Live While We're Young
There's No Going Back
November 3, 2011
Hey guys,
Zack and I went to the orphanage today. The lady remembered me, which I do not know if that is good or bad. She went to her records to see if she could help me out any. When she came back she gave me a small piece of paper with my brother’s name and birth date on it. I know what you are thinking, what the hell; this is exactly what I am still thinking to this day.
After we left the orphanage Zack and I decided it would be a good idea to meet back with everyone on tour. As he puts it, it will make me feel more loved this way. I think he partially has his own selfish reasons ;).
Everybody seemed super excited to have us back so I guess everything is good over here. I guess all I have left to do is figure out what this stupid piece of paper is supposed to do for me.
Until next time y’ll,
Me
Finlee's POV
It was already pretty late at night so by the time I was feeling as good as everyone else the sun was beginning to rise. The last thing I remember is starting a game of truth or dare with the guys at about 5:30 am. The rest of the night is quite a blur which could be a good or bad thing depending on how you look at it.
When I wake up the next morning I notice I am not in my bunk but in one of the guys’ bunks. This wouldn’t be so bad if I wasn’t naked too. As I try to convince myself that everything is okay and I am just dreaming so I should see who it is I am trying to remember the whole night to no avail. I look over to see who I am pressed up against to see the one and only Zachary Steven Merrick, fuck!! This is going to make tour much more awkward now, damn me and my horny drunkenness.
I decide to try and snake my way out of this awkward situation and slowly move out of the bunk. It is a lot more difficult than you think because of the whole not wanting to flash the entire bus while moving to get the clothes scattered across the walkway. After I get all my clothes I head to the front lounge while putting them on fast in the process. I wasn’t quite fast enough though because Charlotte was sitting up front alone and when she saw me struggling to put my shorts on she got the biggest smirk on her face.
“I take it you had a good night,” she smiled that was getting bigger while shaking her head.
“Char what am I going to do?” I replied before putting my head down on the table.
“Haha. Poor Finlee doesn’t know how to not act awkward after a casual fuck I take it?”
“Shut up CHARLOTTE! It’s not like I have had many casual fucks like you. Now what do I do?” I said as I threw the pillow next to me at her head.
“Well there's no going back now! Just go on like nothing happened silly, after all you guys only like each other as friends right?” she said with a wink.
When she asked me this all I could do was look at her, bite my lip, and then proceed to bang my head on the table yet again. The good thing about Char is she can read body language well when she wants to so she didn’t bug me further on the subject. Right when she is about to change the subject her “guy friend” Jack and Alex walk out of the bunk area.
“Ladies I think you owe us some breakfast.” Jack said nonchalantly.
“Where shall we take you two cuties?” Char replied.
“Waffle House!!” they yelled at the same time. Charlotte and I giggled when they did this and it makes me remember why I love these guys so much.
Zack's POV
Last night could have possibly been the best night of my life. It started out kind of bland but as the night went on Finlee got trashed (okay I was pretty wasted too) and horny. Not that I am complaining or anything. I may have had a crush before but now that we’ve slept together I am pretty sure I am falling in love with her.
When I woke up this morning Finlee had already gotten out of bed. From the sounds around me, or the lack of, I think everyone got out of bed before me today actually. When I finally decide to get out of bed I notice the bus in disarray and nobody to be found. Great I get stuck cleaning up this mess hung over. Is it sad that I was kind of hoping Finlee would be here still so we could talk?
As if my thoughts were granting my wish I suddenly hear a bunch of laughter coming towards the bus. That laugh is what makes me want to get up each and every day lately. It helps that she looks absolutely gorgeous as she walks into the bus.
“Oh hey, Zack,” Finlee said awkwardly as she walked on the bus. Jack, Alex, and Charlotte followed closely behind her and went to the back lounge. Finlee decided to stay up front with me. As she grabbed a water out of the fridge I decided it was now or never to get into conversation with her.
“Hey Fin! Can I talk to you?” I finally said as she sat down across from me on the couch.
“Uh, sure I guess. About what?” she replied.
“About last night.”
“What about it, Zack?” she whispered.
“I don’t want what happened to make the rest of tour awkward for you. It’s just…”
That is when she cut me off, “look Zack I will try and pretend it never happened if you do, okay? I can’t let you hurt me like every other guy I have ever met and I really need a friend so I will just put it out of my mind. I liked you before and I still do but I can get over that small detail.” With that she got up and went to her bunk.
I decided I needed to follow her so I could get a word in, “I don’t want to forget it happened Finlee! It was one of the best nights of my life that I will never wish to take back. I get you’ve been hurt but I want to do my best to prove to you that won’t happen again. Just give me a chance please!?!”
She then turned around and there were tears in her eyes, shit what did I say? That is when she opened her mouth and sighed, “Fine. But don’t expect the world from me.” And she broke down in tears as she shut her bunk’s curtain.
I whispered into her bunk, “be ready for the best night of your life at 7. And thank you.” I guess I should figure out what I am going to do now.
Charlotte's POV
Jack, Alex, and I decided as we walked on the bus and saw Zack’s face that we would leave him and Rayne alone. They needed to talk whether my best friend wanted to admit it or not. Plus Jack had been trying to convince me for the last hour to go out to the arcade with him tonight. Suddenly we hear them whisper yelling at each other and Rayne agreeing to go out with Zack tonight.
With a smile Jack looked at me and said, “hey that means they can go with us, right Char?”
That smile made me give in, “if Zack and Rayne are okay with it then I guess I am too.”
Zack then trotted into the back lounge and said, “Finlee is going to go out with me tonight. What am I going to do?”
“You are going to go to the arcade with Jack and I Zachary. A double date will help it be less awkward.”
Tonight was going to be amazing; I guess I was right when I told Rayne there’s no going back :).
Hey guys,
Zack and I went to the orphanage today. The lady remembered me, which I do not know if that is good or bad. She went to her records to see if she could help me out any. When she came back she gave me a small piece of paper with my brother’s name and birth date on it. I know what you are thinking, what the hell; this is exactly what I am still thinking to this day.
After we left the orphanage Zack and I decided it would be a good idea to meet back with everyone on tour. As he puts it, it will make me feel more loved this way. I think he partially has his own selfish reasons ;).
Everybody seemed super excited to have us back so I guess everything is good over here. I guess all I have left to do is figure out what this stupid piece of paper is supposed to do for me.
Until next time y’ll,
Me
Finlee's POV
It was already pretty late at night so by the time I was feeling as good as everyone else the sun was beginning to rise. The last thing I remember is starting a game of truth or dare with the guys at about 5:30 am. The rest of the night is quite a blur which could be a good or bad thing depending on how you look at it.
When I wake up the next morning I notice I am not in my bunk but in one of the guys’ bunks. This wouldn’t be so bad if I wasn’t naked too. As I try to convince myself that everything is okay and I am just dreaming so I should see who it is I am trying to remember the whole night to no avail. I look over to see who I am pressed up against to see the one and only Zachary Steven Merrick, fuck!! This is going to make tour much more awkward now, damn me and my horny drunkenness.
I decide to try and snake my way out of this awkward situation and slowly move out of the bunk. It is a lot more difficult than you think because of the whole not wanting to flash the entire bus while moving to get the clothes scattered across the walkway. After I get all my clothes I head to the front lounge while putting them on fast in the process. I wasn’t quite fast enough though because Charlotte was sitting up front alone and when she saw me struggling to put my shorts on she got the biggest smirk on her face.
“I take it you had a good night,” she smiled that was getting bigger while shaking her head.
“Char what am I going to do?” I replied before putting my head down on the table.
“Haha. Poor Finlee doesn’t know how to not act awkward after a casual fuck I take it?”
“Shut up CHARLOTTE! It’s not like I have had many casual fucks like you. Now what do I do?” I said as I threw the pillow next to me at her head.
“Well there's no going back now! Just go on like nothing happened silly, after all you guys only like each other as friends right?” she said with a wink.
When she asked me this all I could do was look at her, bite my lip, and then proceed to bang my head on the table yet again. The good thing about Char is she can read body language well when she wants to so she didn’t bug me further on the subject. Right when she is about to change the subject her “guy friend” Jack and Alex walk out of the bunk area.
“Ladies I think you owe us some breakfast.” Jack said nonchalantly.
“Where shall we take you two cuties?” Char replied.
“Waffle House!!” they yelled at the same time. Charlotte and I giggled when they did this and it makes me remember why I love these guys so much.
Zack's POV
Last night could have possibly been the best night of my life. It started out kind of bland but as the night went on Finlee got trashed (okay I was pretty wasted too) and horny. Not that I am complaining or anything. I may have had a crush before but now that we’ve slept together I am pretty sure I am falling in love with her.
When I woke up this morning Finlee had already gotten out of bed. From the sounds around me, or the lack of, I think everyone got out of bed before me today actually. When I finally decide to get out of bed I notice the bus in disarray and nobody to be found. Great I get stuck cleaning up this mess hung over. Is it sad that I was kind of hoping Finlee would be here still so we could talk?
As if my thoughts were granting my wish I suddenly hear a bunch of laughter coming towards the bus. That laugh is what makes me want to get up each and every day lately. It helps that she looks absolutely gorgeous as she walks into the bus.
“Oh hey, Zack,” Finlee said awkwardly as she walked on the bus. Jack, Alex, and Charlotte followed closely behind her and went to the back lounge. Finlee decided to stay up front with me. As she grabbed a water out of the fridge I decided it was now or never to get into conversation with her.
“Hey Fin! Can I talk to you?” I finally said as she sat down across from me on the couch.
“Uh, sure I guess. About what?” she replied.
“About last night.”
“What about it, Zack?” she whispered.
“I don’t want what happened to make the rest of tour awkward for you. It’s just…”
That is when she cut me off, “look Zack I will try and pretend it never happened if you do, okay? I can’t let you hurt me like every other guy I have ever met and I really need a friend so I will just put it out of my mind. I liked you before and I still do but I can get over that small detail.” With that she got up and went to her bunk.
I decided I needed to follow her so I could get a word in, “I don’t want to forget it happened Finlee! It was one of the best nights of my life that I will never wish to take back. I get you’ve been hurt but I want to do my best to prove to you that won’t happen again. Just give me a chance please!?!”
She then turned around and there were tears in her eyes, shit what did I say? That is when she opened her mouth and sighed, “Fine. But don’t expect the world from me.” And she broke down in tears as she shut her bunk’s curtain.
I whispered into her bunk, “be ready for the best night of your life at 7. And thank you.” I guess I should figure out what I am going to do now.
Charlotte's POV
Jack, Alex, and I decided as we walked on the bus and saw Zack’s face that we would leave him and Rayne alone. They needed to talk whether my best friend wanted to admit it or not. Plus Jack had been trying to convince me for the last hour to go out to the arcade with him tonight. Suddenly we hear them whisper yelling at each other and Rayne agreeing to go out with Zack tonight.
With a smile Jack looked at me and said, “hey that means they can go with us, right Char?”
That smile made me give in, “if Zack and Rayne are okay with it then I guess I am too.”
Zack then trotted into the back lounge and said, “Finlee is going to go out with me tonight. What am I going to do?”
“You are going to go to the arcade with Jack and I Zachary. A double date will help it be less awkward.”
Tonight was going to be amazing; I guess I was right when I told Rayne there’s no going back :).
Ok. =) Can't wait.
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