Dancing with the wolves

Aidan's POV

"I'm worried Will, I haven't felt him move for 3 days now." I said to Will.
"I'm sure he's just sleeping." Will said.
"Will I'm being fucking serious. Something isn't right. I felt Zig and Flo move all the time and something isn't right with bab." I said trying not to cry.
Will sighed.
"Want me to come to the hospital with you?" He asked.
I nodded and sniffed.
" Hey, don't think of the worst what could happen." He said and pulled me into a hug.
"I can't help it." I said quietly and returned his hug.
Zig and Flo was with dad like always for one day a week.
"Come on let's go." He said and we went to the hospital.

We got to the hospital was was waiting for some tests to come back and too see if bab was okay.
Will was lead on the bed next to me and he was tracing his finger round on my bump hoping that bab would respond like he always did when Will did this. But bab didn't.
"I'm scared." I whispered.
"It'll be okay, everything is going to be okay." Will said and kissed my cheek.
But even Will didn't believe his own words.
A nurse came in and Will got off the bed and sat next to me and held my hand.
"Shell we see is baby is okay?" She asked.
"Yes." I said quietly.
"Okay then, this might be a bit cold." She said as I pulled my top up.
"Do you know what you're having?" The nurse asked.
"A little boy." Will said.
I looked at Will and smiled and he just squeezed my hand.
The nurse looked at the screen and frowned.
"I need to go and find someone a second. I'll be right back." She smiled and walked out the room.
"That's not good." I whispered and looked away from Will.
A few minutes later a doctor came in and looked at the scan and he looked at me and Will.
"I don't know how to put this, but you've lost the baby." He said sadly.
"What do you mean?" Will asked.
I didn't hear any of it but I just shut down and just wanted to get out of here.
"Babe?" Will said quietly.
"I want to go home." I said quietly.
"We need to think when we can get the baby out as the longer he's in there he will start to do damage to you." The doctor said.
"I'll come in tomorrow. Right now I want to go home." I said quietly.
"Okay, we'll see you tomorrow." The doctor said and I nodded and got up and pulled my top down.
Will got up and got hold of my hand and we went home in silence.

When we got home I went to phone dad.
"What you doing?" Will asked quietly.
"Phoning dad to see if he can have the kids for a few days." I sniffed.
I dialed dads number and Will wrapped his arms round my waist.
"Hey Aid what's up?" Dad asked cheerfully.
"Can you look after the kids for a few days?" I asked.
"Sure I can, is everything okay?" Dad asked worry going through his voice.
"No dad. But I'll explain later right now me and Will just want to be alone." I said and felt some tears roll down my face.
"Okay sweetie, I love you." Dad said.
"Love you too." I sniffed and hung up.
I turned round and buried my face in Wills chest and cried.
Will rested his chin on top of my head and I felt a couple of tears land on top of my head.

I wanted to be alone so Will went over to dads to see the kids and put them to bed since he needed something to take his mind of things.
I was sat on our bed looking through the baby things we got not so long ago.
This just made me break down into ugly sobs.
I felt so useless so i got up and went to the bathroom and looked for my blade I had hidden from Will just in case.

I sat on the floor and traced my finger over my bump.
"Please just move or kick me a little please." I sobbed.
But I felt nothing.
This just made me cry harder and I rolled my sleeve up and dragged the blade across my arm.
I looked at it and I knew it was deep but I didn't care.
I felt dead inside.
"Aid?" Will's voice filled the bedroom.
I sniffed loudly and Will must of heard as he walked into the bathroom.
"Baby, why'd you do this?" He asked and grabbed a towel and wrapped it round my arm and held it up a little.
"Its my fault. Its my fault he's dead." I said and began to cry again.
"Babe it isn't your fault. Its just one of those things. A horrible thing." He sniffed.
I looked at him.
"I'm sorry." I whispered.
Will moved and sat beside me and pulled me to his side and kissed the top of my head.
"Don't be sorry, its not your fault." He said quietly.
I just sniffed and rested my head on his shoulder.
"Let's get you cleaned up and go to bed." He said quietly and I nodded.

Will cleaned my arm up and we went to bed.
"Hey, I love you." Will said and kissed me.
"I love you too." I said quietly and cuddled into his side.
Will lifted my arm and kissed my arm which had the bandage on.
I smiled.
Once he was finished he started to mess with my hair.
"Go to sleep babe." He whispered.
I nodded and slowly felt asleep hoping this was one big horrible nightmare.

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