After I agreed to going out with Zack later I decided I just needed to cool off alone in my bunk. That is when I remembered the note the lady at the orphanage gave me and I decided I would google my brother Fisher. I wasn’t expecting much from the search until I came across his name and address in the yellow pages. The page said he lived in Washington State and was married. I can’t even imagine being married at my age. I decide since I have his address I should just write him a letter and find out about our parents. This will allow me to get my family back together faster. I go into my bag and grab a piece of paper and pen to write what may be the most important letter I have ever written.

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Dear Fisher,

Hi my name is Finlee Rayne and I think you may be my older brother. To be honest I don’t know what really to say to you. This letter has taken me quite a while to write out for that reason. Frankly I just want to get to know my birth family and find out why I was the “unwanted” one. I understand that it was a different time in everyone’s life but I don’t understand why my mother didn’t love me like she loves you.

I guess I can start out this letter by telling you about myself. Like I said my name is Finlee Rayne. I am a college senior studying Biology with an option in Pre-Physician Assistant at Virginia Polytechnic Institute and State University (Virginia Tech). I hope to graduate with my degree at the end of this school year and to make my way to University of California at Senoma to get my Masters Degree to become a Physician’s Assistant. I came to VA when I was 18 to study and I lived in Maryland before that for about five years. Before Maryland I lived in many different states being bounced around. I work at a coffee shop right off campus called The Bean and live with my best friend Charlotte plus my dog Psycho in a two bedroom apartment about 2 miles from campus. I absolutely LOVE coffee, well really just anything that includes caffeine.

The foster care system deemed me “unadoptable” when I was 8 years old and that is when I began to go from foster family to foster family throughout the country. I never have found out why they deemed me “unadoptable” but my guess would be because I beat up my foster father that year after he tried to molest me; this is something I try not to think about and choose to not dwell over anymore. Being deemed this also means I am an adult without a last name so I use Rayne as my last name on legal documents. I would love to change that someday of course but I am content with the way it is for now. I went into treatment for an eating disorder when I was 12 years old and right when I got out of treatment was sent off to the family I lived with until I graduated High School, Jacee, Lee and Myles. Jacee is a sweetheart and is like my long lost crazy aunt; Lee on the other hand is like a grumpy grandpa who I really don’t get along with still to this day.

I find it really hard to write all about myself so sorry if it sounds like a very long ramble. I am currently taking a little vacation from my life back in VA (while still trying to keep up with my school work, which is harder than it sounds) and touring with Charlotte as well as our best guy friends who are in the band All Time Low. I have naturally blonde hair, blue eyes, and am 5’4”. I love music (especially pop punk) and believe that is what has kept me alive to this point in my life. I don’t play any instruments, however, since I have a hard enough time keeping my attention span long enough to study for my classes. I am doing merchandise selling while on tour for the band that I am here with. Another fun fact about me is that if I could have one dream job, other than what I am going to school for, I would be an actress on Broadway.

I just started my search to find you, my mother, and my father about two months ago. You are the first one I have found information on so I decided to write you a letter and tell you about myself in hopes that you will accept me. Well not necessarily accept me per se just that you will read this letter and let me know about you in return. I am not writing this thing to get you guys to love me I just really want to know where I came from to make myself feel a little more whole. When mom dropped me off at 15 months old she left me a letter telling me about you, dad and her at that time. I just want to know what ever happened to the family I never got the chance to know. I was also wondering if you had any information on our parents so that I can reach out to them also.

Like I said I am currently touring right now so I will send you a couple addresses with this letter if you choose to write me back. I hope to hear from you though I understand if you do not feel the need to reply. Thank you for reading this letter, I really appreciate it.

Sincerely,
Finlee Rayne
PO Box #123C
Houston, TX 77003

Notes

Here is just a filler of the letter Finlee wrote to Fisher... what will happen next?
Disclaimer: Address completely made up for the story and I do not know if it is a real PO Box #

It makes me sad that no one likes this story, I am basically just writing to get it out of my own thoughts at this point. Sorry I suck at writing so much guys. I promise something will happen to re-kickstart this story soon... Thanks for those sticking with me even if you're silent readers :-P
~Maria