Break your little heart
truth and lies part 1
Carlie POV
**2 months timelapse**
It had been 2 months since I had lost spoke to my friends and i was miserable; I was cutting again on my legs and crying myself to sleep the little sleep I did get when I wasn't riddled with nightmares. The only time I was slightly happy was when I was with Elliott and at work. Elliott and work kept me from thinking about the bad things but even they couldn’t fill the void when I was alone. School was making me worse because my friends were everywhere I went, I couldn’t escape from them.
I knew in my heart Jessie had got to them and that is why they weren't talking to me I just couldn’t prove it. i thought I was away from his reign of terror on my life but I was wrong and it just followed me to the states. It was love between us at first but it soon became a living nightmare. I would go to his house after school and then the abuse would start; no one noticed because he never hurt me anywhere where anyone could see. One person found out and I protected him and told them that I was getting them from doing martial arts which I actually took. I was still protecting him by lying to the police and my grandparents. I was terrified of him some of the other things he did to me I couldn’t even think about it was too much. I felt worthless, used, betrayed and alone because I couldn't tell anyone about my past. There was some things that I have done as well that I am ashamed of. Alex was turning into the only person I felt like I could tell and trust but now he was gone because of Jessie.
I was sat alone at lunch for the first time in two months because Elliott was off sick when the one person I really didn’t need bothering me the queen bitch and head cheerleader Bailey came over with her posse.
"Hey loner," Bailey sneered.
"Leave me alone I am not in the mood for your bullshit. Go find someone else to torture better yet take a hike," I replied.
"Now! Now! Don’t be like that. Where's the guy you're always with lately?" Bailey asked not getting my hint to leave.
"He's not here he is ill not that it is any of your business. Did you want something else?" I said through gritted teeth.
"Just wondered why you were alone. Seems like all your friends have realised what a freak you are and abandoned you. Also I got told to do this," Bailey said as she threw a slushy at me.
At that moment I flipped and launched myself across the table paper and food going everywhere as I hit Bailey while she was underneath me on the floor, she got a few good hits in before we were pulled apart by a teacher. I grabbed my stuff as quick as I could and ran away crying and dripping wet from theslushie.
I heard Bailey shout that it wasn't over as I ran away but ignored it. I ran to the other end of the school and into a bathroom.
Isank to the floor sobs wracking through my body. i was crying and crying it was so bad that I was starting to have a panic attack which made me worse.
I had wiped the slushy from my face but it still made me extremely cold because i was wet from it. I don’t know how long I was panicking for or how long I was sat in the bathroom; it was like I had lost all sense of time.
I didn’t even notice Alex and Cass walk into the bathroom until they were sat in front of me. Alex calmed me down but i was still out of it. The next thing I knew was Alex was lifting me up and carrying me to his car with Cass in tow. I didn’t say a word this was the first contact we had, had in months.
He drove all three of us to his house and he carried me to his bedroom; I still hadn't said a word.i got like a statue when i was having a breakdown and i didn’t speak to anyone. He lay me on his bed and said something to Cass, she came back a few moments later and handed something tiny to Alex and a glass of water.
Alex handed me two tablets and a glass of water which I took without question before to long I fell asleep briefly remembering Alex kissing me on my forehead and tucking me into the quilt on his bed.
Cass POV
I was sat eating lunch when I saw what happened between Carlie and Bailey. It happened so fast but as soon as Alex and I run away we knew we had to try and find her. We looked all over the school and finally found her in a bathroom having a panic attack and crying her heart out. I instantly felt a pang of regret we caused this with what we did. After Alex calmed Carlie down Alex carried her to his car and drove us to his house.
Carlie didn’t say a word at all and she didn’t even question when Alex put her in his bed and gave her two sleeping tablets which he sent me to get. It was half hour later and Alex was watching Carlie sleep we didn’t say a word. It was weird because I knew Alex felt like crap none of us had spoken to her in months and he had said that the moments without her felt like an eternity. We all felt terrible for cutting her out of our lives. We knew we had to tell her the truth though.
I texted all our friends I even included Alex in the conversation to tell them what happened.
To Jack-attack, Alexo, Ri, Zacky, Tay-Tay, Vicki:
Alex and I brought Carlie back to Alex's house. We found her in a bathroom having a panic attack and crying.
We had to do something. She is now asleep in Alex's bed.
Come round after school we are going to tell her. We can’t keep this a secret anymore.
We need to do this though.
I don’t want her hurt but we all love her and Alex especially can't stay away anymore!!!
From Zacky:
I'll be right over after school.
I'll pop into rita's and tell them Carlie is ill so she wnt b in work 2day.
Anyone want anything?
From Jack-attack:
REUNION FINALLY!!!
B there soon.
Zack get me a banana milkshake dude and a burger n fries from IN N OUT.
From Vicky:
is food all you think about Jack?
I'll b there 2.
Choc shake though plz xx
From me:
Vanilla plz x
From Ri xx:
I'm in also same as Jack including burger and fries.
I'll b there 2.
Choc shake though plz xx
From me:
Vanilla plz x
From Ri xx:
I'm in also same as Jack including burger and fries.
From Tay-Tay:
See you soon.
Zack babe I'll meet you by your car.
From Alexo:
Thanks guys see you soon.
Zack mine and Carlies usual from in N out.
From Rita's 2 banana milkshakes.
Thanks dude.
From Zacky:
No probz guys see you soon.
From Jack-attack:
See you soon.
Alex i hope you know what you're doing.
From Alex:
Don’t worry I do.
Alex and I sat on our phones while waiting for everyone to turn up and because Carlie was asleep we didn’t want to wake her up.
Alex POV
Bringing Carlie back to mine was something i really didn’t want to regret, Cass and I thought it was for the best to tell her the truth. I had to tell her the truth but I also had to say the right words;i didn’t want her to hate me but i also couldn’t lie anymore.
It was four pm by the time everyone turned up and we were all sat in silence still because Carlie was still asleep. I was so nervous to wake her up but I knew I had too.
"Carlie... Car wake up," I said nicely shaking her awake.
She stirred opening her eyes and looked at me before shivering and asking, "Alex what's going on?"
"Cass and I brought you to mine remember," I answered as I went to my closet and got a pair of shorts and a t-shirt for Carlie and then said, "Here put these on."
Carlie took the clothes form me and went to my bathroom to get changed; when she came back out she had changed and put her hair up. She was still shivering so she got back into my bed underneath the covers.
"Carlie we need to talk," I said nervously.
I was so extremely nervous to have the conversation we were about to have.
"So now almost after almost 3 months you want to talk. You've all ignored me for months. I've been in a really bad frame of mind blaming myself for you guys not talking to me. I've been cutting again. If it wasn’t for Elliott I wouldn’t have had the strength to carry on. Working made it better. You guys just cut me out. I was alone. Alex you knew about my mental health and you left me. What is there you possibly have to say. If it's that you and I are over Alex I kind of clocked on to that when you wouldn’t speak to me. I get that what happened with Jessie was bad but you cutting me out didnt help. I've seen him hanging around I'm terrified to go anywhere on my own in case he does something. So tell me please what it is we need to talk about cause I am dying to know," Carlie shouted.
I looked at my friends and they all nodded, so we told Carlie the truth.
**flashback**
After I left Carlie's after Jack's text message I don’t know why but I felt an instant feeling of panic. I got to Jack's and everyone was there including the one person I wanted to kill and that was Jessie. I instantly lunged for him but was held back by Zack and Rian.
"WHAT THE FUCK WHY IS HE HERE! YOU KNOW HE ATTACKED CARLIE!" I screamed trying to break out of Rian and Zacks' grip but to no avail.
"We know buthe has a proposition for us but, you're not going to like it at all. He's saying that he will leave Carlie alone and disappear if we cut her out of our lives," Jack explained.
"Bullshit will he leave her alone. With us out of the way he can do what he wants with her. I love her no way am I leaving her alone. NO WAY!" I replied.
"So you're telling me you won't stay away from Carlie even if it means keeping her safe," Jessie sneered.
"You're sadistic, you can't touch Carlie," I shouted back getting angrier.
"I can touch Carlie whenever I want. She won’t tell on me because I have dirt on her that could get her in trouble. so you stay away from her and so will I otherwise it won't be you seeing her in hospital it will be you seeing her in a mortuary," Jessie replied.
"Alex it's to protect her. Look what's just happened, next time it could be worse. We all love Carlie but keeping her safe is the most important thing. None of us want to do this but it's for her," Tay said sadly.
At that moment I knew Tay was right we had to protect Carlie. I broke down into floods of tears because i loved her and I didn't know if I could stay away....
**FLASH FORWARD**
After we finished Carlie started crying,i sat next to her comforting her and she took a while to calm down but she finally did.
"Why didn’t you just tell me we could have pretended that we had broken up...,"Carlie started to say but Cass interrupted her, "You two couldn’t have just pretended to break up because we were told to all stay away. We couldn’t do anything. We didn’t want to get you hurt."
"Well i don’t want to be apart from you guys anymore. I've missed you all. You also have Elliott to help you so i don't get hurt. I know Jessie is still around but I don’t think he would bother hurting me again with you guys around. If you guys are so worried though we will play it smart. We will pretend that we are still not talking but see each other secretly. You guys can come to where i work and we can text also we can try and hang out at our houses. One thing though we have a new member of the group and that's Elliott he has been there for me the past few months," Carlie explained.
"That's fine, we just have to be super careful. We are gonna have to make it believable that you don’t want to speak to us anymore," Vic said.
We made a plan that Carlie was going to storm out angrily and I was going to argue with her it's a good thing Carlie was an actress otherwise I didn’t think it would work.
"OK! Let's do this," I said.
We went downstairs and out the door.
"Carlie I'm sorry but you and I are over. I don't want to see you anymore and i don’t want you around me or MY friends," i shouted as we got out onto the porch.
"Fine be a jerk. You asshole, you don’t want to speak to me for two months and then when I ask you why you don’t answer me. You're a coward Alexander William Gaskarth, the fact that it takes you two months to dump me is horrendous.i wouldn't want to be around you or your friends another second. Now go fuck yourself,"Carlie screamed back at me it was so convincing even I believed it.
She stormed off and I watched her leave and storm across the road into her house. I broke down on the porch crying to make it even more believable. After ten minutes I got up and went back into my house. I got upstairs and I had a text off Carlie:
From Carlie bear xxx
Good acting babe.
I still love you!!!
Xxxxxxxxxxxx
To Carlie bear xxx
Love you to.
Ur my world.
I've missed you!!!
Xxxxxxx
From Carlie Bear xxx
Missed u 2 loser
Xxxxxxxx
"Is she ok?" Vic asked.
"Yeah she is, I've missed her so much. I'm glad we finally told her we should have done it sooner, she deserved to know sooner. It's going to be hard to pretend to hate each other outside but at least I get to hold her in my arms again. She's the love of my life and I never want to let her go again ever," I replied.
For the first time in months I was happy truly happy.
Carlie POV
To Lexy xxx
Missed you 2 loser
Xxxxxxx
I was happy for the first time in months. Even though he was ill I decided to text Elliott.
To Elliott xx
Yo bubba wat ya doin?
Xxx
From Elliott xx
Yo biatch. Nothing really
Bored u xxx
To Elliott xx
Same Come round
Xxx
From Elliott xx
Be there in 10
Xx
To Elliott xx
Ok! Xxx
I texted Alex and my friends in a group chat.
To lexy, Cass, Vic, Jackoby, Tay,Rian and Zack:
Guys Elliott is coming round.
I'm going to tell him.
Jackoby:
Ok we've missed you nutter
Lexy:
Don’t call my girlfriend a nutter I will end you.
Jackoby:
Bring it bitch.
Vic:stop it u 2
Carlie we need 2 do some online shopping.
Cass:
Yes we do.
Rian:
You guys spend to much already.
Vic:
Well we can't go to the mall
So online shopping all we have
Xxx
Cass:
True that!
Carlie:
Online shopping is the best no queues.
Tay:
OMG so true.
Vic:
Only probz about doing it online is that
U don’t get to try on the clothes.
Carlie:
That is also true.
We can do a fashion show when clothes
Get here.
Zack:
This convo isn't about shopping guys.
Back to the part about Elliott.
Carlie:
I'm going to tell him wats going onhecan
Help us xx
Alex:
Ok if you're sure.
I'm glad you had someone when
we weren't around
Carlie:
I'm sure xx
My bedroom door opened at that moment and in walked Elliott who had a key to my house. He then sat on my bed.
"What's up biatch?" Elliott said.
I told Elliott the story about Jessie and what he made my friends do and the plan now.
"Ok that's fine. I will help in any way that I can. We have work tomorrow so maybe they can come into Rita's tomorrow it will be nice to speak to the mall properly," Elliot said when I finally finished the story.
"Ok I'll message them," I replied.
I went back on to he group chat which had a few more messages and sent:
Carlie:
Guys meet at Rita's italian ice @ 7:30PM Tomoz
Lexy:
Ok babe
Vic:
si senora
Jackoby:
Okie dokie artichoke
Cass:
okays
Rian:
i'll be there
Zack:
Oui mademoiselle
Tay:
Okay x
I put down my phone and told Elliott they would be there at 7:30. We sat watching youtube and ordered chinese food because my grandparents had gone out of town for a few weeks. It would be my first night alone. At midnight Elliott had to leave.
"Dude pick me up tomorrow for school I left my car there today," I said to Elliott before her left.
"Sure I'll text you," He replied and left.
I made sure all the doors and windows were locked in the house and then went to bed. I text Alex before going to sleep because as much as I had missed him I missed our late night texting more.
To lexy xxx:
Hey babe you ok?
Xxxxx
From Lexy xxx:
I'm ok baby.
I've missed our late night txts.
How r u?Xxxxxx
To Lexy xxx:
I've missed the txts 2
I'm ok Elliot jst left.
Wuu2 xxxx
From Lexy xxx:
Thinking of u.
Wat about u xxxxxxx
To lexy:
Wat about me xx ;)
I'm lying in bed.
From Lexy:
Just how hot u looked
In my clothes 2day ;)
To lexy xxx:
Oh ok well I could talk 2 u
All night but I need 2 sleep xxx
From lexy xxx:
I want 2 join u xxx
To lexy xxx:
I'm home alone so u could have
But obvs u cant xxx
From Lexy xxx:
I could join you.
I can climb through ur window xxx
To lexy xxx:
What about Jessie? Xxx
From Lexy xxx:
Fuck him.
I doubt he's watchin but I will
Go out my back door and round.
Xxxxxxx
To lexy xxx:
Ok but b careful xxxxxxx
From Lexy xxx:
Be there soon babe xxxxx
I couldn’t help but smile, I knew Alex coming round would be dangerous but i didn’t care. After about 20 minutes there was a knock at my bedroom window. It was Alex; i let him in and the first thing he did was kiss me.i had missed his lips on mine; kissing him again made me feel whole.
"Come on you, we have school tomorrow and I am tired from today excursions," I said climbing back into bed.
Alex climbed into the other side and said, Can’t we just bunk off and spend the day in bed."
"I have work tomorrow," I replied.
"Bunk off school and then you can go to work," Alex explained.
"Ok but I have to go to work no questions asked,"i replied.
i texted Elliott and told him not to pick me up for school but to pick me up for work; he texted back a few minutes later saying that he would pick me up at 3pm. I put my phone back down and snuggled into Alex with my head on his chest and I fell asleep instantly.
**2 months timelapse**
It had been 2 months since I had lost spoke to my friends and i was miserable; I was cutting again on my legs and crying myself to sleep the little sleep I did get when I wasn't riddled with nightmares. The only time I was slightly happy was when I was with Elliott and at work. Elliott and work kept me from thinking about the bad things but even they couldn’t fill the void when I was alone. School was making me worse because my friends were everywhere I went, I couldn’t escape from them.
I knew in my heart Jessie had got to them and that is why they weren't talking to me I just couldn’t prove it. i thought I was away from his reign of terror on my life but I was wrong and it just followed me to the states. It was love between us at first but it soon became a living nightmare. I would go to his house after school and then the abuse would start; no one noticed because he never hurt me anywhere where anyone could see. One person found out and I protected him and told them that I was getting them from doing martial arts which I actually took. I was still protecting him by lying to the police and my grandparents. I was terrified of him some of the other things he did to me I couldn’t even think about it was too much. I felt worthless, used, betrayed and alone because I couldn't tell anyone about my past. There was some things that I have done as well that I am ashamed of. Alex was turning into the only person I felt like I could tell and trust but now he was gone because of Jessie.
I was sat alone at lunch for the first time in two months because Elliott was off sick when the one person I really didn’t need bothering me the queen bitch and head cheerleader Bailey came over with her posse.
"Hey loner," Bailey sneered.
"Leave me alone I am not in the mood for your bullshit. Go find someone else to torture better yet take a hike," I replied.
"Now! Now! Don’t be like that. Where's the guy you're always with lately?" Bailey asked not getting my hint to leave.
"He's not here he is ill not that it is any of your business. Did you want something else?" I said through gritted teeth.
"Just wondered why you were alone. Seems like all your friends have realised what a freak you are and abandoned you. Also I got told to do this," Bailey said as she threw a slushy at me.
At that moment I flipped and launched myself across the table paper and food going everywhere as I hit Bailey while she was underneath me on the floor, she got a few good hits in before we were pulled apart by a teacher. I grabbed my stuff as quick as I could and ran away crying and dripping wet from theslushie.
I heard Bailey shout that it wasn't over as I ran away but ignored it. I ran to the other end of the school and into a bathroom.
Isank to the floor sobs wracking through my body. i was crying and crying it was so bad that I was starting to have a panic attack which made me worse.
I had wiped the slushy from my face but it still made me extremely cold because i was wet from it. I don’t know how long I was panicking for or how long I was sat in the bathroom; it was like I had lost all sense of time.
I didn’t even notice Alex and Cass walk into the bathroom until they were sat in front of me. Alex calmed me down but i was still out of it. The next thing I knew was Alex was lifting me up and carrying me to his car with Cass in tow. I didn’t say a word this was the first contact we had, had in months.
He drove all three of us to his house and he carried me to his bedroom; I still hadn't said a word.i got like a statue when i was having a breakdown and i didn’t speak to anyone. He lay me on his bed and said something to Cass, she came back a few moments later and handed something tiny to Alex and a glass of water.
Alex handed me two tablets and a glass of water which I took without question before to long I fell asleep briefly remembering Alex kissing me on my forehead and tucking me into the quilt on his bed.
Cass POV
I was sat eating lunch when I saw what happened between Carlie and Bailey. It happened so fast but as soon as Alex and I run away we knew we had to try and find her. We looked all over the school and finally found her in a bathroom having a panic attack and crying her heart out. I instantly felt a pang of regret we caused this with what we did. After Alex calmed Carlie down Alex carried her to his car and drove us to his house.
Carlie didn’t say a word at all and she didn’t even question when Alex put her in his bed and gave her two sleeping tablets which he sent me to get. It was half hour later and Alex was watching Carlie sleep we didn’t say a word. It was weird because I knew Alex felt like crap none of us had spoken to her in months and he had said that the moments without her felt like an eternity. We all felt terrible for cutting her out of our lives. We knew we had to tell her the truth though.
I texted all our friends I even included Alex in the conversation to tell them what happened.
To Jack-attack, Alexo, Ri, Zacky, Tay-Tay, Vicki:
Alex and I brought Carlie back to Alex's house. We found her in a bathroom having a panic attack and crying.
We had to do something. She is now asleep in Alex's bed.
Come round after school we are going to tell her. We can’t keep this a secret anymore.
We need to do this though.
I don’t want her hurt but we all love her and Alex especially can't stay away anymore!!!
From Zacky:
I'll be right over after school.
I'll pop into rita's and tell them Carlie is ill so she wnt b in work 2day.
Anyone want anything?
From Jack-attack:
REUNION FINALLY!!!
B there soon.
Zack get me a banana milkshake dude and a burger n fries from IN N OUT.
From Vicky:
is food all you think about Jack?
I'll b there 2.
Choc shake though plz xx
From me:
Vanilla plz x
From Ri xx:
I'm in also same as Jack including burger and fries.
I'll b there 2.
Choc shake though plz xx
From me:
Vanilla plz x
From Ri xx:
I'm in also same as Jack including burger and fries.
From Tay-Tay:
See you soon.
Zack babe I'll meet you by your car.
From Alexo:
Thanks guys see you soon.
Zack mine and Carlies usual from in N out.
From Rita's 2 banana milkshakes.
Thanks dude.
From Zacky:
No probz guys see you soon.
From Jack-attack:
See you soon.
Alex i hope you know what you're doing.
From Alex:
Don’t worry I do.
Alex and I sat on our phones while waiting for everyone to turn up and because Carlie was asleep we didn’t want to wake her up.
Alex POV
Bringing Carlie back to mine was something i really didn’t want to regret, Cass and I thought it was for the best to tell her the truth. I had to tell her the truth but I also had to say the right words;i didn’t want her to hate me but i also couldn’t lie anymore.
It was four pm by the time everyone turned up and we were all sat in silence still because Carlie was still asleep. I was so nervous to wake her up but I knew I had too.
"Carlie... Car wake up," I said nicely shaking her awake.
She stirred opening her eyes and looked at me before shivering and asking, "Alex what's going on?"
"Cass and I brought you to mine remember," I answered as I went to my closet and got a pair of shorts and a t-shirt for Carlie and then said, "Here put these on."
Carlie took the clothes form me and went to my bathroom to get changed; when she came back out she had changed and put her hair up. She was still shivering so she got back into my bed underneath the covers.
"Carlie we need to talk," I said nervously.
I was so extremely nervous to have the conversation we were about to have.
"So now almost after almost 3 months you want to talk. You've all ignored me for months. I've been in a really bad frame of mind blaming myself for you guys not talking to me. I've been cutting again. If it wasn’t for Elliott I wouldn’t have had the strength to carry on. Working made it better. You guys just cut me out. I was alone. Alex you knew about my mental health and you left me. What is there you possibly have to say. If it's that you and I are over Alex I kind of clocked on to that when you wouldn’t speak to me. I get that what happened with Jessie was bad but you cutting me out didnt help. I've seen him hanging around I'm terrified to go anywhere on my own in case he does something. So tell me please what it is we need to talk about cause I am dying to know," Carlie shouted.
I looked at my friends and they all nodded, so we told Carlie the truth.
**flashback**
After I left Carlie's after Jack's text message I don’t know why but I felt an instant feeling of panic. I got to Jack's and everyone was there including the one person I wanted to kill and that was Jessie. I instantly lunged for him but was held back by Zack and Rian.
"WHAT THE FUCK WHY IS HE HERE! YOU KNOW HE ATTACKED CARLIE!" I screamed trying to break out of Rian and Zacks' grip but to no avail.
"We know buthe has a proposition for us but, you're not going to like it at all. He's saying that he will leave Carlie alone and disappear if we cut her out of our lives," Jack explained.
"Bullshit will he leave her alone. With us out of the way he can do what he wants with her. I love her no way am I leaving her alone. NO WAY!" I replied.
"So you're telling me you won't stay away from Carlie even if it means keeping her safe," Jessie sneered.
"You're sadistic, you can't touch Carlie," I shouted back getting angrier.
"I can touch Carlie whenever I want. She won’t tell on me because I have dirt on her that could get her in trouble. so you stay away from her and so will I otherwise it won't be you seeing her in hospital it will be you seeing her in a mortuary," Jessie replied.
"Alex it's to protect her. Look what's just happened, next time it could be worse. We all love Carlie but keeping her safe is the most important thing. None of us want to do this but it's for her," Tay said sadly.
At that moment I knew Tay was right we had to protect Carlie. I broke down into floods of tears because i loved her and I didn't know if I could stay away....
**FLASH FORWARD**
After we finished Carlie started crying,i sat next to her comforting her and she took a while to calm down but she finally did.
"Why didn’t you just tell me we could have pretended that we had broken up...,"Carlie started to say but Cass interrupted her, "You two couldn’t have just pretended to break up because we were told to all stay away. We couldn’t do anything. We didn’t want to get you hurt."
"Well i don’t want to be apart from you guys anymore. I've missed you all. You also have Elliott to help you so i don't get hurt. I know Jessie is still around but I don’t think he would bother hurting me again with you guys around. If you guys are so worried though we will play it smart. We will pretend that we are still not talking but see each other secretly. You guys can come to where i work and we can text also we can try and hang out at our houses. One thing though we have a new member of the group and that's Elliott he has been there for me the past few months," Carlie explained.
"That's fine, we just have to be super careful. We are gonna have to make it believable that you don’t want to speak to us anymore," Vic said.
We made a plan that Carlie was going to storm out angrily and I was going to argue with her it's a good thing Carlie was an actress otherwise I didn’t think it would work.
"OK! Let's do this," I said.
We went downstairs and out the door.
"Carlie I'm sorry but you and I are over. I don't want to see you anymore and i don’t want you around me or MY friends," i shouted as we got out onto the porch.
"Fine be a jerk. You asshole, you don’t want to speak to me for two months and then when I ask you why you don’t answer me. You're a coward Alexander William Gaskarth, the fact that it takes you two months to dump me is horrendous.i wouldn't want to be around you or your friends another second. Now go fuck yourself,"Carlie screamed back at me it was so convincing even I believed it.
She stormed off and I watched her leave and storm across the road into her house. I broke down on the porch crying to make it even more believable. After ten minutes I got up and went back into my house. I got upstairs and I had a text off Carlie:
From Carlie bear xxx
Good acting babe.
I still love you!!!
Xxxxxxxxxxxx
To Carlie bear xxx
Love you to.
Ur my world.
I've missed you!!!
Xxxxxxx
From Carlie Bear xxx
Missed u 2 loser
Xxxxxxxx
"Is she ok?" Vic asked.
"Yeah she is, I've missed her so much. I'm glad we finally told her we should have done it sooner, she deserved to know sooner. It's going to be hard to pretend to hate each other outside but at least I get to hold her in my arms again. She's the love of my life and I never want to let her go again ever," I replied.
For the first time in months I was happy truly happy.
Carlie POV
To Lexy xxx
Missed you 2 loser
Xxxxxxx
I was happy for the first time in months. Even though he was ill I decided to text Elliott.
To Elliott xx
Yo bubba wat ya doin?
Xxx
From Elliott xx
Yo biatch. Nothing really
Bored u xxx
To Elliott xx
Same Come round
Xxx
From Elliott xx
Be there in 10
Xx
To Elliott xx
Ok! Xxx
I texted Alex and my friends in a group chat.
To lexy, Cass, Vic, Jackoby, Tay,Rian and Zack:
Guys Elliott is coming round.
I'm going to tell him.
Jackoby:
Ok we've missed you nutter
Lexy:
Don’t call my girlfriend a nutter I will end you.
Jackoby:
Bring it bitch.
Vic:stop it u 2
Carlie we need 2 do some online shopping.
Cass:
Yes we do.
Rian:
You guys spend to much already.
Vic:
Well we can't go to the mall
So online shopping all we have
Xxx
Cass:
True that!
Carlie:
Online shopping is the best no queues.
Tay:
OMG so true.
Vic:
Only probz about doing it online is that
U don’t get to try on the clothes.
Carlie:
That is also true.
We can do a fashion show when clothes
Get here.
Zack:
This convo isn't about shopping guys.
Back to the part about Elliott.
Carlie:
I'm going to tell him wats going onhecan
Help us xx
Alex:
Ok if you're sure.
I'm glad you had someone when
we weren't around
Carlie:
I'm sure xx
My bedroom door opened at that moment and in walked Elliott who had a key to my house. He then sat on my bed.
"What's up biatch?" Elliott said.
I told Elliott the story about Jessie and what he made my friends do and the plan now.
"Ok that's fine. I will help in any way that I can. We have work tomorrow so maybe they can come into Rita's tomorrow it will be nice to speak to the mall properly," Elliot said when I finally finished the story.
"Ok I'll message them," I replied.
I went back on to he group chat which had a few more messages and sent:
Carlie:
Guys meet at Rita's italian ice @ 7:30PM Tomoz
Lexy:
Ok babe
Vic:
si senora
Jackoby:
Okie dokie artichoke
Cass:
okays
Rian:
i'll be there
Zack:
Oui mademoiselle
Tay:
Okay x
I put down my phone and told Elliott they would be there at 7:30. We sat watching youtube and ordered chinese food because my grandparents had gone out of town for a few weeks. It would be my first night alone. At midnight Elliott had to leave.
"Dude pick me up tomorrow for school I left my car there today," I said to Elliott before her left.
"Sure I'll text you," He replied and left.
I made sure all the doors and windows were locked in the house and then went to bed. I text Alex before going to sleep because as much as I had missed him I missed our late night texting more.
To lexy xxx:
Hey babe you ok?
Xxxxx
From Lexy xxx:
I'm ok baby.
I've missed our late night txts.
How r u?Xxxxxx
To Lexy xxx:
I've missed the txts 2
I'm ok Elliot jst left.
Wuu2 xxxx
From Lexy xxx:
Thinking of u.
Wat about u xxxxxxx
To lexy:
Wat about me xx ;)
I'm lying in bed.
From Lexy:
Just how hot u looked
In my clothes 2day ;)
To lexy xxx:
Oh ok well I could talk 2 u
All night but I need 2 sleep xxx
From lexy xxx:
I want 2 join u xxx
To lexy xxx:
I'm home alone so u could have
But obvs u cant xxx
From Lexy xxx:
I could join you.
I can climb through ur window xxx
To lexy xxx:
What about Jessie? Xxx
From Lexy xxx:
Fuck him.
I doubt he's watchin but I will
Go out my back door and round.
Xxxxxxx
To lexy xxx:
Ok but b careful xxxxxxx
From Lexy xxx:
Be there soon babe xxxxx
I couldn’t help but smile, I knew Alex coming round would be dangerous but i didn’t care. After about 20 minutes there was a knock at my bedroom window. It was Alex; i let him in and the first thing he did was kiss me.i had missed his lips on mine; kissing him again made me feel whole.
"Come on you, we have school tomorrow and I am tired from today excursions," I said climbing back into bed.
Alex climbed into the other side and said, Can’t we just bunk off and spend the day in bed."
"I have work tomorrow," I replied.
"Bunk off school and then you can go to work," Alex explained.
"Ok but I have to go to work no questions asked,"i replied.
i texted Elliott and told him not to pick me up for school but to pick me up for work; he texted back a few minutes later saying that he would pick me up at 3pm. I put my phone back down and snuggled into Alex with my head on his chest and I fell asleep instantly.
Notes
hey guys still not feeling the best but i am a tiny bit better.
love you guys thanks for all the kind messages, xxx
heres a chapter for u guys i split it in half cause it was too long.
love you from sophie xxxx
let me know what you think xxx :)
Aw, it's okay, take your time girl to recover. <3 Hope college is going okay, I know what it's like; currently trying to wrap up my senior year of it. But I'll still be here to read when you can write again. :)
12/13/16