You've got to hold on.

Alex's POV

It was Christmas and I spent the night on the streets just like I agreed with Jack. But he still wanted me to be with him and his family which resulted in us having a argument and me walking out spending 3 days out on the streets before Jack found me and took me back to his.
Other than that me and Jack have been really good and I haven't felt this happy for a long time.

I was making my way to the hostel which does Christmas meals for the homeless and I found the person who was pretty much my mum in my eyes.
"Emily." I said catching her attention and she smiled and walked towards me and pulled me into a hug which I returned.
"Alex, where have you been? I was beginning to worry that something had happened to you." She said and hugged me tighter.
"I'll tell you later." I said quietly.
Em pulled back and looked at me and smiled.
I basically had a family i never had and it was really nice too see them all again and have a laugh.

"So where have you been? Haven't seen your face for a while." Em said as we went outside for a cigarette.
" I've found someone." I said and looked down and kicked a stone.
"They better be treating you like your special because if not I'll find them and will hurt them because you need happiness in your life." Em said seriously.
I couldn't help but chuckle.
"He treats me like I'm special dont worry Em." I smiled.
"So tell me about him, I need to know these things." She said and pulled down to sit next to her and pulled me to her side.
I chuckled.
"You have more cigarettes then?" I asked.
"I have weed if that's what your asking." She chuckled.
"You know me too well." I said and she smiled.
"So tell me about this boy then." She said.

"His name is Jack and he goes to the same school as me." I said and Em handed me a joint.
"Older, younger need to know these details." She said.
"The same age, he lives in a house with parents and his foster siblings." I said.
" Well isn't he lucky." Em muttered.
" He's not that bad, he's really nice and if you want I can get him to meet you just so you can see he isn't like the others." I said and Em looked at me.
"Have they been at you?" She asked seriously and I looked down.
"Alex tell me." She said more seriously.
"Yeah, but I don't really stay on the streets much now, cause I'm with Jack and his family let me stay with them but sometimes I need a break and spend a night or two on the streets." I said.
"When did they last get you?" She asked.
"I dunno, 2 weeks ago but it doesn't matter Em." I said.
"Alex it does matter you are human and you have feeling." Em said.
"Em seriously. It doesn't matter. My own family threw me away like I was trash might as well get treated like trash." I said and had a toke of my joint.
"Alex you are anything but trash." Em said quietly.
"Fucking feel like trash. 16 and doesn't know what its like to have a family because they was too busy fucking other people to even remember they had a kid." I said angrily.
"Well you can forget them and start a life with Jack and his family." Em said.
I looked at her.
"What about you? You've been more of a mum to me than what my own mother was too me." I said.
"I'll be fine and I know you'll always come and check on me." She smiled.
"You should go home and spend Christmas with your family." She said.
"But your my family." I said and looked down.
"I know, but you know that we are toxic people and you shouldn't have to be exposed to it anymore." She said.
I sighed and nodded.
"I'll come and see you soon." I said and hugged her which see returned.
"I know you will." Em said quietly and let me go and I got up and went back to Jacks.

I got back to Jacks and just sat on the porch and just got lost in thought when I heard the door open.
I looked at saw Jack and I couldn't help but smile.
Jack sat down next to me and I rested my head on his shoulder while wrapping my arm round his arm.
"Its freezing out here, come inside." Jack said quietly.
"You should know by now I don't feel the cold anymore." I chuckled.
"I know you don't but I don't like it when your out here." He said and I looked at him and he looked at me.
He smiled and kissed my forehead which made me smile and move closer to him which made him chuckle.
"Come on Jacky and Lex. Joyce is letting us open presents!" Alice said loudly and ran over to me and Jack.
"You go on in, I'll just be out here thinking a d smoking." I said and Jack looked at me.
"Come on its just a bit of weed, its not going to hurt anyone." I said.
Jack rolled his eyes.
"What makes you think you don't have any presents?" Jack asked.
"Because no one gets me presents." I said quietly.
I felt Jack kiss my cheek and I looked at him.
"What?" He asked.
"I'll be in, in a bit just want some of this first." I said and waved my packet of weed a little.
Jack chuckled.
"Well if your having some of that then you might as well have this." He said quietly and put 2 cans off beer on my lap.
I looked at him and smiled.
"Come inside when your ready, we all understand." He said and kissed me and got up and picked Alice up who was talking about something.
I smiled and opened a beer up and took a mouthful while drilling myself a joint and let my mind wonder.

I was lead on the porch completely stoned and tipsy when the door opened the again.
"Alright there stoner?" Jacks dad said and sat on the floor with me.
"I'm as high as a kite and that's where I'm staying." I said and had some more of this joint.
Jacks dad chuckled.
"There's some food inside if you want it." He said.
"The munchies haven't arrived yet, but you'll know when it hits." I said.
"Give us some." He said and I looked at him.
"So you can tell on me, I don't think so." I said.
"What makes you think I'll tell?" He asked.
"Because people always tell. Anything which shouldn't be done they straight to the police and bang a night in the cells for me." I said and sat up a bit to quickly.
"Fuuck." I groaned and ran my hand through my hair.
"Guessing your used to the cells then?" He asked.
"could say that. Only time I was safe away from them." I said and looked down and had some more of my joint and handed it to Jacks dad.
"Dad what are you doing?" Jack asked as he shut the door behind him.
"Joining the stoner club, joining?" Jacks dad said and had some of the joint.
"Would like to live thanks." Jack said and sat next to me.
"Your mother won't mind, just blame Alex." His dad said.
"I'm not blaming Alex." Jack said and looked at me and smiled and I blew him a kiss which made Jack chuckle.
"Get a room." Jacks dad said.
"Might do something if we got a room." I said and smirked at Jack.
"Stop it." Jack said seriously and slapped my leg.
"Can't help it if I can't think about you and what's under that clothing." I said.
"I don't want to know what you think." Jack dad said.
"I'm going to take him upstairs." Jack said and got me up.
"Hope you two wear protection." Jacks dad said.
"Get you fuck you into the mattress." I said quietly in Jacks ear.
"No." Jack said seriously and took me too his room.

Jack sat me in his bed and got something from his draws and sat in front of me which made me look at him.
"I figured that you haven't had a present for a while so I got you one." He said.
"You didn't have to." I said and took the present from him and carefully unwrapped it and looked at it.
It was a lyric book.
"I noticed your one was falling apart so I got you one." He said and I smiled and kissed him hard.
"Thank you, you shouldn't if done. I feel bad that I didn't get you anything now." I said quietly.
"I have you and that's enough for me." Jack smiled.
"But.." I started but Jack kissed me.
"It doesn't matter." He whispered and rested his forehead against mine.
I smiled.
"I'm starving." I said quietly and Jack chuckled.
"Better go and feed you stoned ass then." He said and got off the bed and took me downstairs for food.

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