Lily's POV

I opened my eyes, they were sore and my head pounded. I crawled out of Alex's bed and went back to my room. I searched my bag for something to ease the pain. I pulled out my bottle of Lavender oil and began to rub it in to my forehead, when I heard the floor boards creak.

"Smells like lilies in here." Alex smirked, as he stood in the doorway.

I tightened the lid. "It's lavender actually."

"Ah, same difference."

"Not really..." I chucked the bottle on the bed, with more force than expected. "Totally different flowers." I mumbled, which grabbed Alex's attention.

"What's wrong?"

"I'm...I'm annoyed that the freaking nightmares are back. I thought they had gone." Tears started to well up, which I blinked away to hide them from Alex.

"So you should be, he took advantage of you."

I glanced up at him and shook my head. "Why are you so understanding? Right now I'm caving in to this stupid fear-"

"Stop that. I'm understanding because I know what it's like to suffer." He walked in and pulled me into his arms. "Haven't told you this yet, I get panic attacks. I know how tough these dreams are for you because I had them too, remember?"

"You have panic attacks?" I pulled out of his embrace. He sat down on the bed. "Yea I do. Sometimes right in the middle of a show, it's hard."

"How often?"

"Not that much these days but I used to get them a lot...Anyway, what I'm saying is, it's actually a good thing to let your emotions out. Hell, if you have to take your anger or annoyance out on me...actually do it. I promise I won't take it too personally. We'll get through this."

I smirked. "Stop that."

"What?" Alex said with a more cheerful tone to his voice.

"Stop being...awesome."

Alex laughed and swung his arms around me. "I'm sorry, I don't think I can do that." His lips planted a huge kiss on my cheek.

Later that day, the sound of Alex playing his guitar interrupted my thoughts. It was strange, the others weren't around today. I left my room and made my way across the hallway. I stood at his door for a moment before knocking.

"Come in." He was placing the guitar down as I walked in. "I...I'm sorry, I heard you playing and," I smiled shyly, "I couldn't resist listening."

"Don't need to be sorry for that," he reassured, "was just a little practice session as you were busy sorting your room out."

"You sounded great..." I grinned. "How do I know you just didn't ditch me."

"Huh?." He stated.

"Yesterday, I vaguely remember you saying you would help me with my room."

His eyes widened. "Oh my god, yes I did, didn't I? I'm so sorry Lily."

I giggled. "It's fine Alex, you helped me in another way earlier."

He smiled.

I quickly looked around his room, properly, noticing his other guitars were hung up on the wall. "Looks like a music instrument shop in here." I waved a finger at the wall.

Alex's eyes lit up and chuckled. "I have this weird angle thing. I don't like propping anything against a wall unless it's flat or is in a right angle...they're...just...umm right." He was left with a massive smile on his face.

"You know that makes you sound like a psycho right?"

Alex nodded, as if he seemed pretty proud of what I just called him. "Yep, I'm well aware of it. Jack calls me a freak."

"Talking of Jack, you know there's this jalex thing?"

"Yes," he quickly replied. I'm pretty sure I could see his cheeks turn a light shade of pink before he turned away. "That's just a crazy fan thing... makes us both uncomfortable. We're just really good friends. And this shipping business is...well I don't get it. So don't go shipping us."

I laughed. "Why would I do that? I'm with you."

He laughed and turned round. "I mean you and I, us, not Jack and I."

"But aren't we already shipped?"

He shook his head with a smirk. "I guess...but no...we're not being shipped. That's to do with moving stuff over on a water vehicle, not to do with relationships that are usually fake...kids these days with their new lingo."

"Lingo?" I raised my eyebrow. "Wow I didn't know you'd be so passionate about this subject," I said, bursting into laughter.

"Short word for language," he said followed by a grin.

"Yes, I'm well aware of that. Just didn't know you'd use that word."

"Lily, I come with all sorts of crazy lingo words." He smirked and began to walk out of the room, but stopped at the door. "I'm hungry, I'll make us lunch. I don't care if it's usually a breakfast or dessert thing, it feels like a time for pancakes." He spoke with excitement to his voice.

Notes

Sorry, I made Alex mock shipping, to be honest I don't get it. Probably because I'm 27, it's not in the slang words of my childhood. Also mentioned Jalex. I saw an interview where it was brought up and Alex and Jack got somewhat embarrassed by it.

And the angle thing, he's adorable.