Baby, We're Like a Timebomb
Destined To Explode
Jack
I woke up in the morning with a terrible hangover, my stomach felt nauseous, my head was pounding, my whole body felt sore.
How hard did I party last night? My eyes squinted against the light that felt like they were burning my irises.
I can barely remember anything, I knew that I danced on top of my kitchen counter, Brendon puked in a houseplant, and that Rian had a really really good birthday.
That’s all that really matters I guess.
I had my arms wrapped around a body in my bed, so I assumed it was Alex. I cuddled closer to him, and smiled as he pressed his face against my chest.
I laid my head down on his hair, and realized something.
This hair is way too dark to be Alex’s, and it smells like lavender, instead of it’s usual faint smell of coconut. This body is way too small to be Alex… and it has boobs.
I looked under the covers and jerked away from it quickly, waking the girl next to me immediately.
I recognized her brown eyes and button nose, and felt a lot more sick than I did before.
“TAY, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING NAKED IN MY BED?!?!” I screamed, covering my own body up with a sheet.
“What do you mean?” she gave me a confused look.
How drunk was I?
“DID WE SLEEP TOGETHER?” I exclaimed in horror, realized that we were both naked.
This doesn’t mean we had sex right?
Maybe this is a prank she’s pulling on me, in a few minutes she was going to admit that she was just screwing with me, and not literally screwing me.
There’s no way that we actually had sex.
Tay’s face was bright red with embarrassment, and she covered up her body with a sheet before staring at me nervously.
“I thought you wa-”
“Did you think I meant to have sex with you? Oh my god, this can’t be happening….” I trailed off, covering my face with a pillow. I shook my head violently, like this was a nightmare that I just needed to wake up from.
“No, no no no no, this can’t be happening.” I mumbled, covering my face with a pillow.
“I’m so sorry, Jack, but if you’d just let me tell you-”
“What the fuck Tay?!?!” I shouted at her making her flinch, completely overwhelmed with emotions.
I slept with Tay.
I couldn’t even wrap my brain around it.
How could I do that?
She’s one of my best friends, sure, she’s cute and all, but I’ve never liked her in that way.
She’s like my sister, holy shit what did I just do?
How could I screw up this bad?
“This isn’t all my fault!” she defended herself, her eyebrows pressed closer together showing she was starting to get mad.
“I didn’t do anything! I was drunk!!!” I claimed. I still don’t remember anything about being with Tay last night, this is all insane It has to be a joke, right?
“I was drunk too! You’re not fucking gay Jack, don’t blame this all on me!!”
As soon as the words left her mouth, I felt a wave of guilt.
Alex.
My beautiful, amazing, perfect boyfriend.
“FUCK, I JUST CHEATED ON ALEX, DAMMIT.”
Alex is the sweetest, most loving and faithful person I’ve ever met. I don’t even think the idea of him cheating on me has ever crossed his mind for a second.
He’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me, I’m in love with him.
I love him more than anybody on this fucking planet, and I cheated on him. I cheated on the absolute love of my life.
I did what he was most afraid of me doing, the thing that I promised him I would never do.
I slept with someone else. While I was with him.
I just fucked someone who wasn’t Alex.
How could I do this? I didn’t want this to happen! I didn’t think it through, I was drunk, really really drunk!
This is the biggest mistake of my life, I betrayed Alex completely.
I love him so much it hurts, and I did the one thing that would completely break his heart.
“Oh god, what did we do…” Tay muttered, looking up at me with scared eyes.
I had so many emotions running through my head, all I could express is anger towards Tay, and how angry I was at myself.
I felt a hard, burning pit of guilt and resentment in my stomach, that I know was not going away anytime soon.
I cheated on my best friend
I cheated on my boyfriend
I cheated on the love of my life
I cheated on Alex
“I have a fucking boyfriend, Tay! You don’t anymore, so you don’t have anything to worry about!” I growled at her, trying to think of the best way possible to break the news to Alex.
Anyway is going to be devastating for the both of us.
It obviously had to be in person, but I couldn’t take seeing his reaction.
I’d rather fucking die than break Alex Gaskarth’s heart.
“Jack, can I talk to you about something serious for a second?” Tay asked me, but I was too lost in thought.
What have I done to him?
He’s such my sensitive, fragile, insecure baby. I’m supposed to take care of him, and kick anyone’s ass who ever glances at him the wrong way.
He cant take this, he won’t be able to handle this.
He really is going to be devastated, not as devastated as me for being the one to break my love’s heart.
“I just screwed up my entire relationship with him…” I mumbled.
“Hey, what if we don’t tell him?”
“What?” I asked in disbelief.
That’s the worst fucking idea I’ve ever heard in my life. I can’t keep a secret from Alex, he’s my whole life.
My entire world revolves around that little caramel haired boy, I’ve never lied to him before, and I don’t plan on ever doing it.
I’ve ruined everything enough, I might as well tell him the truth.
“We don’t have to tell anyone, it can be our secret.” Tay told me, scooching closer to me on the bed.
“Are you insane?!?” I exclaimed, just then, my bedroom door swung open, and both Rian and
Cass’s jaw’s dropped at the sight of us.
I quickly reached down and pulled on my boxers that were on the floor, so I wouldn’t have to be completely naked while Cass killed me.
“WHAT THE FUCK?!?” Cass screeched.
“I-I don’t know h-how this happened, we were both really drunk-”
“I’m calling Alex.” she muttered, grabbing her phone out of her pocket and unlocking it.
No, I’m not ready.
“No!!! He can’t find out!” I blurted, she looked up at me with a death stare.
He can’t know.
This will ruin him.
He’s already going through way too much pain as it is.
He doesn’t need this agony, I’ll deal with it myself.
“We aren’t going to tell him,” Tay explained.
“Jack, you just cheated on him…” Rian stated the obvious, completely shocked by the whole situation, and looked pissed off when I said I would keep it a secret.
“I didn’t mean to…” I mumbled, running my hands nervously through my hair.
I betrayed him.
“How could you guys do this?! Are you idiots? Do you even remember anything?” Cass questioned us.
“No,” I said.
“Y-Yeah… only a little bit…” Tay mumbled, staring at her hands that were holding the sheet to her bare chest.
“What to you remember?!?” I asked immediately, she looked up at me almost like she was guilty.
“Uh… Um… j-just us m-making out.” she said nervously. I groaned in frustration, and got off the bed to get dressed. I didn’t even feel the hangover anymore, I just felt shattered.
“Alex is going to be so heartbroken,” Rian muttered, I could hear the disappointment in his voice. It felt like a punch in the gut, having so much guilt about what you’ve just done, knowing everybody is so unhappy with you.
There’s nothing I can do to make this go away. I can never undo this.
I’d do anything for a time machine.
I wish I didn’t kiss Alex when I was sick, I wish he came to the party, I wish I didn’t get so drunk because I missed him, and I really wish I didn’t sleep with Tay.
I’ve never felt so disappointed and angry with myself. Why did I have to sleep with Tay?
If Rian did, Cass and him would probably break up for a week, but their both strong enough to realize that their love can last through a bump in the road
I know my baby, I know Alex, he wouldn’t be able to see past the bad. He wouldn’t care how drunk I was, or how insanely guilty I am right now that it felt like I could barely breathe, he would just picture me with another person and break.
That’s why he can’t know.
“I know…” I mumbled. This all felt like a nightmare come to life.
“Maybe he will understand once you tell him, he knows you’re bi, and how much you love him. If you tell him how drunk you were-”
“He wouldn’t understand, we can’t tell him. We should just all forget about this,” Tay interrupted Cass.
She’s right. It was a dumb mistake that meant nothing.
There’s no shame in not telling him if I’m protecting him from the truth, right?
Fuck that honesty is the most important thing in relationships crap, Alex is never going to find out.
I woke up in the morning with a terrible hangover, my stomach felt nauseous, my head was pounding, my whole body felt sore.
How hard did I party last night? My eyes squinted against the light that felt like they were burning my irises.
I can barely remember anything, I knew that I danced on top of my kitchen counter, Brendon puked in a houseplant, and that Rian had a really really good birthday.
That’s all that really matters I guess.
I had my arms wrapped around a body in my bed, so I assumed it was Alex. I cuddled closer to him, and smiled as he pressed his face against my chest.
I laid my head down on his hair, and realized something.
This hair is way too dark to be Alex’s, and it smells like lavender, instead of it’s usual faint smell of coconut. This body is way too small to be Alex… and it has boobs.
I looked under the covers and jerked away from it quickly, waking the girl next to me immediately.
I recognized her brown eyes and button nose, and felt a lot more sick than I did before.
“TAY, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING NAKED IN MY BED?!?!” I screamed, covering my own body up with a sheet.
“What do you mean?” she gave me a confused look.
How drunk was I?
“DID WE SLEEP TOGETHER?” I exclaimed in horror, realized that we were both naked.
This doesn’t mean we had sex right?
Maybe this is a prank she’s pulling on me, in a few minutes she was going to admit that she was just screwing with me, and not literally screwing me.
There’s no way that we actually had sex.
Tay’s face was bright red with embarrassment, and she covered up her body with a sheet before staring at me nervously.
“I thought you wa-”
“Did you think I meant to have sex with you? Oh my god, this can’t be happening….” I trailed off, covering my face with a pillow. I shook my head violently, like this was a nightmare that I just needed to wake up from.
“No, no no no no, this can’t be happening.” I mumbled, covering my face with a pillow.
“I’m so sorry, Jack, but if you’d just let me tell you-”
“What the fuck Tay?!?!” I shouted at her making her flinch, completely overwhelmed with emotions.
I slept with Tay.
I couldn’t even wrap my brain around it.
How could I do that?
She’s one of my best friends, sure, she’s cute and all, but I’ve never liked her in that way.
She’s like my sister, holy shit what did I just do?
How could I screw up this bad?
“This isn’t all my fault!” she defended herself, her eyebrows pressed closer together showing she was starting to get mad.
“I didn’t do anything! I was drunk!!!” I claimed. I still don’t remember anything about being with Tay last night, this is all insane It has to be a joke, right?
“I was drunk too! You’re not fucking gay Jack, don’t blame this all on me!!”
As soon as the words left her mouth, I felt a wave of guilt.
Alex.
My beautiful, amazing, perfect boyfriend.
“FUCK, I JUST CHEATED ON ALEX, DAMMIT.”
Alex is the sweetest, most loving and faithful person I’ve ever met. I don’t even think the idea of him cheating on me has ever crossed his mind for a second.
He’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me, I’m in love with him.
I love him more than anybody on this fucking planet, and I cheated on him. I cheated on the absolute love of my life.
I did what he was most afraid of me doing, the thing that I promised him I would never do.
I slept with someone else. While I was with him.
I just fucked someone who wasn’t Alex.
How could I do this? I didn’t want this to happen! I didn’t think it through, I was drunk, really really drunk!
This is the biggest mistake of my life, I betrayed Alex completely.
I love him so much it hurts, and I did the one thing that would completely break his heart.
“Oh god, what did we do…” Tay muttered, looking up at me with scared eyes.
I had so many emotions running through my head, all I could express is anger towards Tay, and how angry I was at myself.
I felt a hard, burning pit of guilt and resentment in my stomach, that I know was not going away anytime soon.
I cheated on my best friend
I cheated on my boyfriend
I cheated on the love of my life
I cheated on Alex
“I have a fucking boyfriend, Tay! You don’t anymore, so you don’t have anything to worry about!” I growled at her, trying to think of the best way possible to break the news to Alex.
Anyway is going to be devastating for the both of us.
It obviously had to be in person, but I couldn’t take seeing his reaction.
I’d rather fucking die than break Alex Gaskarth’s heart.
“Jack, can I talk to you about something serious for a second?” Tay asked me, but I was too lost in thought.
What have I done to him?
He’s such my sensitive, fragile, insecure baby. I’m supposed to take care of him, and kick anyone’s ass who ever glances at him the wrong way.
He cant take this, he won’t be able to handle this.
He really is going to be devastated, not as devastated as me for being the one to break my love’s heart.
“I just screwed up my entire relationship with him…” I mumbled.
“Hey, what if we don’t tell him?”
“What?” I asked in disbelief.
That’s the worst fucking idea I’ve ever heard in my life. I can’t keep a secret from Alex, he’s my whole life.
My entire world revolves around that little caramel haired boy, I’ve never lied to him before, and I don’t plan on ever doing it.
I’ve ruined everything enough, I might as well tell him the truth.
“We don’t have to tell anyone, it can be our secret.” Tay told me, scooching closer to me on the bed.
“Are you insane?!?” I exclaimed, just then, my bedroom door swung open, and both Rian and
Cass’s jaw’s dropped at the sight of us.
I quickly reached down and pulled on my boxers that were on the floor, so I wouldn’t have to be completely naked while Cass killed me.
“WHAT THE FUCK?!?” Cass screeched.
“I-I don’t know h-how this happened, we were both really drunk-”
“I’m calling Alex.” she muttered, grabbing her phone out of her pocket and unlocking it.
No, I’m not ready.
“No!!! He can’t find out!” I blurted, she looked up at me with a death stare.
He can’t know.
This will ruin him.
He’s already going through way too much pain as it is.
He doesn’t need this agony, I’ll deal with it myself.
“We aren’t going to tell him,” Tay explained.
“Jack, you just cheated on him…” Rian stated the obvious, completely shocked by the whole situation, and looked pissed off when I said I would keep it a secret.
“I didn’t mean to…” I mumbled, running my hands nervously through my hair.
I betrayed him.
“How could you guys do this?! Are you idiots? Do you even remember anything?” Cass questioned us.
“No,” I said.
“Y-Yeah… only a little bit…” Tay mumbled, staring at her hands that were holding the sheet to her bare chest.
“What to you remember?!?” I asked immediately, she looked up at me almost like she was guilty.
“Uh… Um… j-just us m-making out.” she said nervously. I groaned in frustration, and got off the bed to get dressed. I didn’t even feel the hangover anymore, I just felt shattered.
“Alex is going to be so heartbroken,” Rian muttered, I could hear the disappointment in his voice. It felt like a punch in the gut, having so much guilt about what you’ve just done, knowing everybody is so unhappy with you.
There’s nothing I can do to make this go away. I can never undo this.
I’d do anything for a time machine.
I wish I didn’t kiss Alex when I was sick, I wish he came to the party, I wish I didn’t get so drunk because I missed him, and I really wish I didn’t sleep with Tay.
I’ve never felt so disappointed and angry with myself. Why did I have to sleep with Tay?
If Rian did, Cass and him would probably break up for a week, but their both strong enough to realize that their love can last through a bump in the road
I know my baby, I know Alex, he wouldn’t be able to see past the bad. He wouldn’t care how drunk I was, or how insanely guilty I am right now that it felt like I could barely breathe, he would just picture me with another person and break.
That’s why he can’t know.
“I know…” I mumbled. This all felt like a nightmare come to life.
“Maybe he will understand once you tell him, he knows you’re bi, and how much you love him. If you tell him how drunk you were-”
“He wouldn’t understand, we can’t tell him. We should just all forget about this,” Tay interrupted Cass.
She’s right. It was a dumb mistake that meant nothing.
There’s no shame in not telling him if I’m protecting him from the truth, right?
Fuck that honesty is the most important thing in relationships crap, Alex is never going to find out.
Notes
OH shit
Jack's being an asshole againnnnnnn
welcome to the extremely dramatic "Baby, We're Like A Timebomb"
i'm very angry at Jack
i'm very angry at Tay
i'm very angry at myself for writing this plot that is giving me an emotional roller coaster along with all of you guys
i wont be posting for the next few days as you guys know by now :(
i just gotta get everything all organized, and write some stuff, and plan some stuff
don't worry, this story will probably be updated just as much as the last one was
im going to start working more on my other stories a little bit too, because those are just waiting for me to write all the drama in those lmao
i am now just realizing how much I will miss writing genuine, cutesy, fluffy jalex
UGH
why did i do this
no regrets though, i love this story XD
BUT JACK HAS REGRETS
AND TAY DOESNT
DAMN
AND JACK WON'T LET TAY JUST TELL HIM THAT SHE'S IN LOVE WITH HIM
SHE HAD SO MANY OPPORTUNITIES
i would add outfits but THEY AREN'T WEARING CLOTHES BECAUSE THEY JUST FUCKED
oh well
this is me and probably all of you guys right now
for the death of genuine jalex fluff
Title Credit- Time Bomb
Hello! I don't remember if I've commented on here before, but I love this story and I miss it so much! I hope you are doing alright and update soon! <3 -also this cliffhanger is gonna kill me-
9/26/17