Alex's POV

I was woken up by someone sitting on the edge of the bed.
"Hey there sleeping beauty." Jack said quietly.
"Don't call me that." I mumbled and rolled over so my back was too him before I could literally cry.
"Sorry." Jack said and touched my shoulder which made me move away from him and a few tears fell.
"What's the matter?" Jack asked quietly.
"N..N..Nothing I'm fine." I sniffed.
"Lex your not fine, I know your crying." He said and I felt him lie on the bed which made me begin to panic and got myself into a panic attack.
" Shit Alex, roll over and face me." Jack said and I shook my head and let my panic attack get worse because I didn't want Jacks help, I've had to cope with them on my own before and normally it ended in my passing out.
" Alex look at me otherwise your gonna pass out." He said seriously.
I knew Jack wouldn't hurt me but after all my past experiances I had to do what the person said otherwise it would result in me getting hurt.
I rolled over and looked down still having my panic attack.

"Bloody hell Lex." Jack said softly and sat up which made me flinch away from him.
"I won't hurt you Lex." He said quietly.
"How do I know that?" I spat and looked at him but his face had black dots on it telling me if I don't calm down soon I'll pass out.
" You need to trust me." He said and I scoffed.
"Sit up for me." He said completely ignoring my scoff.
But I sat up and Jack moved and sat in front of me our knees touching.
"Give me your hand." He said and offered me his hand.
I looked at him confused but gave him my hand and he moved it and put it on his chest where I could feel his heart beating.
"Copy me, breath in and breath out." He said and showed me.
I copied him for a while and felt my panic attack slowly go away.
Jack kept my hand on his chest and made me copy his breathing until he thought I was calmed down enough.
I looked at him confused as he let go of my hand.
"Go to sleep, you'll feel better after." He said and got off the bed and walked out his room shutting the door behind him.
I lead back down and pulled the covers over my head and fell asleep.

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I was woken up again by Jack walking into the room and him sitting on the bed.
"You feeling any better?" He asked quietly and I nodded.
"I've brought you something to eat and drink." He said.
"I'm not hungry." I yawned loudly.
"You have to eat." He said.
"Been without food before and I'll be fine." I said and looked at Jack.
"Please, it'll keep mum off my back and you'll feel better for some food as well." He said.
"I'm fine Jack." I said and sat up a little.
"Okay if your not going to eat then at least have a drink." He said and handed me a glass of squash.
I looked at him.
"Drink please." He said and I took the drink out his hand and pretty much downed it.
I gave Jack back the glass and he smiled at me.
"Come downstairs. It's only Alice and Alfie home with mum." Jack said and looked at me as I lead back down.
"I'm going back to sleep." I muttered which made Jack chuckle.
"Mind if I join?" He asked.
I shook my head and moved over so Jack could get into bed.

"Is what you do when your not in school? Sleep your day away?" Jack asked and rolled over and faced me.
"No, if I'm not at school then I'm probably round so guys place being fucked just to get some money to survive." I said and looked down.
"Have you ever been you know.. raped?" Jack asked carefully.
"I don't want to talk about it." I whispered.
"You said guys, you gay?" Jack asked.
"I'm as bent as anything. How about you?" I said and looked at him.
"I'm bent as well." Jack chuckled and slowly began to sleep.
I smiled and fell asleep as well.

Notes

shit crappy update...