I'm Gonna Break Down These Walls
Get Me Out Of This Place
Alex
So, this was going to be absolute hell. I couldn’t stop thinking about every single thing that could go wrong. Jack accidentally giving it away, Tom trying to be funny but actually just reveals that I’m gay.
Why did I let this happen? I thought that my parents would figure out when I was Tom’s age, so I could hopefully have bought my own apartment by then, so I don’t get left on the streets.I’m sure it’s not too late to cancel, I can just tell them that Jack is sick. Or that he’s moving back to his home country in Lebanon. They would totally believe that.
I looked down at my phone as it buzzed, seeing a text from Jack.
From Jack :
What do i wear?
From Alex:
Are you nervous cutie? ;)
From Jack:
No cutie, i just don’t know if this is a fancy thing or not
From Alex:
Just wear some button down, and jeans
That reminded me, I should really be getting dressed. I dug through my closet, and found a white button up shirt that I paired with my favorite black skinny jeans, and black converse.
The only reason why they are my favorite pants, is because they are Jack’s favorite, and he likes them so much because they are so tight.. Whenever I wear them, he keeps his hand in my back pocket literally the entire time i’m with him. I don’t know, he has a thing for my ass, and I’m not complaining.
I looked in the mirror, and took nearly 20 minutes trying to make my hair look perfect. It took just the right amount of hairspray in the right places, to make it have the desired about my of messiness in it.
“Alex! He’s here!” Tom popped into my bathroom and told me softly.
I really wanted to meet him outside before my parents realized he was here, thankfully Tom was helping me with my plan. I quietly walked downstairs, slipped out the front door, and smiled at the sight I saw.
Jack was leaning up against his car, wearing a maroon button up, with black skinny jeans, and maroon vans. He really cleans up nice… I mean, he always looks sexy as FUCK, but I’ve never seen him in a button up.
“Damn.” I mumbled, he smiled up at me, staring at me up and down.
“Whoa Alex… you look so handsome,” Jack breathed, I felt a hot bush rise to my cheeks, and I quickly looked down to hide my face. His soft lips placed a sweet kiss on my cheek, I smiled, and in leaned closer to him. He’s the most lovely boyfriend anyone could imagine.
“Get in here, boys! It’s freezing out!” Tom called, giving us a devilish smirk.
This was going to be a long night…
The second we walked in, my Mom greeted him with open arms, treating him like he’s the only friend I’ve ever had at all. Eh, only friend, only boyfriend, she’s not too far off. My Dad gave him a firm handshake and a big smile, Jack had the fakest look of joy on his face, but it seemed to be convincing them.
I wonder if this is what it’s like for other families, when they actually accept their children, and welcomes their same sex partners into their home. I will honestly never know.
“Dinner is going to be ready in 1 minute, you too can just sit at the table and I will get the fish.” my Mom explained cheerily, hurrying off to the kitchen. She’s so fake, she’s never that happy.
“Tom, is there any beer left in the fridge?” Dad asked.
“Peter, this is a nice dinner! No beer!” Mom scolded.
My family isn’t rich, but my Mom likes to think we are. She cooks very fancy foods, acts like we are posh and practically royal. We may be from England, but Tom and I are about as fancy as the week old leftover mac and cheese in the fridge.
I stood next to Jack, craving to hold his hand but I knew I couldn’t. I’ve never seen him so nervous, his smile was fooling my parents, but it sure wasn’t fooling me.
He is terrified on the inside. We sat down at the table, Tom joined us, but started playing around on his phone.
“Everyone is sooo British, you really don’t have a thick accent at all compared to them.” Jack mumbled.
“Yeah, they think that it’s going to go away after a while. I’ve already started talking more like you,” I smiled, placing my hand on his knee.
Shit, we’re not dating. I quickly removed my hand, he gave me a nervous look, Tom smacked his hand over his face, like he was disappointing in us already.
Once we started eating things went a lot smoother. Unlike me, Jack had no problem keeping a conversation going with anyone. He was such a friendly and charming guy, I knew my parents already loved him more than me. I don’t blame them, I fell for the exact same thing
.
“So Jack, got any girlfriends? Both of our boys have had no luck in the relationship department.” my Dad said, making me cringe internally.
I should’ve prepared Jack for this question.
“No, no girlfriends.” he answered smoothly, taking a sip of water while glancing towards me.
“What girl wouldn’t like you, you wouldn’t like you in general?” Tom questioned, nearly making Jack spit out his water in surprise.
I knew he would just be an asshole the entire time. My parent’s laughed at my brothers words, the true meaning went over their heads, so I laughed nervously along with them.
“I’m sure all you good looking boys will find someone, someday.” Mom smiled, I looked down at the ground.
“We know that Alex is very timid and shy-”
“Go on, Dad.” I interrupted him. Does he have to list all my flaws in front of my boyfriend?
“I don’t know where you get it Alex, definitely not from me. Tom’s got my fiery personality, Jack seems to have that in common with us.” my Dad blabbed, I bit back the urge to groan.
“What’s your point in saying all this?”
“Oh! Well, since Alex is so introverted, we know he doesn’t have any friends-”
“Thanks, Dad” I said sarcastically. My family is just so sweet.
“What he means is, we’re glad that he’s gotten to know such a good kid like you Jack. I guess what they say is true, opposites attract!’ Mom exclaimed, making a blush rise on both me and Jack’s faces, Tom went into an awkward coughing fit trying to hide his laughter.
“Mom, when you use that phrase, it’s usually meant for-”
“Doesn’t matter!” I interrupted my brother.
Seems like I’m interrupting everyone tonight.
“Thanks Mr. and Mrs. Gaskarth, but he has a lot more friends than you think, well maybe not a lot…” Jack went on, making everyone else at the table burst into laughter. Great, now my boyfriend has joined my favorite game, ‘Make fun of Alex.’
“You’re all so nice to me,” I said sarcastically, everyone laughed once again.
I felt a hand on mine, and looked down to see Jack intertwining our fingers together under the table.
I didn’t dare look at my boyfriend, the look in my face might give us away, and I would have the very strong urge to kiss him. Can’t do that.
“It’s okay, baby. I’m sure everybody at school loves you.” my Mom tried to comfort me.
“Yup everyone! Especially all the boys!” Tom exclaimed, my eyes widened and I kicked him hard in the shine.
Fucking asshole, he’s so reckless, he doesn’t care what would happen if Mom and Dad really found out.
“Well, I should probably be heading home now, I have homework to do for tomorrow,” Jack lied. He doesn’t do homework.
“Aww, do you want any pie to take home with you?” my Mom asked, Jack shook his head no. He looked just as done with my family as I felt. I wish I could go home with Jack, and sleepover, and snuggle for hours. Someday…
I followed him outside to his car, looking back to make sure they weren’t watching us from the window.
“Oh my god, that was hell.” I groaned.
“It wasn’t that bad, they seemed nice, they remind me of a real family that i never got to have. But..” he trailed off.
“But what? Tom hinting and giggling at us the whole time? My dad rambling about how i have no friends, and my mom going on about how I've never been in a relationship?” I questioned, all of those were horrible parts of the night, that I just want to erase from both of our brains.
Especially his, it’s probably a huge turn off knowing that your boyfriend usually has no friends.
“I just can’t stand even looking at them, knowing what they would do to you if they figured out you were gay. They’re your parents!” he blurted, throwing too arms frusteratedly in the air and staring at me directly in the eyes.
Aww...
‘’You get used to it, I would kiss you goodbye but I think they are watching us through the window.” I mumbled, he sighed.
“Bye, baby. I’ll give you your goodbye kiss, and good morning kiss tomorrow at school.” he smiled, getting into his car.
“Can’t wait…” I smiled, staring after him as he pulled out of the driveway. If only I had a considerate family, we wouldn’t have to keep everything a secret.
I walked back inside, ready to rip off these uncomfortable clothes and go to bed, but of coarse, my Dad stopped me.
“I really like Jack, he seems like a good kid.” he told me. That meant a lot coming from him.
“Thanks,” I said.
“He’s defintely a keeper,” he went on.
I glanced at Tom who was standing at the top of the stairs giving me a small smile. That’s probably as close as I’m going to get to the fatherly approval to date a boy.
I’ll take it.
“He really is.”
So, this was going to be absolute hell. I couldn’t stop thinking about every single thing that could go wrong. Jack accidentally giving it away, Tom trying to be funny but actually just reveals that I’m gay.
Why did I let this happen? I thought that my parents would figure out when I was Tom’s age, so I could hopefully have bought my own apartment by then, so I don’t get left on the streets.I’m sure it’s not too late to cancel, I can just tell them that Jack is sick. Or that he’s moving back to his home country in Lebanon. They would totally believe that.
I looked down at my phone as it buzzed, seeing a text from Jack.
From Jack :
What do i wear?
From Alex:
Are you nervous cutie? ;)
From Jack:
No cutie, i just don’t know if this is a fancy thing or not
From Alex:
Just wear some button down, and jeans
That reminded me, I should really be getting dressed. I dug through my closet, and found a white button up shirt that I paired with my favorite black skinny jeans, and black converse.
The only reason why they are my favorite pants, is because they are Jack’s favorite, and he likes them so much because they are so tight.. Whenever I wear them, he keeps his hand in my back pocket literally the entire time i’m with him. I don’t know, he has a thing for my ass, and I’m not complaining.
I looked in the mirror, and took nearly 20 minutes trying to make my hair look perfect. It took just the right amount of hairspray in the right places, to make it have the desired about my of messiness in it.
“Alex! He’s here!” Tom popped into my bathroom and told me softly.
I really wanted to meet him outside before my parents realized he was here, thankfully Tom was helping me with my plan. I quietly walked downstairs, slipped out the front door, and smiled at the sight I saw.
Jack was leaning up against his car, wearing a maroon button up, with black skinny jeans, and maroon vans. He really cleans up nice… I mean, he always looks sexy as FUCK, but I’ve never seen him in a button up.
“Damn.” I mumbled, he smiled up at me, staring at me up and down.
“Whoa Alex… you look so handsome,” Jack breathed, I felt a hot bush rise to my cheeks, and I quickly looked down to hide my face. His soft lips placed a sweet kiss on my cheek, I smiled, and in leaned closer to him. He’s the most lovely boyfriend anyone could imagine.
“Get in here, boys! It’s freezing out!” Tom called, giving us a devilish smirk.
This was going to be a long night…
The second we walked in, my Mom greeted him with open arms, treating him like he’s the only friend I’ve ever had at all. Eh, only friend, only boyfriend, she’s not too far off. My Dad gave him a firm handshake and a big smile, Jack had the fakest look of joy on his face, but it seemed to be convincing them.
I wonder if this is what it’s like for other families, when they actually accept their children, and welcomes their same sex partners into their home. I will honestly never know.
“Dinner is going to be ready in 1 minute, you too can just sit at the table and I will get the fish.” my Mom explained cheerily, hurrying off to the kitchen. She’s so fake, she’s never that happy.
“Tom, is there any beer left in the fridge?” Dad asked.
“Peter, this is a nice dinner! No beer!” Mom scolded.
My family isn’t rich, but my Mom likes to think we are. She cooks very fancy foods, acts like we are posh and practically royal. We may be from England, but Tom and I are about as fancy as the week old leftover mac and cheese in the fridge.
I stood next to Jack, craving to hold his hand but I knew I couldn’t. I’ve never seen him so nervous, his smile was fooling my parents, but it sure wasn’t fooling me.
He is terrified on the inside. We sat down at the table, Tom joined us, but started playing around on his phone.
“Everyone is sooo British, you really don’t have a thick accent at all compared to them.” Jack mumbled.
“Yeah, they think that it’s going to go away after a while. I’ve already started talking more like you,” I smiled, placing my hand on his knee.
Shit, we’re not dating. I quickly removed my hand, he gave me a nervous look, Tom smacked his hand over his face, like he was disappointing in us already.
Once we started eating things went a lot smoother. Unlike me, Jack had no problem keeping a conversation going with anyone. He was such a friendly and charming guy, I knew my parents already loved him more than me. I don’t blame them, I fell for the exact same thing
.
“So Jack, got any girlfriends? Both of our boys have had no luck in the relationship department.” my Dad said, making me cringe internally.
I should’ve prepared Jack for this question.
“No, no girlfriends.” he answered smoothly, taking a sip of water while glancing towards me.
“What girl wouldn’t like you, you wouldn’t like you in general?” Tom questioned, nearly making Jack spit out his water in surprise.
I knew he would just be an asshole the entire time. My parent’s laughed at my brothers words, the true meaning went over their heads, so I laughed nervously along with them.
“I’m sure all you good looking boys will find someone, someday.” Mom smiled, I looked down at the ground.
“We know that Alex is very timid and shy-”
“Go on, Dad.” I interrupted him. Does he have to list all my flaws in front of my boyfriend?
“I don’t know where you get it Alex, definitely not from me. Tom’s got my fiery personality, Jack seems to have that in common with us.” my Dad blabbed, I bit back the urge to groan.
“What’s your point in saying all this?”
“Oh! Well, since Alex is so introverted, we know he doesn’t have any friends-”
“Thanks, Dad” I said sarcastically. My family is just so sweet.
“What he means is, we’re glad that he’s gotten to know such a good kid like you Jack. I guess what they say is true, opposites attract!’ Mom exclaimed, making a blush rise on both me and Jack’s faces, Tom went into an awkward coughing fit trying to hide his laughter.
“Mom, when you use that phrase, it’s usually meant for-”
“Doesn’t matter!” I interrupted my brother.
Seems like I’m interrupting everyone tonight.
“Thanks Mr. and Mrs. Gaskarth, but he has a lot more friends than you think, well maybe not a lot…” Jack went on, making everyone else at the table burst into laughter. Great, now my boyfriend has joined my favorite game, ‘Make fun of Alex.’
“You’re all so nice to me,” I said sarcastically, everyone laughed once again.
I felt a hand on mine, and looked down to see Jack intertwining our fingers together under the table.
I didn’t dare look at my boyfriend, the look in my face might give us away, and I would have the very strong urge to kiss him. Can’t do that.
“It’s okay, baby. I’m sure everybody at school loves you.” my Mom tried to comfort me.
“Yup everyone! Especially all the boys!” Tom exclaimed, my eyes widened and I kicked him hard in the shine.
Fucking asshole, he’s so reckless, he doesn’t care what would happen if Mom and Dad really found out.
“Well, I should probably be heading home now, I have homework to do for tomorrow,” Jack lied. He doesn’t do homework.
“Aww, do you want any pie to take home with you?” my Mom asked, Jack shook his head no. He looked just as done with my family as I felt. I wish I could go home with Jack, and sleepover, and snuggle for hours. Someday…
I followed him outside to his car, looking back to make sure they weren’t watching us from the window.
“Oh my god, that was hell.” I groaned.
“It wasn’t that bad, they seemed nice, they remind me of a real family that i never got to have. But..” he trailed off.
“But what? Tom hinting and giggling at us the whole time? My dad rambling about how i have no friends, and my mom going on about how I've never been in a relationship?” I questioned, all of those were horrible parts of the night, that I just want to erase from both of our brains.
Especially his, it’s probably a huge turn off knowing that your boyfriend usually has no friends.
“I just can’t stand even looking at them, knowing what they would do to you if they figured out you were gay. They’re your parents!” he blurted, throwing too arms frusteratedly in the air and staring at me directly in the eyes.
Aww...
‘’You get used to it, I would kiss you goodbye but I think they are watching us through the window.” I mumbled, he sighed.
“Bye, baby. I’ll give you your goodbye kiss, and good morning kiss tomorrow at school.” he smiled, getting into his car.
“Can’t wait…” I smiled, staring after him as he pulled out of the driveway. If only I had a considerate family, we wouldn’t have to keep everything a secret.
I walked back inside, ready to rip off these uncomfortable clothes and go to bed, but of coarse, my Dad stopped me.
“I really like Jack, he seems like a good kid.” he told me. That meant a lot coming from him.
“Thanks,” I said.
“He’s defintely a keeper,” he went on.
I glanced at Tom who was standing at the top of the stairs giving me a small smile. That’s probably as close as I’m going to get to the fatherly approval to date a boy.
I’ll take it.
“He really is.”
Notes
AWWWWW yayyyy jack met his parents
even though they are lying to them but its okay cuz jalex
Good news I finally figured out my story, and there's gonna be a total of 60 chapters, so I have loads more to post XD
i would write more about how cute jalex is and how happy i am that i figured out the order of my story, that i should've done a long time ago but im such an unorganized human, BUT im tired and it's late so goooodnighttttt :)
i will try to post tomorrow morning to make up for all the days ive missed this week
BABES
Title credit- Running From Lions
"Do you think Tay is going to sabatoge Jalex"
Considering this is my second time reading this, yes
7/11/17