What's My Age Again?

I woke up for the second time this morning not as hungover as I usually could be. The first time I woke up it was to text my mom and tell her Kellin and I "left the house" early this morning so she wouldn't be expect to see us when she made it from work.

Alex's arms were wrapped around my waist tightly and my face was pushed in his chest. I slowly pulled his arms off of me and just as I was about to get up he wrapped them back around me.

"Lex let me go." I chuckled.

"No." He mumbled.

"Please I need to go pee." I begged.

"Ugh fine."

He sighed and pulled his arm off of me. I got out of bed and went to his bathroom to do my whole morning routine. When I came out, Alex was lying on his back, asleep. I walked over and kissed him on the cheek then I left the room.

I went downstairs to get something quick to eat. As I walked through the living room I stepped over people who crashed on the floor last night. It felt like I was walking over dead bodies. The kitchen light was on and some people were in there talking. I walked in and saw Josh, Zack, and Brendon Urie! I remembered that Alex introduced me to him last night. I gasped and stopped dead in my tracks when I saw him sitting at the table.

"Oh hey it's my number one fan." He smiled at me. He seemed so hungover.

"Oh my gosh. Hi." I trembled and Josh and Zack laughed at me.

"I thought Alex was exaggerating when he said you'd probably leave him for Brendon, but now I think he was telling the truth." Zack joked and I laughed.

"I'm sorry. It's just I've loved Panic since forever!" I exaggerated.

"What's your favorite song?" Brendon asked.

"Build God, Then We'll Talk!" I answered quickly. I've been prepared all my life for this moment.

"Ah yeah that's a good one." He agreed and yawned. "Well I should get going. My flight leaves in a few hours." He chuckled.

"It was great seeing you again, man." Zack told him and they both stood.

"Great seeing you all too. It was nice meeting you, Jack. Tell Alex I said bye please!" Brendon asked.

"Yes of course I will, and it was nice meeting you too!" I exclaimed.

He told us all bye again and left. I was really bummed out to see him leave. I went back upstairs forgetting about eating.

Alex was still sleeping so I laid back down next to him in bed. I cuddled into his chest and he wrapped his hands around my waist. It was like I never got up.

"Where'd you go?" He asked, shocking me because I thought he was asleep.

"Downstairs to get food but I ran into Brendon Urie and talked to him a bit."

"Was he everything you imagined him to be?" He asked jokingly.

"Yeah I expected him to be laid back and chill and he was mostly that."

"Good. Well you're welcome."

"Thank you, Alex or should I say daddy?" I said sarcastically and he chuckled.

"What the hell are you talking about?"

"You called yourself daddy last night before we had sex. Don't you remember?"

"No I was really fucked up. Ugh and I have the biggest hangover ever." He groaned.

"Aw poor baby." I giggled and reached up to kiss his forehead.

"Why aren't you hung over?" He complained.

"Maybe I'm just one of those people that don't really get hangovers." I shrugged.

"You're lucky. I remember not getting them when I was younger, but it went all downhill after I turned eighteen." He told me. I'm not sure if it gets worse with age, but I should probably not bring it up again.

We were silent for a little bit, then I felt him take a deep breath.

"Can I talk to you about something?" He asked in a more serious tone. I nodded my head on his chest and he sat up and pulled me up with him. Now we were sitting on his bed. He grabbed my hands and looked me in the eyes.

"So I talked to Matt last night." He stated. Just hearing that sentence made me think he knew I was lying about everything. There wasn't anything I could do. I was just going to have to sit here and listen to him call me out. "He told me about the small uh disagreement, I guess, that you two had last night. And I completely understand why you were so worriedly, Jack." He said.

"You do?" I asked.

"Yeah I know that you probably thought that I was using you like Matt did that poor girl, but that's not the case. I really really like you! Like I want to make a long distance relationship work between us so I can look forward to visiting you after tour. I am in no way just using you, okay?"

"Okay." I exhaled in relief. This conversation could have went in a totally different direction. He pulled my face over to kiss me.

"Do you believe me?" He asked.

"Yes, I know that you would never lie to me." I told him and he nodded.

"Good and I know you wouldn't lie to me either." He said and laid back down. I froze because I've basically done nothing but lie to him. The only reason we were dating was because I lied about my age. I laid back down with him, but I felt horrible about it.

We heard a knock on the door and Alex told whoever it was to come in. Kellin opened the door and smiled at us.

"Aw you two look so cute." He gushed and I rolled my eyes at him.

"What do you want?" I asked.

"I wanted to know if we could go so you could help me study for my Geometry test."

I was sure that was code talk saying we had to go now. I looked to Alex to make sure it wouldn't bother him if I left him.

"Go help him. I'll see you later on this week." Alex told me.

"Okay. I'll call you tonight." I kissed him and got up.

I grabbed my things and left with Kellin. We told the others bye and then left. We got in my car since I drove here and Kellin rode with Vic.

"So did your mom call and say you had to come home?" I asked as I drove.

"No I really needed help studying." He said and I laughed.

"Oh."

"Yeah I need at least a C on this test to keep from failing on our next report card." He sighed.

"Do you want to study at yours?" I asked and he nodded. I drove us to his house and texted my mom so that she would know where I was.

Kellin's mom was still asleep when we made it to his house. We went up to his room and he pulled out his books and study guide. I wasn't going to be much help for him since I was only making a B myself. We sat on the floor and looked over the material for a few minutes.

"I'm bored." Kellin complained.

"Too bad! Now pay attention!" I scolded him and he rolled his eyes. I attempted to go over another problem with him.

"Did you give Alex birthday sex last night?" He changed the subject.

"Kellin." I shook my head and pinched the bridge of my nose.

"What I'm just curious." He shrugged.

"Yes I did. Now can we get back to this?"

"Did you do anything special or was it just sex?" He asked, ignoring me.

"It was kind of special." I answered smiling to myself.

"How?"

"Well for one we didn't use protection and I think he enjoyed it better that way." I chuckled and he stared at me.

"He didn't use a condom?!" He sounded really worried.

"No."

"Oh my god what's wrong with you??"

"What do you mean? It's okay. Alex and I are both clean and it's not like I can get pregnant." I frowned. Why was he making everything between Alex and me a big deal?

"...I think...I think that you should tell your mom that you're dating someone."

"What? No! Why would I do that?"

"Um I just think she could give you a lot of...helpful advice." He said.

"Helpful advice? What are you talking about?" I asked him.

"Jack." He sighed. He looked really conflicted as he thought for a bit. "I overhe-...I um...you're um...distracting me so I'm going to finish up studying alone, okay?" He stammered suspiciously.

"You want me to leave?" I asked, confused.

"Yeah if you don't mind."

"Okay, just call me when you're finished acting weird." I said and stood up.

He walked me to the door and stopped me before I left. "Just think about telling your mom, please." He pleaded.

"Yeah I'll think about it alright." I said sarcastically. I wasn't going to tell my mom that I was dating anyone, especially not Alex.

"Okay, bye Jack." He hugged me. It felt weird because we don't hug each other goodbye. Something wasn't right and it had something to do with me, my mom, and my relationship with Alex. Maybe Kellin accidentally hinted to her that I was dating someone. I don't know what that had to do with Alex and I having sex though.

I went home and went to lay with my mom in her bed. She was awake just lying down and scrolling her Facebook page. She smiled when I laid down next to her.

"Hey Sweetie." She greeted me. "Where were you and Kellin?"

"We went to IHOP to eat breakfast then we went to his house to study." I told her. "He's been acting pretty strange. Like he knows something that I don't know."

"Hmm that's weird. Maybe he's just been having a tough week. I'm sure it's nothing you should stress over." She gave me a reassuring smile and I nodded. I wasn't going to let it go that easily. I wanted to know what he knew so I could be prepared for anything bad to happen.

I pulled out my phone and opened up Tumblr. We laid silently checking our social media sites and enjoying each other company. I thought about asking her questions like Kellin asked me to, but I couldn't do it.

"Was Lisa awake when you were over Kellin's?" My mom asked.

"No she was still asleep." I told her.

"Ugh she sleeps too long. I need to talk to her." She complained.

"About what?"

"Grown up stuff." She chuckled and I rolled my eyes. She was probably going to talk to her about Avery.

We heard the front door being opened meaning May was here. She walked into our mom's and plopped down in the bed with us. Her eyes were red like she had been crying.

"Honey! What's wrong?!?" My mom panicked. I stayed quiet because I already knew what it was.

"It's nothing. I'm just being stupid." She sniffled. I handed her a few Kleenex's off my mom's nightstand.

"It can't be nothing if its making you this upset." Mom told her.

May sat up and wiped her eyes. "Matt broke up with me." She whimpered. "And I know we only dated for like a month, so I shouldn't be this upset but I can't help feeling horrible." She cried.

"Aww come here." My mom opened her arms for her and May went to her.

Hearing her cry made tears began to fall from my eyes. I didn't mean for this to happen. I shouldn't have talked her out of going with Matt. Then again Matt said he was going to break up with her anyways so he didn't deserve her like Kellin said.

"Shhh its okay, Baby." Mom whispered, trying to comfort her. I wiped at my eyes and went to lay closer to them.

We all ended up taking a nap in my mom's room. We spent the rest of the day trying to comfort May. She did feel better after her second helping of ice cream, but I could tell she was still heartbroken. She ended up staying the night with us.

Notes

Poor May! I think we're going to feel worse for Jack, next chapter.