off over there and then come over?" He asked.

"No I'm going to go inside and go to my room. Then I'll sneak out of the window and drive over. That way he'll think I'm in my room the entire night. I'll have to figure out something for the rest of the weekend."

"Okay. Text me when you're on your way."

"Okay, bye."

"Love you, bye." He said making my stomach full with butterflies.

I pulled into my dad's building and parked in a close spot so I could quickly make it back to my car. I helped Kylie out if the car and grabbed both of our bags.

"I hold." Kylie told me while pointing to her suitcase.

"Here." I chuckled and handed it to her. She pushed it in front of her like she did her baby doll stroller. I had to walk even slower to keep up with her.

It took a few minutes for us to get to our dad's front door. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door lightly. My dad opened the door seconds later as if he were standing by it waiting for us. I quickly walked straight past him and went towards my room.

"Dad!" I heard Kylie exclaimed and he picked her up.

"Kellin wait! We need to talk!" He called after me.

I continued to walk and shut my door behind me.

*Alex*

"Shit." I mumbled to myself. I needed to get Kellin to listen to me. I was sure that once I told him that Tay wasn't actually pregnant, he would at least hear me out.

"Your brother is going to be the death of me." I told Kylie and she giggled. I went to put her things in my room. I was kind of stalling for time and trying to think of what I should say to Kellin. He probably wouldn’t care about what I was saying until he heard me say that Tay isn’t actually pregnant. I just needed to go and get it over with.

I carried Kylie upstairs with me to Kellin's room and knocked on the door. His door wasn't locked but I didn't want to just barge in. He didn't answer after I knocked. I knew he was in there he just wasn't answering.

"Kellin can we please just talk?" I asked. I still didn't get a reply from him so I kept talking. "Look I know you're still angry, but this is important. It's about me and Tay. It turns out she isn't really pregnant. She just said she was to get me to stay with her. And I made the dumb decision to stay with her for the baby. I'm so sorry that I just left you guys so easily. I wasn't thinking, but I want to make things right. I swear whatever I need to do to make this up to you all, I'll do it." I pleaded. I still didn't get a response which was weird. I surely thought he would say something after I told him that Tay wasn't really pregnant.

"Kellin?" I slowly opened his door to his room. The room was empty. His window was still opened from where he went out. I looked out of the window and the bushes crushed underneath the window. That's where he landed so he wouldn't hurt himself.

"Where is he?" I asked myself.

"Bick." Kylie said and I looked at her.

"Bick?" I asked her.

"Bick!" She said again with more emphasis.

"I don't understand, baby."

"Bick." She repeated and I sat her down. Maybe she was playing with an imaginary friend or something. I needed to see if I could find out where Kellin went.

I couldn't call him or Jack to talk to them about it. I could go over to Jack's house and try to ask him if he knew where Kellin was, but he probably wouldn’t let me in. I hated that he had my number blocked still. This was kind of an emergency and I had no other way to contact him.

"Bick." Kylie said again as she walked over to me.

“I don’t know what you’re saying, babe." I told her.

"Kelly!" She exclaimed.

"He's not here, he left." I told her. "I'm trying to figure out where he is."

"Bick!" She exclaimed.

"Kylie you're not helping. I need to find out where Kellin went." I told her. "Maybe I can call Zack and see if he can get Jack to call me."I picked grabbed my cellphone out of my pocket and called Zack.

"Hello?" Zack answered.

"Hey Zack can you do me a big favor?" I asked.

"Does it require moving?" He chuckled.

"No, I need you to call Jack and tell him to call me. Tell him it's about Kellin." I told him.

"Is everything okay?" He asked.

"Um sort of not."

"Okay I'll call him now." He said and hung up.

I waited almost five minutes before my phone began to ring. Thankfully it was Jack calling.

"Hello." I answered.

"What's going on?" Jack asked. It felt almost blissful to hear his voice, even though he sounded annoyed with me already.

"I um came into Kellin's room a few minutes ago and he's gone." I told him.

"What do you mean he's gone?"

"He must have snuck out because the window is up and his bag is missing."

"God damnit." Jack grumbled to himself.

"Bick.” Kylie said again.

"Is Kylie saying Vic?" He asked.

"No she's saying . . . Bick . . . oh." It finally hit me what she was trying to say.

"What?" Jack asked.

"Kylie do you mean Vic?" I asked and she nodded, relieved that I finally understood her. "Oh you're trying to tale on him. Kellin is with Vic?" I asked her.

"Yeah." She said.

"She must have overheard his conversation." Jack guessed.

"That makes a lot of sense. I guess I have to kill Vic now." I said and Jack gave me a small chuckle. It should have been my first guess that Kellin was off with Vic.

"I'll try to get a hold of him."

"Okay and I'll call you if he comes back anytime soon." I said.

"Just text me." He said and hung up.

I sighed and placed my phone back in my pocket. I should have probably used that opportunity to tell him about Tay.

Notes

I really like this chapter because a lot happens lol!