You and I.

Jacks POV

Alex hasn't moved from the bed for nearly 5 days and I was beginning to get really worried about him because this isn't like Alex what so ever.
He was that bad that he hasn't eaten and I have to force him to drink anything.

"Is Alex okay Jack?" Rose asked as she sat next to me on the sofa.
"I'm going to be honest with you and say no he isn't okay." I said.
"What's wrong with him?" She asked.
"He has loads of problems with his head. Its hard to tell what's up with him. But I wouldn't have him any other way." I said.
"He was really close to his Oscar dude." She said.
"Yeah, Oscar and Alex was really close. If people didn't know about me and Alex being together then people would of thought that they was together." I said and smiled a little.
"Weren't you worried that Alex would cheat?" Rose asked.
"Na. I know for a fact that Alex loves me too much to do anything like that and its the same for me. Anyway Oscar was straight." I said.
"Oh." Rose said quietly.
" Yeah, anyway, I need to try and get some food into him otherwise he's going to starve himself to death and I'm not going to let that happen." I said and got up and went to the kitchen.
"Oh, Eric and Fred might be coming round so they might buzz. You have permission to let them in." I said and got Alex's favourite soup from the cupboard.
"Oh I have dance later so I'll be out until 10 this evening." Rose said.
"Want someone to walk you back?" I asked.
"Na, I have my board and its closer here than with mums so I'm guessing it going to take me about 20 minutes to skate back." She said.
"Okay, let me know when you leave." I said and Rose nodded.
"Cheers Jack." She said and found something to watch and sat on the floor.
Alex's soup was ready and I got him a drink and went to the bedroom.

I walked into the room and Alex was dozing in bed.
"Babe." I said quietly and sat on his side of the bed and put the soup and drink on the floor and messed with his hair until he woke up.
When he woke up he looked at me and I just felt my heart break because there was so much sadness in his eyes.
"Hey babe, I've got you some of your favourite soup and a tea." I said.
"I'm not hungry or thirsty." He whispered.
"Baby please, you haven't eaten for 5 days, you have to eat." I said.
"I don't have to eat." He said quietly and looked away from me.
"Yeah you do because if you don't I won't have anyone to boss around." I said which made Alex smile a little.
"Please, its your favourite." I said and Alex looked at me.
" If I eat do I get cuddles?" He asked.
"Depends on how much you eat. If you eat it all then we can watch a movie bed and cuddle." I said since Alex loves that when he feels like this.
Alex nodded.
" Sit up for me then." I said quietly and Alex sat up and lent against the wall.
I moved and sat in front of him and began to feed him since he wasn't going to do it himself.

Half an hour later Alex had finished.
"Do you feel a little better now?" I asked and Alex nodded.
"How about I run you a nice bath and give you a shave because you look like a caveman ready for winter." I said and Alex chuckled and nodded.
"Then your wish is my command." I said and kissed home which he returned.
I started to run the bath and went back into the bedroom and Alex was sat in a pool of blood.
"I'm sorry I don't know what happened. Don't send me away please Jack I'm begging you don't send me away." He said quickly and started to cry.
I walked over to him and picked him up and took him to the bathroom and sat him on the toilet.
"Its okay, I was waiting for it okay, I'm not going to send you away." I said and kissed him and looked at his arm.
"Jesus Lex this is really deep." I said and looked at him and he was looking down away from my eye contact.
" Baby, talk to me please. I'm here for you and you can talk to me. You know I'll listen to you and give you the best advice I can give you. I don't want to be doing what we had to do before because it was not fun for me or for you. But if your going to be in this mind set for a while then I have to do it Lex. I can't lose you, I've lost mum and dad I can't lose another person I love. Alex are you listening to me? I can't lose you." I said and kissed him which he returned.
I knew he was listen to me as he had this look like he always does when he's listening.
"Do it Jack. Do what we had to do before because I don't trust myself." He said and looked at me.
"You sure?" I asked.
Alex nodded.
"I can't go back, because once I'm in there god knows when I'll be out again. That's if they even deem me safe to be out of hospital." He said.I smiled and Alex kissed me which I returned.
"Let's have a bath and then go and cuddle and watch films." I said and started to help Alex undress himself.
"I love you." He said quietly and looked at me.
"I love you too Lex." I said which made him smile.

Notes

I'm tired and I need sleep... but can't sleep..