Riley's POV

I walked into my room and Kit was sat on the bed.
He looked at me but looked down again.
"Why did you do it?" I asked seriously refusing to sit next to him.
"I don't know." He said quiwetly.
"What sort of answer is that? You don't know why you kissed someone. You have a fucking reason but your not telling me!" I said.
"Why you even aruging about this? It's just a kiss." Kit said.
"I'm aruging about this because I thought you actually gave a shit about me! I thought you actually was going to be different but your not. Your no different than what he was!" I said loudly and felt some tears fall.
Kit looked at me.
"Ri, I do care about you. I am different than what he was." Kit said and got up.
"No you don't. Because if you did then you wouldn't off kissed someone else. Am I really that shit?" I said and looked down and felt a panic attack coming.
"Babe you have to calm down. And your not shit trust me please." He said and walked towards me but I moved away from him.
"Trust you? How the fuck can I trust you now!?" I shouted at him.
Kit looked down.
"Look, I understand you are mad and upset with me but it wasn't me who made the first move. I didn't even kiss back." He said and looked at me.
"Well you fucking looked fucking cosy with him!" I spat.

Kit looked down again.
"Babe, it's seriously not what your thinking." He said quietly.
"Then tell me what the fuck it is." I said.
"He would kill me if I told anyone. He will hurt you and your family Ri. I can't have that happen because I love you and this family so much!" He said desperately.
"Kit, tell me." I said seriously.
Kit sighed and looked down.
"H..He my brother." He said quietly.
"Thought Drew was your only brother?" I asked confused.
"No, I have Drew and Andrew. But Andrew is fucking evil Ri, believe me please." He said.
"What has he done?" I asked.
"Why do you think Drew has gone into hiding?" He asked.
"I don't know! Don't play the whole questions game." I said getting annoyed with Kit.
Kit took a deep breath.
"Andrew is a lot older than us. He in his 20's or whatever." He said.
"So is Drew." I said confused.
"Drew is 21. Andrew has to be 27 or something." Kit said.
"So you mum must of been.." I said thinking.
"She was 16 when she had him." He said.
"But you never told me about him. Kit we've been together for 11 months now and you never told me about Andrew." I said.
"Me and Drew don't talk to him. In our eyes he's not our brother and he is dead to us." He said.
"What has he done which made you and Drew not talk to him?" I asked.
Kit looked at me.
He had tears in his eyes which wasnt like him.
"Babe?" I asked and walked over to him the argument we was having long forgotten about.

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Kits POV

Riley's mood completely changed and I was thankful for that as I didn't want argue with him.

"Babe. Tell me what happened." Riley said.
I shook my head.
"I can't. I physically can't say anything. I've kept it to myself all these years. I don't know how to tell anyone about it. You might leave me." I said and looked at him.
Riley pulled me into a hug.
"I'm not going to leave you." He said quietly and kissed the top of my head.
I looked at him.
"Promise?" I whispered.
"I promise." He said and kissed me.

He caught hold of my hand and led me to the bed and sat down.
I sat next to him.
"Tell me what happened." He said quietly.
"I was 7 when he started." I whispered.
"Started what?" Riley asked.
"Raping me." I sniffed and wiped my eyes with my sleeve.
Riley moved and got the box of tissues and put them on my lap.
I got one and wiped my eyes.
"Thought it was gonna be the one off but the weekend came and he raped my twice." I said quietly.
"Come to think of it Drew got of lightly compared to me but he always had mum and dad shouting abuse at him." I said quietly.
Riley stayed quiet.
"When did it stop?" He asked quietly.
"When I was 13 when someone reported him to the police about doing the same to them." I said.
"But the charges was dropped and that's was when Drew started to run away. Until he never came home. Haven't seen him since really." I said.
"Did he ever do it again?" Riley asked.
I nodded and started to cry again.
Riley pulled me to his side and kissed my cheek.
"My 14th he raped me all might with his friends." I sniffed.
"Your safe now. Me, dad and Pa won't let anything happen to you." He said.
"He's back in town. You saw him. In his eyes I'm not family but his fucking bitch. His grotty whore." I said and moved away from Riley.
Riley didn't say anything.
"Your nothing like that." He finally said.
"Yeah I am. I'm nothing but filth." I spat at him.
Riley looked down.
"Your not filth Kit." He said quietly.
I looked at him and sighed.
I walked over to him and pulled him into my side and kissed the top of his head.
"I'm sorry." I said quietly.
"I'm sorry as well." He whispered and looked at me.
I kissed him.
"I forgive you." I said quietly.
"I forgive you as well." He whispered.
I kissed him which he returned.
"It's late. Let's go to bed." I said quietly and Riley nodded.
He gotnup and pulled the covers back and we both climbed in.
Riley was being big spoon and he pulled me close to him.
"This hasn't changed us." He said quietly and felt for my hand and when he found it he linked his finger with mine.
I smiled and got comfy and fell asleep.

Notes

Don't even like this chapter...