I'm Gonna Break Down These Walls
Shooting Love In Real Time
Next day
Alex
I seriously can’t believe Jack, I can’t believe I didn’t see this coming. How did I think he would just drop absolutely everyone, just because he kinda likes me? There are so many better people he has been involved with, they are all more attractive, and had better personalities, would please Jack a lot more than I ever could. I doubt I will ever be the only one in Jack’s eyes. He’s tried to call and text me since yesterday, I’ve been ignoring him, I don’t feel like fighting.
I hate being upset with him, he’s always the one who brightens up my day and when he’s not around, life’s just boring.
I sighed, and shut my locker, holding all my books by myself. These really were heavy, Jack always carried them so I’m not used to lugging around all this weight.
I felt a hand grip tightly on my wrist, and I was dragged away from my locker. When I looked up and saw Jack pulling me along the hallway, bringing me to the corner we always went to makeout it everyday
Jack
“Let go!” he demanded, trying to walk the other direction but I was stronger.
“No” I answered.
“Stop!!!”
“Just, let me explain Alex.” I begged, and pressed him up against the wall.
I smirked as he blushed, practically tomato faced just from me compressing his body against a wall with my own. He looked up at me in irritation, and tried to fidget away, but there’s no way I was getting him out of my grasp now.
He walked off from me without letting me explain yesterday, and doesn't’ answer any of my texts, I just wanted to tell him how much I cared about him.
I’ve noticed how dependent I really am on my angel with caramel brown hair, he’s the only thing that keeps me together in his fucked up place called school. Honestly he’s what’s getting me through life right now.
“Get away from me!” he faught.
“No, talk to me.”
“I’m not talking to you,” he huffed, looking down to avoid my gaze.
“Well, you’re talking to me right now so…” I responded, making him even more pissed, which is really hot.
Angry Alex is one of the sexiest things ever, and believe me I loved his sweet and easy going personality, but him getting aggressive with me was a huge turn on, him being jelous is even more thrilling. It’s exciting to see a new side of my baby boyfriend. But right now, I really want him to just shut up so I can rip off his shirt and make out with him against the wall. This whole fight is ridiculous.
“Fuck you!” he yelled.
“Okay, just let me-”
“Jack, I don’t want to deal with any of your past relationships. They just make me feel bad.” he admitted, making me instantly feel bad.
“I haven’t spoken to any of them since I met you, you do know that right? The second I first saw you walk through that hallway, I was finished with everyone else, I knew that I had to make you mine. I guess I should’ve tied up some loose ends with a couple of them, I just thought they would get the message by me not returning and calls or texts. I haven’t talked to Nicole since I met you, I had no idea that she would come over there and flirt and grab your dick like that. That part was very unexpected. The last thing I want is for you to feel bad about my past relationships, because they mean practically nothing to me.”
He nodded, but didn’t seem affected by my words. Alex kept staring sadly at the ground, so I couldn’t help but think something else was troubling him. I hooked a finger under his chin, and lifted his head up so I could look him in his gorgeous eyes. He looked so sad…
“What’s bothering you?” I asked, wrapping one hand around his waist, the other held his face.
“I’m scared, Jack.” he answered quietly.
“Of what?”
“This. You have so many ex’s, and we are going so fucking fast. Too fast for me, but I don’t want to stop you because I’m scared you’ll get bored and leave me. I just can’t help thinking how long it’s going to take for you to find someone else you think is ‘the one’ and drop everything to be with them, including me.” His words really hurt me.
I never knew he thought we were going too fast, I don’t know how to act in a serious relationship so I just do what I want, and stop when he tells me to stop. He just doesn’t believe that he is as important to me as I say he is. I don’t know how to prove it to him, but I will do anything to make him happy, and happy with me.
He is so unsure about everything, I want him to know I will always be a constant in his life. I’m not going anywhere.
“Alexander William Gaskarth,” I sighed, and kissed his forehead gently, and he held me in a tight hug.
“Maybe once you really get to know me, you will realize I’m not good enough for your standards-” I can’t hear him talk about himself like that.
“Alex, seriously? You’re a smart kid, I really thought you would understand this by now!” I exclaimed, getting pissed.
“What?!”
“You’re it! You’re as high as my standards go, you’re fucking everything! I think your anxious mind is beautiful, but it makes you doubt how much I care about you, and I really hate that.
I need you so bad, I don’t care how slow we take this, I don’t want anyone else but you for the rest of my life. You are as perfect as it gets, you’re the best part of me.
All this stuff about me leaving you is all in your head, if I ever left, that would hurt me a lot fucking more than it hurts you. I’m never letting go of you, Alex.”
I let out a deep, nervous breath. I’ve never said anything so personal out loud, that was all from the heart. Almost always, I ignore my feelings whenever I get a strong emotion, and wait for it to go away, but Alex has me stuck to him like a magnet. His better than booze, better than sex, better than cheeseburgers.
Alex grabbed my face with two hands and kissed me, I smiled against his lips. Knowing he accepted my words meant the world to me, and just going a day without kissing him was making me feel antsy. We kissed until we both ran out of breath, even then he kept showering me in kisses all over my face, neck, and collarbone. I loved his lips so much more than cheeseburgers.
Alex
I seriously can’t believe Jack, I can’t believe I didn’t see this coming. How did I think he would just drop absolutely everyone, just because he kinda likes me? There are so many better people he has been involved with, they are all more attractive, and had better personalities, would please Jack a lot more than I ever could. I doubt I will ever be the only one in Jack’s eyes. He’s tried to call and text me since yesterday, I’ve been ignoring him, I don’t feel like fighting.
I hate being upset with him, he’s always the one who brightens up my day and when he’s not around, life’s just boring.
I sighed, and shut my locker, holding all my books by myself. These really were heavy, Jack always carried them so I’m not used to lugging around all this weight.
I felt a hand grip tightly on my wrist, and I was dragged away from my locker. When I looked up and saw Jack pulling me along the hallway, bringing me to the corner we always went to makeout it everyday
Jack
“Let go!” he demanded, trying to walk the other direction but I was stronger.
“No” I answered.
“Stop!!!”
“Just, let me explain Alex.” I begged, and pressed him up against the wall.
I smirked as he blushed, practically tomato faced just from me compressing his body against a wall with my own. He looked up at me in irritation, and tried to fidget away, but there’s no way I was getting him out of my grasp now.
He walked off from me without letting me explain yesterday, and doesn't’ answer any of my texts, I just wanted to tell him how much I cared about him.
I’ve noticed how dependent I really am on my angel with caramel brown hair, he’s the only thing that keeps me together in his fucked up place called school. Honestly he’s what’s getting me through life right now.
“Get away from me!” he faught.
“No, talk to me.”
“I’m not talking to you,” he huffed, looking down to avoid my gaze.
“Well, you’re talking to me right now so…” I responded, making him even more pissed, which is really hot.
Angry Alex is one of the sexiest things ever, and believe me I loved his sweet and easy going personality, but him getting aggressive with me was a huge turn on, him being jelous is even more thrilling. It’s exciting to see a new side of my baby boyfriend. But right now, I really want him to just shut up so I can rip off his shirt and make out with him against the wall. This whole fight is ridiculous.
“Fuck you!” he yelled.
“Okay, just let me-”
“Jack, I don’t want to deal with any of your past relationships. They just make me feel bad.” he admitted, making me instantly feel bad.
“I haven’t spoken to any of them since I met you, you do know that right? The second I first saw you walk through that hallway, I was finished with everyone else, I knew that I had to make you mine. I guess I should’ve tied up some loose ends with a couple of them, I just thought they would get the message by me not returning and calls or texts. I haven’t talked to Nicole since I met you, I had no idea that she would come over there and flirt and grab your dick like that. That part was very unexpected. The last thing I want is for you to feel bad about my past relationships, because they mean practically nothing to me.”
He nodded, but didn’t seem affected by my words. Alex kept staring sadly at the ground, so I couldn’t help but think something else was troubling him. I hooked a finger under his chin, and lifted his head up so I could look him in his gorgeous eyes. He looked so sad…
“What’s bothering you?” I asked, wrapping one hand around his waist, the other held his face.
“I’m scared, Jack.” he answered quietly.
“Of what?”
“This. You have so many ex’s, and we are going so fucking fast. Too fast for me, but I don’t want to stop you because I’m scared you’ll get bored and leave me. I just can’t help thinking how long it’s going to take for you to find someone else you think is ‘the one’ and drop everything to be with them, including me.” His words really hurt me.
I never knew he thought we were going too fast, I don’t know how to act in a serious relationship so I just do what I want, and stop when he tells me to stop. He just doesn’t believe that he is as important to me as I say he is. I don’t know how to prove it to him, but I will do anything to make him happy, and happy with me.
He is so unsure about everything, I want him to know I will always be a constant in his life. I’m not going anywhere.
“Alexander William Gaskarth,” I sighed, and kissed his forehead gently, and he held me in a tight hug.
“Maybe once you really get to know me, you will realize I’m not good enough for your standards-” I can’t hear him talk about himself like that.
“Alex, seriously? You’re a smart kid, I really thought you would understand this by now!” I exclaimed, getting pissed.
“What?!”
“You’re it! You’re as high as my standards go, you’re fucking everything! I think your anxious mind is beautiful, but it makes you doubt how much I care about you, and I really hate that.
I need you so bad, I don’t care how slow we take this, I don’t want anyone else but you for the rest of my life. You are as perfect as it gets, you’re the best part of me.
All this stuff about me leaving you is all in your head, if I ever left, that would hurt me a lot fucking more than it hurts you. I’m never letting go of you, Alex.”
I let out a deep, nervous breath. I’ve never said anything so personal out loud, that was all from the heart. Almost always, I ignore my feelings whenever I get a strong emotion, and wait for it to go away, but Alex has me stuck to him like a magnet. His better than booze, better than sex, better than cheeseburgers.
Alex grabbed my face with two hands and kissed me, I smiled against his lips. Knowing he accepted my words meant the world to me, and just going a day without kissing him was making me feel antsy. We kissed until we both ran out of breath, even then he kept showering me in kisses all over my face, neck, and collarbone. I loved his lips so much more than cheeseburgers.
Notes
Awww, yayyyy :)
see i'm not a monster, i wouldn't let them fight for very long, and now we see how much Jack cares about Alex
and Alex is jealous which was cute
even though at the end of this story i have a big fight planned... this story has just started and i already have plans for the end, ahh i need a life
ALL TIME LOW IS GOING ON TOUR WITH BLINK AND IM GONNA GO TO A SHOW IM SO EXCITEDDDDDDDD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
babesss
Title credit- You're Just A Daydream Away
"Do you think Tay is going to sabatoge Jalex"
Considering this is my second time reading this, yes
7/11/17