Fire in the sky.

Alex's POV

I don't know what was wrong with me.
I feel so different to how I felt last week. I feel like I could literally just beat the shit out of anyone which wasn't like me at all.
I know Jack has noticed my sudden mood change and I know for a fact that I have hurt him and it breaks my heart that I have hurt him.
It didn't help because it was coming up to 2 years since the accident and I feel down enough as it is without feeling like what I'm feeling.
So I'm doing what I did last year before I ran away, I hid myself away from everyone. Including Jack which makes me feel more shitty than what I'm already feeling.

I was sat in the window in my pants and Jacks hoodie just looking outside lost inside my head.
Someone knocked on my door which made me jump and look towards the door and debated whether to answer it or not.
I decided that I should answer it so I slid out the window and walked over to the door and opened it and saw Jack.
"Alex. I've been worried sick about you!" Jack said and pulled me into a hug and I just pathetically returned it.
Jack pulled back and looked at me.
"Babe what's the matter?" Jack asked but I ignore his question.
"Why you here?" I asked and moved away from him and walked into my room and Jack followed shutting the door behind him.
"I'm here because I'm worried about you Alex. I haven't seen you for 2 days, your not yourself, you seem really lost and angry about something." He said.
I turned round so my back was too him.
"Lex you not going to push me away. I'm here for you to vent to, Christ you can punch me if you want to. I am always here for you, just like I know your going to be there for me." Jack said and turned me round to look at him.
"But I've hurt you." I whispered and looked down.
Again Jack made me look at him.
"I don't care, compared to you I'm like a rock. You can keep on hitting and I don't feel much, I'm pretty solid and more likely to hurt you than myself." He said and I smiled a little.
"Baby please talk to me." He said and stoked his thumb on my cheek and I moved my head more into his hand.
"I love you Jack." I said quietly.
"I love you too Lex." Jack said and kissed me which I returned and I hugged him tightly which Jack returned but not so tight.

Me and Jack was sat on my bed watching a film and cuddling since that's all what I felt like doing.
"When did you last feed?" Jack asked seriously.
"4 days ago." I said quietly and looked down.
"Lex you have to feed." Jack said quietly.
"I know I do." I snapped and moved away from Jack and I hugged my knees and looked away from him as I felt tears form in my eyes.
"Alex please, talk to me. Tell me how you feel and I'll try to help you." Jack said and moved closer to me and pulled me to his side and kissed the top of my head.
"Everything is getting bad again. I feel out of control of my emotions and myself. I don't want to fell like this anymore but I don't know how to stop it." I said and felt some tears roll down my cheek.
"Do you think its the spirit playing a part in this?" Jack asked.
"Probably, they say that spirit users can get violent, be angry and all that. But I haven't used it. Mainly because it can easily make you go insane if you use it too much because spirit users are like the others it takes it out of us mentally and physically." I said.
"There's something else your hiding from me." Jack said softly trying to get me to talk, it was sort of working but not every well.
"Its been 2 years." I whispered and felt more tears roll down my face.
Jack thought about it and held me closer to him.
"2 years since the accident?" He asked carefully.
I nodded unable to speak as the tears was rolling down my face and I just broke down into full crying mode.
"Lex, I'm sorry." Jack said quietly and pulled me onto his lap and I buried my face into his shoulder and cried even harder.
"Its okay, let it all out. I've got you." Jack said quietly against my ear and kissed the side of my head and rubbed my back.
"I promise everything is going to be okay and that I'll always be here for you." Jack whispered and I carried on crying until I wore myself out and fell asleep.

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