Many Of Horror

Alex's POV.

I was woken up by someone messing with my hair.
I cuddled more into their side which made them stop.
I felt around for their hand and put it on my head.
"Don't stop." I muttered which made them chuckle.
"As you wish your highness." They said and kissed the top of my head and carried on messing with my hair.
I smiled and went back to sleep.

"Wake up Lex." I heard someone quietly say in my ear.
"No." I mumbled.
"The doctor is here to see you." They said.
"Come back another day." I grumbled.
"Cant do that I'm afraid." A voice who I haven't heard before said.
I opened my eyes and looked at the man sat in the chair.
I was cuddled into Jacks side.
"It wasn't me." I said.
"I need to speak to you in private." The person in the chair said.
"I want Jack to stay." I said.
"I need to get something to eat. I won't be long." Jack said and kissed the side of my head.
I sat up and looked down.
"I love you." Jack said quietly and kissed me.
"Love you too." I whispered.
Jack smiled and got off the bed and walked out the room.
"So doc, what damage have I done to myself this time?" I asked and turned to face him but looked down.

"You have done some serious damage to yourself." He said seriously.
I started to mess with my fingers.
"You are very very lucky to be alive." He said.
"Am I in trouble?" I asked quietly.
"Not with me your not." He said.
I looked at him.
"Well my parents don't want fucking nothing to do with me and my brothers so I don't really have anyone to disappoint anymore. Just myself." I said.
"I'm only here to talk about what has happened to you and what is going to happen next." He said.
"Get in with it then." I muttered.
"You have depression with suicidal tendencies along with ADHD and anxiety?" He asked.
"Yerp. Proper fucked up I am." I said and looked back down again.
"And you live with you parents?" He asked.
"Did but not anymore. See they disowned me and my brothers so I now live with my brothers and boyfriend." I said.
He nodded slightly.
"And I understand this isn't your first attempt of suicide?" He asked.
"Nope. This will be my 6th serious attempt. But some how I can't quite die." I said.
"Are you stable enough to go home and go back to normal?" He asked.
"What are you my fucking councilor? Oh wait I don't have one but carry on." I said sarcastically.
He frowned.
"You'll be one suicide watch for 3 weeks and then you'll be in impatient with therapy 3 times a week." He said.
"You are fucking kidding right?" I asked and looked at him.
"No. You are too unstable to go home." He said.
"I'm not fucking cuckoo in the head. I don't need to be in a shitty impatient. I can get better at home with my family and boyfriend." I said.

"Alex you have to go. I can't cope with you trying to kill yourself again." Someone said as they walked in.
I looked and saw Fred.
"I don't want to go there." I said.
Fred sat next to me.
"It's for your best interest." He said quietly.
"No it's not. It's your way of getting me out the way! Your no better than mum. None of you are!" I said loudly and got up ripping my IV out my hand.
"Alex we don't want to do this but it's for your own good." Eric said as he joined Fred on the bed.
I looked and saw Jack.
"Please say you don't agree with them." I said with tears in my eyes.
"Too a degree I do." He said quietly.
"Get out." I said quietly.
"Lex don't do this." Eric said.
"Get the fuck out! All of you get out of this fucking room!" I shouted.
They all left.
"I have to keep an eye on him." The doctor said.
"For fuck sake I'm not going to fucking top myself!" I said loudly and sarcastically.
"I have to stay." He said.
I got hold of someone's bag and threw it hard at the doctor.
"Leave me the fuck alone!" I screamed and sat on the floor and pulled at my hair.
"Everyone leave. I have this under control." Jack said calmly.
"He's a risk to himself and you." The doctor said.
"He's not a animal. He will listen to me." Jack said.
"Just leave them. If anyone can talk sense into Alex it'll be Jack." Fred said.
I guessed they all left as I felt someone sit next to me.

"I don't want to go." I sniffed.
"You have too." He said quietly.
"I want to be at home with you. I don't want to be there. I want to go home." I said and tears started to fall.
Jack pulled me to his side.
"It's just until you get better. I promise." He said and kissed the side of his head.
"I wont ever get to see you. What if you find someone better than me? Someone who is less fucked up and doesn't have to be on suicide watch." I said but it came out in a blubbering mess.
"You will because I will come and see you every day. I'll never find anyone better than you." He said.
I sniffed loudly.
"You need your IV put back in." He said quietly.
I looked at my hand with was bleeding still.
"I'm fine." I whispered.
"Please. For me." He said.
I looked at him for the first time since he sat on the floor with me.
I moved and sat on his lap and hugged him which he returned.
"Don't leave me." I whispered and messed with his hair at the back of his head.
"Wouldn't dream of it." He said quietly and kissed my shoulder and held me tighter.

I had my hand seen too and the IV put back in.
They also gave me some sort of sedative to calm me down since I was getting myself into a right state that no one could calm me down.
Me and Jack was lead on my bed facing each other.
"I love you." I whispered.
"I love you too." He said quietly and kissed the end of my nose.
I smiled and cuddled into his chest.
"I'm tired." I mumbled into his chest.
"Go to sleep then." He said.
"I want to talk to you though." I yawned.
"Don't fight the sedative. If you want to Sleep then do. I'll still be here when you wake up." He said quietly.
"Why did they have to drug me?" I muttered slowly falling asleep.
"Because their assholes." Jack chuckled.
I hummed in agreement and was out like a light.

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