You've got to hold on.

Jacks POV

I was woken up again and I was going to say something but found out it was Jake and not Alex since Alex was sound asleep with his back to me.
I looked at the time and it was 5.30 in the morning.

"What Jake?" I grumbled feeling myself falling back to sleep.
"Is Alex staying now?" He asked and climbed on the bed and sat on my legs.
"Yeah, he's staying now." I sighed and threw my arm over my face.
"Where did Alex go?" He asked.
"He went back to the streets." I said hoping Jake would fuck off so I could go back to sleep.
"Why did he go back? Isn't he happy here?" He asked.
"Stuff happened and he is happy here, but he needed to get away for a while." I said hoping this was the end of the questions.
But it wasn't.
"Are you and Alex together?" Jake asked.
"Yeah we're together now bog off and let me sleep its too early for questions." I groaned and left Jake get off me and the bedroom door shut.
" Fucking child." I muttered and rolled over and cuddled into Alex's back which made him sigh loudly but didn't wake him.
I smiled and kissed a scar which was between his shoulder blades and went back to sleep.

When I woke up for real this time I was alone in bed.
"I wanted cuddles." I pouted to myself and rolled myself out of bed and put some pants on and went downstairs.
I wondered to the kitchen and saw mum sat down with Alex talking to him about something.
"Alex you need an education its something you'll regret when your older." Mum said and I went and made drinks for everyone well listening to what they was talking about.
"I don't want to go back to school. I only went to school because I needed somewhere to feel safe. Yeah I topped most of my classes but its not the point." Alex said.
"Alex you are a very clever person, why would you throw that away? I understand things haven't been easy for you but you don't need to drop out of school." Mum said.
"I'm not clever." Alex muttered.
"Yeah you are Alex." I said and mum and Alex both looked at me.
"You always got top marks in every test we took. You must of excel in music because everything you did was amazing and I'm not just saying that because I'm with you." I said.
Alex just sighed and looked down.
"Have a think about it sweetie, whatever you decide I will support you and so will Jack and everyone under this roof." Mum said and got up and called everyone who was meant to be going to school.
Alex got up and went outside.
I sighed and grabbed mine and Alex's drinks and went outside with him.

I sat next to him and Alex jumped a little like normal.
"I've made you a tea." I said and Alex smiled and took it off me and looked out to the garden.
"I'm not going back Jack. I'll do something in music. Write my own songs go back and play them on the streets and hope someone out there can recognise my talent or whatever." He said and I looked at him.
Alex looked at me.
"Please say you'll support me." He said quietly but it sounded more like he was begging.
"You know I'll support you and be right by your side no matter what. Just think about it before you make your mind up. That's all what I ask." I said and Alex smiled and nodded.
"I'll think about but I really don't want to go back to school. Please don't make me go back. I don't want him touching me. I don't want to be touched by him again." Alex said and tears fell down his cheeks.
I wiped his tears away.
"You don't have to go back. You don't have to have his hands touching you again okay. Everything is going to be okay now, I'll look after you now." I said and pulled him to my side and kissed the top of his head.
"Was he the only who did stuff to you?" I asked carefully.
" N..N..No." Alex sobbed and put his head in his hands.
"Lex I'm so sorry." I said and rubbed his back for comfort.
"You don't have to tell me but how many others hurt you?" I asked not really pushing for a answer.
"4 more. There was 5 all together." Alex sniffed and wiped his nose on the sleeve of my hoodie.
"Why didn't you tell anyone about it?" I asked.
"Because the head was one of them. He told me if I told anyone then he would have to do something than he would have to do worse things to me." He said and looked down and a tear fell of the end of his nose.
Alex quickly wiped the tears away.
"I deserved it. I'm a slut and I get what I had coming." He said.
"Nobody should be raped by people who should be looking after us." I said.
"No one gave a shit about me. I was shit on peoples shoes because I lived on the streets. No one helped me. No one offered a roof over my head for the night. No one cared. So why should I say something about it? There's no point, no one would believe a tramp like me." He said and looked out to the garden.
"But you was different Jack. You cared. You helped me and you never saw me as shit." He said and looked at me.
"I'm so thankful for that." He said and kissed me.
I looked at him and smiled.
"Enough with the heavy talk. Let's play a game in the Xbox or whatever." I said and Alex smiled and nodded.

Everyine was annoying Alex which gave me and mum a break to have a chat since dad was also in the sitting room keeping a eye on everyone so me and mum went upstairs to hers and dads room.
"Has Alex said anything else about school?" She asked and sat on the bed.
"He's not going back. Nothing will change his mind, not after what he's told me what's happened." I said.
"What's he said?" Mum asked.
"I'm not saying but it was fucking disgusting. The teachers are meant to protect us and be there for us if we need help. Not fucking using us and given us death threats." I ranted.
"Knew that school was iffy." Mum said.
"Jack?" Alex said gingerly as he walked into the bedroom.
"What's up?" I asked and opened my arm out to the side Alex walked over and cuddled into my side.
"Needed to get away." He said quietly and Lily and Alfie came running in and Alex moved more into my side.
"Enough okay, Alex has had enough." Mum said and she looked at Alex.
"But we want to play." Lily said and went to grab Alex.
"No! Enough now." I said seriously and Lily looked at me.
"You need to remember that Alex is not used to this. You need to give him time." I said and opened my other arm up and Lily came over and cuddled into my side.
"I'm sorry I had a go at you but you need to understand." I said and Lily nodded and moved and her and Alfie went running off.
"Lets go to my room yeah?" I said and Alex nodded so we went to my room.

Notes

feel like this is all over the place.