It was still pretty sunny by the middle of May, and I think I was slowly but surely getting sick and tired of it. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love the sun just as much as the next person, but it just wasn't sinking in as much as it usually does in terms of good vibes. Maybe it's the fact that I can't drink, there's a 99% chance that I wouldn't normally have a beer or two if we're enjoying the sun. I'm putting my money on that.

So as you do, myself and Taylor sat on the balcony of my apartment and decided to tan. I was pale and snow-like from not going out much due to college work, and Taylor was quite tanned but still "wanted to look more golden". We said no more and got to it.

Taylor made me wear a bikini to get a better tan, but I wasn't pushed because I wasn't yet ready to show Bump off. I'm slowly becoming happier about the whole idea of being pregnant, but it still makes me feel fairly sick. The fact that I'm getting bigger doesn't make me overly impressed, however. I'll be like a whale by November.

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I was getting bored of tanning, and vowed to just get some of the St.Tropez gradual tan from Superdrug to sort my color out. I went to get a drink and used that as an excuse to stay inside for a bit, since the sun was also making me tired. Taylor, however, must've noticed that I'd been missing for ten minutes, because she came in with her sunglasses in her hair and Cosmopolitan rolled up in her arms.

"Must've been some drink you were getting, Rach. You've been missing for bloody ages!" Taylor lightly bumped my arm with her magazine, and I shrugged.

"Yeah, I've been chugging water while you were reading Cosmo." I laughed slightly, and was about to say something, but was interrupted by my phone ringing. Josh. I figured he'd call around this time, since it's after soundcheck.

"Hey love, what's up?" Josh asked once i picked up the phone, and I sighed a little. I still hadn't told him about the baby.

"Oh, nothing much, just reading Cosmo with Taylor, y'know yourself. How's tour going?" This was the weakest answer I could come up with.

"All you pair actually do's read that magazine. It's just so full of crap, though, so I don't see why."

"That's such a lie, Joshua, its actually full of fantastic information. For example, the top 5 sex moves that help you lose weight, like. Ooh, Rach, your favourite 'reverse cowgirl' one's there." Taylor chipped in, as she stood next to me reading the magazine out loud. She also spoke loud enough to let Josh hear, and I could honestly feel my face go a bit hot. Josh laughed awkwardly on the other end of the phone.

"Anyways," he said, dropping THAT topic and moving along swiftly while elbowed Taylor right in the ribcage. "to answer your earlier question, the tour's going great. I like touring with Paramore, they're good fun. Hayley Williams says hi, by the way, and that you're really pretty and she also said she'd love to meet up with you soon. Oh, and Max's in a cast."

"Oh my god yes, tell Hayley I'd love to meet her soon! And what in God's name did Max do now?" The guy's a livewire, I'm not honestly surprised at him.

"Will do. He was up on a stand during soundcheck and fell off it. Broke his wrist clean in two, but he can still play the remainder of the shows. Oh, that reminds me, I've something to tell you."

"I've something to tell you to, actually."

"Yeah? You first."

"Well, I'm.." I looked at Taylor for a little help, but all she gave me was a thumbs-up. "I've something to tell you when you get home." Taylor slapped a hand to her forehead.

"Is it good?"

"I..I don't know..?"

"You sound faint, are you okay?"

"I'm fine, yeah. Heat's just getting to me. What'd you want to tell me?"

"Oh right, yeah. I'm coming home early! We're finishing up in late June instead of August, cool, right?" Aww, my love's coming home! I was quite happy, but not as happy as I could've been.

"That's amazing! Oh God, I've missed you so much, so I can't wait!"

"And I can't wait to see your pretty face and that something you've to tell me." Smooth.

"So the end of June, yeah?"

"Yeah, around the 30th, I think, but definitely no later than the 4th Of July since Paramore want to spend that with their families."

"Right, okay. Just making sure so I don't get myself psyched up only to find I've to wait another x-amount of days till I see you."

"Nope, definitely around the 30th. I hate to rush you, but Dan's looking for me. I'll ring you back later, okay?"

"Yeah, sure. Love you, and I'll talk to you whenever."

"Love you too, babe. Bye." I hung up and ran a hand through my hair.

"You should've just told him, you sap." Taylor threw her hands in the air and went back outside, once again, reading Cosmo.

"Yeah? You wouldn't be saying that to Dan if you were pregnant with his child, would you?" I rolled my eyes and headed into my room and flopped into my bed, hoping this nightmare would end soon. I couldn't deal with it anymore.

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I spent the rest of the day in my room, not talking to Taylor and hating the world. I just wanted things to go smooth- that Josh would be fine about the baby and becoming a dad, that Dan wouldn't murder Josh, that mum wouldn't be disappointed, and that the baby's born healthy and well without any problems.

Was that so much to ask?

Notes

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