I'm Gonna Break Down These Walls
Long Live Us
Jack
I’m the worlds worst boyfriend
I was with the actual, most perfect boy on the planet, and I was thinking of sleeping with other people. I can’t help it, it’s all I’ve ever known. I’ve never had to be loyal, or honest, I’ve just never been with one person before.
I am really fucking horny, whenever I was before I was usually satisfied that day. I’m not used to this.
What the hell did I get myself into? Do I want this? Is this what being in a relationship with someone is like?
I thought being a couple included screwing the person you care most about, not waiting around, watching your hot boyfriend be as teasingly seductive as possible, without ripping all his clothes off.
I’m feeling so conflicted about everything. I know that I can’t cheat on my adorable boyfriend, I’m insane if I ever thought that would be a good idea.
Alex is worth it, no matter how hard it’s getting… and how hard my dick is getting when I was around him…
Whenever I was near Alex for the rest of the day, I couldn’t keep my hands off of him. They were either on his ass, running my hands under his shirt, even randomly picking him up. I think I’m going insane, or going through some sort of sex withdrawals.
It didn’t help that Alex was extremely sexy. His messy but perfect light brown hair, he constantly has sex hair and HE IS A FUCKING VIRGIN. The skinny jeans he wears that show off his ass, with the tight long sleeve shirts. It’s like he’s TRYING to put me through absolute hell.
My entire body ached with desire for him. I want him so bad it hurts.
Just right now, we were having an innocent conversation, and now I had him pressed up against a wall kissing his neck and nibbling his ear. Thankfully, we were in an abandoned stairwell that nobody ever goes down, so nobody will catch us.
“J-jack,” Alex choked out.
I smiled lightly at voice, his unsteady breathing revealing how turned on he was. I didn’t bother to respond, I was already hard, and was lost in the moment.
How could I ever think about being with anyone else but him?
He has made me the happiest I’ve ever been before, I don’t care about the sex. Well, I really do, but, I have to force myself to wait for him. It’ll be worth it. It will be worth it, right?
“Jack,” Alex said a little stronger, pushing me away gently with a hand on my chest.
I pulled away panting, glancing down at all the hickies I left scattered along his collarbone and neck. I could see the lust in his eyes, I knew he was feeling the same way I was.
Does that mean he’s ready?
“Why are you so turned on lately?” he asked me quietly, looking down at my boner that was pressed up against his inner thigh. Well it’s not like he’s not hard too...
I groaned, turning away and walking a few feet in the other direction, running my hands through my hair. Just tell him the truth.
“I’m sorry. I’m still trying to get used to this not having sex thing, it’s driving me crazy Lex. I don’t know what’s happening to me.” I explained.
I did know what was happening to me, I was horny as fuck. But I didn’t want to say it directly to my innocent boyfriend, I knew it would make him feel bad.
He might even feel bad anyway, shit, I’m an asshole.
“You used to have sex practically 3 times a week, it’s understandable.” he told me. He is so compassionate, but it was a lot more than 3 times a week…
“You are just constantly, SO FUCKING SEXY, I can’t control myself around you!!! It’s torture! Maybe if you could be less attractive, I wouldn’t want to fuck the shit out of you so badly.” I exclaimed, throwing my hands up in anger.
I was so disappointed in myself.
Alex was blushing like crazy, his whole face was bright red and he covered his smiley expression with one hand. Well, at least I’m not lying, or cheating, I’m just being honest.
“Okay, then let’s make that a date then.” he spoke, staring up at me.
“Are you serious?” I asked, completely shocked. Was it that easy? I just had to tell him hot I think he is, and he’d agree?
“Yeah, we can at the Halloween party. I trust you, and you’re my boyfriend and you’re constantly sexy so it’s not like I’ve been feeling differently than you. I’m still a hormonal teenage boy with a really attractive boyfriend.” he smiled.
He is the man of my dreams.
“Are you sure? I don’t want to pressure you, that’s not what I was saying at all. You don’t have to, if you don’t want to.”
I knew that I was the first person that he’s ever done anything with, it’s been a few months, which is decades in Jack years.
But, I knew he wanted to take it slow, I would go through the torture of waiting longer if I had to to make sure he was ready. Even though we’ve been going at turtle pace, it’s whatever he’s comfortable with.
“You’re so sweet… You’re not pressuring me, lets just… start small, okay?” he went on.
Start small? Um, what does that mean? Start small…
Does that mean small dick? That would be a problem, I don’t have that.
Umm, start small…. Hmm…
Alex could tell how confused I was, and raised his eyebrows as if he was trying to tell me without words.
“OH, you mean a blowjob?” I asked, making him cringe and put a hand over his mouth. He’s so cute, sex talk makes him so uncomfortable. He gave me a small nod with a bright red face.
That’s not what I wanted, but, I can do that. It sure as hell was better than nothing. At this point, I would do anything to get in his pants.
“Absolutely, Lex. It’s a date.” I told him, giving him a peck on the lips.
“Great, come on, we’re gonna be late.” he said, taking my hand and dragging me out of the stairwell.
Should I warn him about all those hickies that he has?
Uhhh, he will find out on his own.
I’m the worlds worst boyfriend
I was with the actual, most perfect boy on the planet, and I was thinking of sleeping with other people. I can’t help it, it’s all I’ve ever known. I’ve never had to be loyal, or honest, I’ve just never been with one person before.
I am really fucking horny, whenever I was before I was usually satisfied that day. I’m not used to this.
What the hell did I get myself into? Do I want this? Is this what being in a relationship with someone is like?
I thought being a couple included screwing the person you care most about, not waiting around, watching your hot boyfriend be as teasingly seductive as possible, without ripping all his clothes off.
I’m feeling so conflicted about everything. I know that I can’t cheat on my adorable boyfriend, I’m insane if I ever thought that would be a good idea.
Alex is worth it, no matter how hard it’s getting… and how hard my dick is getting when I was around him…
Whenever I was near Alex for the rest of the day, I couldn’t keep my hands off of him. They were either on his ass, running my hands under his shirt, even randomly picking him up. I think I’m going insane, or going through some sort of sex withdrawals.
It didn’t help that Alex was extremely sexy. His messy but perfect light brown hair, he constantly has sex hair and HE IS A FUCKING VIRGIN. The skinny jeans he wears that show off his ass, with the tight long sleeve shirts. It’s like he’s TRYING to put me through absolute hell.
My entire body ached with desire for him. I want him so bad it hurts.
Just right now, we were having an innocent conversation, and now I had him pressed up against a wall kissing his neck and nibbling his ear. Thankfully, we were in an abandoned stairwell that nobody ever goes down, so nobody will catch us.
“J-jack,” Alex choked out.
I smiled lightly at voice, his unsteady breathing revealing how turned on he was. I didn’t bother to respond, I was already hard, and was lost in the moment.
How could I ever think about being with anyone else but him?
He has made me the happiest I’ve ever been before, I don’t care about the sex. Well, I really do, but, I have to force myself to wait for him. It’ll be worth it. It will be worth it, right?
“Jack,” Alex said a little stronger, pushing me away gently with a hand on my chest.
I pulled away panting, glancing down at all the hickies I left scattered along his collarbone and neck. I could see the lust in his eyes, I knew he was feeling the same way I was.
Does that mean he’s ready?
“Why are you so turned on lately?” he asked me quietly, looking down at my boner that was pressed up against his inner thigh. Well it’s not like he’s not hard too...
I groaned, turning away and walking a few feet in the other direction, running my hands through my hair. Just tell him the truth.
“I’m sorry. I’m still trying to get used to this not having sex thing, it’s driving me crazy Lex. I don’t know what’s happening to me.” I explained.
I did know what was happening to me, I was horny as fuck. But I didn’t want to say it directly to my innocent boyfriend, I knew it would make him feel bad.
He might even feel bad anyway, shit, I’m an asshole.
“You used to have sex practically 3 times a week, it’s understandable.” he told me. He is so compassionate, but it was a lot more than 3 times a week…
“You are just constantly, SO FUCKING SEXY, I can’t control myself around you!!! It’s torture! Maybe if you could be less attractive, I wouldn’t want to fuck the shit out of you so badly.” I exclaimed, throwing my hands up in anger.
I was so disappointed in myself.
Alex was blushing like crazy, his whole face was bright red and he covered his smiley expression with one hand. Well, at least I’m not lying, or cheating, I’m just being honest.
“Okay, then let’s make that a date then.” he spoke, staring up at me.
“Are you serious?” I asked, completely shocked. Was it that easy? I just had to tell him hot I think he is, and he’d agree?
“Yeah, we can at the Halloween party. I trust you, and you’re my boyfriend and you’re constantly sexy so it’s not like I’ve been feeling differently than you. I’m still a hormonal teenage boy with a really attractive boyfriend.” he smiled.
He is the man of my dreams.
“Are you sure? I don’t want to pressure you, that’s not what I was saying at all. You don’t have to, if you don’t want to.”
I knew that I was the first person that he’s ever done anything with, it’s been a few months, which is decades in Jack years.
But, I knew he wanted to take it slow, I would go through the torture of waiting longer if I had to to make sure he was ready. Even though we’ve been going at turtle pace, it’s whatever he’s comfortable with.
“You’re so sweet… You’re not pressuring me, lets just… start small, okay?” he went on.
Start small? Um, what does that mean? Start small…
Does that mean small dick? That would be a problem, I don’t have that.
Umm, start small…. Hmm…
Alex could tell how confused I was, and raised his eyebrows as if he was trying to tell me without words.
“OH, you mean a blowjob?” I asked, making him cringe and put a hand over his mouth. He’s so cute, sex talk makes him so uncomfortable. He gave me a small nod with a bright red face.
That’s not what I wanted, but, I can do that. It sure as hell was better than nothing. At this point, I would do anything to get in his pants.
“Absolutely, Lex. It’s a date.” I told him, giving him a peck on the lips.
“Great, come on, we’re gonna be late.” he said, taking my hand and dragging me out of the stairwell.
Should I warn him about all those hickies that he has?
Uhhh, he will find out on his own.
Notes
YAYYY
it was just tricking you guys by thinking Jack would actually cheat on Alex
he was just having nervous second thoughts which is understandable for a first real relasionship
dont worry, Jalex is not breaking up or anything like that
these past two chapters have been very awkward for me to write lol, but i didn't know any other way to move the story along so, oh well!
The next chapter is going to be the Halloween party, and you're going to figure out why Tay hates Alex
i might post today, but im not making any promises because i usually say i will, and i don't
look at these babes
:)
Title- Reckless and the Brave
"Do you think Tay is going to sabatoge Jalex"
Considering this is my second time reading this, yes
7/11/17