Tyler's POV

I went to the skate park and Seth wasn't there and he wasn't at where dance was but he also wasn't there.
"Seth where are you?" I muttered to myself and thought really hard on where he could be.
There was one place he goes too.
Somewhere where can just get away from everyone.

I got there and saw Seth sat under a tree looking lost.
I walked over to him and sat next to him.
"How did you know I was here?" He asked quietly.
"Luckily guess after going to your favorite places first." I said.
"Maybe I didn't want to be found." He whispered.
I looked at him and saw he had a deep cut on his arm.
"I wanted to find you because what I said was wrong." I said.
"You shouldn't of done. Maybe I'm just better of dead." He said quietly.
"Babe your not better of dead." I said quietly and turned round and faced him.
"But I am though. I make your life a living hell. I just make everyone's life hell." He sniffed.
"You don't make my life a living hell. My life is perfect as long as your in it. It's the same with everyone else. Your dad is at home now worrying so much about you. He's thinking that he's going to lose another child. " I said.
"Maybe he should, then he doesn't have to worry about me." He whispered.
"Seth Adam Barakat. When the fuck did you give up so easily?" I asked.
"Since I don't want to be alive anymore." He said quietly.
"Why babe? You have so much to live for. You have that dance school which you've been accepted into. You havent even told your dad's yet. You got so fucking much to live for. Don't let this bring you down. You can beat this and I will be with you every step of the way!" I said.
He looked at me for the first time since I got here.
"You have your little brother or sister too look forward to seeing. In a few months." I said.
He looked down.
I moved forward and made him look at me.
"Don't look away from me. If you kill yourself then you have let your BPD win. You have let your demons win. Babe I can't live without you. You have done so much for me, you becoming my boyfriend. Letting me live with you, helping me leave home away from mum." I said.
"I don't know what to do anymore Ty." He sobbed a little.
I pulled him to my side.
"We're gonna go home, get you cleaned up and your going to talk to your dad and explain everything how you feel too him. He will help you Seth, you just have to talk to him. You know he'll understand better than anyone." I said and Seth nodded.
He moved away from me and I got up and I helped him up.
I walked towards him and pulled him into a hug.
He buried his head in my neck and cried.
"We'll get through this okay. Me and you, we'll get through this together I promise." I said and kissed the side of his head.
"Don't leave me." He sobbed into my neck.
I pulled back and looked at him.
"I wouldn't dream of it." I said quietly and kissed him.

We got back and Alex just rushed over to Seth and hugged him tightly which Seth returned.
"Don't fucking do that to me again! I thought I had lost you." Alex said and held him tighter.
"I'm sorry." Seth said quietly.
Alex kissed the side of his head.
"Just don't do it again! I can't lose another one of you guys." Alex said.
"I'm so sorry dad. I'm so so sorry." Seth sobbed.
Alex pulled back and looked at him.
"You have nothing to say sorry for. I've been where you have been. You don't have to say sorry to me. I understand." Alex said and pulled Seth back into a hug.
"Don't cry. I have you." Alex said quietly and rocked himself side to side slightly.
Alex looked at me and smiled slightly.
I knew what this meant and I went to the sitting room and sat on the sofa.
"He's in the sitting room. Can you have a chat or something with him." Alex sakd.

I heard someone walk in the sitting room and sat next to me.
"Come here you." Jack said and I just did what everyone else did and cuddled into his side.
"One thing which I have learnt over the years is don't blame yourself. It's not your fault and they can't help how they feel." He said.
"He wanted to kill himself." I sniffed.
Jack just held me closer to him.
"You got to him before he could so any more damage to himself. That's all which matters. He's still here and he just needs us now to support him and be here for him." He said.
I nodded and went to move but Jack stopped me.
"You don't have to move." He said and I smiled as I really needed so parent loving and since Jack and Alex where in my eyes like my parents I let Jack just hug me.

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Alexs POV

I was so relived when Seth and Tyler came home.
I took Seth upstairs too mine amd Jacks room to clean him up.

"You don't have to do this. I don't want to trigger you." Seth said as he sat on the side in the bathroom.
"You don't worry about me. I have to do this as it's what any parent would do." I said quietly.
I got a flannel and made it damp and started to clean his cut gently.
"Ow!" Seth hissed.
"I know it hurts. But I have to clean it so it doesn't get infected." I said.
"But it fucking hurts." Seth whined.
"You sound like Rowan only without the swear word." I chuxkled.
Seth smiled a little.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
"I'm fine. You should worry about yourself an not me." I said.
"No, I mean the bump, is everything okay?" He said.
"You can't call it a bump yet since I haven't got one yet. But everything is fine." I said.
"Promise?" He asked.
"I promise Seth. You shouldnt have to worry about me." I said.
"But i do. We cant lose you dad." He said.
I put my hand on his knee and looked at him.
"Im not goinf anywhere okay. You are stuck woth me." I said.
Seth nodded and i finished his arm in silence.

When i was done we went and sat on the bed.
"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked quietky
Seth shook his head.
"I want to sleep." He yawned.
"Want me to leave you alone?" I asked and messed with his hair.
"No. Stay with me please." He said.
I climbed onto the bed and lead behind him.
"Dont leave." He whispered.
"Im not going anywhere." I saod quiwtly anmd kissed the top of his head.
"Ill always be here for ypu Seth. No matter what." I whispered amd waited until he fell asleep beforw i fell asleep.

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