Many Of Horror

Jacks POV

"I trust you." Alex said quietly.
I smiled.
Nearly a year of being with Alex he finally trusts me and it felt nice.
It was better than when he first said he loved me.
"Please don't leave me." He sniffed and looked down.
"Babe, I'm not going to leave you. I love you too much to let you go." I said and kissed his forehead.
Alex sniffed and pulled the covers up to his face and wiped his nose in it.
"Hope that was your side you just wiped your nose in." I said and Alex smiled.
"So what happened then?" I asked as gently as I could.
Alex took a deep breath and looked down.

"I was having a really bad panic attack as I don't do well with changes or new places. Mr Hay was the first teacher to help me calm down and actually be there for me." He said and a couple of tears fell off the end of his nose.
"2 months later he..he started to touch me." He sobbed.
I moved and pulled him onto my lap and kissed the top of his head.
"He started to tell me how beautiful I was and how special I was too him and how I was his 'special project.'" He said and sniffed.
"The fucking sick thing was I actually believed him. I thought I was special to him." Alex said and got off my lap and sat away from me.
"A few weeks after that he kissed me. Then a few weeks after that is when he raped me." He said and a new set of tears fell.
"How many times?" I asked.
"That day? He raped me 5 times. Over and over again I didn't know when it was going to stop. I wanted him to stop but he wouldn't. He wouldn't stop. He would just laugh at me and say that only the best have this happen to them. Or this is our secret and no one must know otherwise he would say I raped him." He sobbed and he just cried really hard.
I moved and sat next to him and held him close to me as he buried his face into my chest and cried.
I rested my forehead on top of his head.
After a while he pulled his head back and looked down.
"2 years he raped me and just used me for sex and then he would beat me. Until I tried to kill myself after self harming didn't work. Then it all came out what he did to me and he lost his job and went to jail and I just went numb and started to drink, do drug cutting and burning myself and trying to kill myself." He said quietly and looked down.
"We moved here to give us all a fresh start. Then I found you. I couldn't be anymore happier." He said and looked at me and I smiled.
He moved and kissed me which I returned.
He pulled back and looked at me.
"I love you." I said quietly and Alex smiled.
"You must be tired go and have a nap and I'll be here when you wake up." I said and Alex nodded and went onto my side of the bed and lead down and fell asleep quickly.
I smiled and kissed the top of his head and lead next to him and watched him sleep.

I was cooking Alex something to eat since he was still asleep when Freddie and Elijah came back.
"Where's Alex?" Fred asked.
"Asleep." I simply said as I was still pissed off with him.
"Don't say your in a shitty with me as well." Fred said.
"You knew what Alex went through and yet you still be a complete utter asshole towards him." I said trying not to shout and wake Alex.
"I wasn't being a asshole towards him." He said.
"Fred, just leave it. I'm sure you two will sort it out tomorrow." Elijah said.
Fred nodded.
I got Alex's food and went upstairs.

Alex had his back to the door and he was crying.
" Baby what's wrong?" I asked and walked round the bed and saw him cut himself.
"Pathetic aren't I?" He sniffed and rested the blade on his arm and I put my hand out to him.
"Your not pathetic babe." I said quietly.
"Yeah I am. I let him rape me because he said I was special and I thought he was going to help me not what he did." He sobbed and worked himself up into a state and dragged the blade along his arm which made me look down so I didn't see him hurt himself.
I put my hand on his hand with the blade in and Alex looked at me.
I kissed him a little harder than what I wanted but it took his mind of what he was doing.
"Can I have it please." I said against his and I felt him put it in my hand and kissed me a little harder.
I smiled and pulled back and Alex pouted at me which made me chuckled.
"We need to clean your arm." I said.
Alex nodded.
"I'll even have a bath with you if you want." I said and Alex smiled and nodded.
"Come on you." I said and stood up and took Alex to the bathroom and clean his arm and had a bath with him.

We was cuddled in bed watching something on Netflix when someone knocked on our door.
"Yeah." I said and Fred poked his head round.
Alex had fallen asleep on my chest his bandage arm round my waist.
"I was just seeing if Alex was awake but he's not so it doesn't matter." He said and his eyes fell on Alex's arm.
"He didn't." He said.
"Yeah. But it wasn't that bad. But just give him a few days. He's a little bit sensitive right now." I said and Fred nodded.
"Is Elijah okay?" I asked.
"Yeah, he had to go home but he's okay." He said.
I smiled and yawned.
Fred chuckled and walked out the room shutting the door quietly behind him.
I checked Alex one last time and fell asleep.

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