Many Of Horror

Jacks POV

Everyone was home part from Alex's mum so we was all in the sitting watching a film when the front door opened and shut.
"Boys?" His mum said.
"In here." Freddie said and their mum walked in.
"How is everyone?" She asked and took her coat off.
"Good." We all said.
She looked at Alex and saw the bandages on his arms since he was just wearing his pajamas bottoms.
"Alex what happened?" She asked but he ignored her.
"Alex don't ignore me." She said but he carried on ignoring her.
"Fred do you know what he's done?" She asked.
"How am I meant to know?" He asked back not taking his eyes off the TV.
"Eric?" She asked.
"Don't have a fucking clue since I've been in hospital for the last 2 months." He said.
"Jack?" She asked me.
"I'm not saying, maybe you and Alex should talk about it." I said.
Alex looked at me.
"You'll have to talk to her at some point." He said quietly in my ear.
Alex sighed but just went back to watching TV.

We was all sat round the table having tea.
It was really awkward since everyone was silence and normally everyone was talking about something, whether it was about me and Alex's sex life for some reason or some bird someone has fucked but tonight it was slience.
Well it was until Alex spoke.
"So the hospital called today." He said.
I gave him a warning look but he ignored it like normal.
"Who was it for?" Freddie asked.
"It was for mum, saying that some results have come in." He said and looked at her.
She was looked down.
"Results for what?" Eric asked and looked at their mum.
"It's nothing." She said quietly.
"But surely we need to know, after all we haven't fucking seen you for nearly 2 weeks. You could off been fucking dead mum!" Fred said.
"So I need your permission to go out and enjoy myself now?" She snapped.
"We just want to know." Eric said.
"Fine one to fucking talk Eric and its the same for you Alex. Going off and doing some sort of fucking drugs and fucking cutting yourself. Surely its not me you have to bloody worry about!" She said.
"We do fucking worry about you! Because if you fucking go we have fucking no one! Is that what you want? You want your kids to grow up not having their fucking parents around!? Because that's what we're making sure off. So don't throw this in mine or Alex's faces because of what we have done." Eric said loudly.
I've never seen Eric lose his temper but I'm sensing that all three of them are going to be losing their cool.
Which wasn't going to be good.

"Oh boo hoo, couldn't give a shit anyway." She said.
I looked at Alex and he looked hurt by wjhat she said, in fact all three of them did.
Alex got up.
"Alex where you going?" I asked.
He went to the knife draw.
"Alex don't you dare!" Eric said.
He didnt listen and took the banage of his arms.
"Couldnt give a shit? So you wouldnt care if i cut myself in front of you!" He said and pressed the knife against his arm.
"I wouldnt care." She spat.
"Alex dont listen to her, I would care." I said.
He didn't listen to me and pressed the knife against his arm and dragged it across his arm.
He's never cut himself in front of us he always went of and did it or he would do it in the shower or something.
He threw the knife on the floor and looked at his mum hard.
"You never gave a shit did you?" He asked quietly and walked over to her.
His arm was bleeding badly but he took no notice of it.
I guessing he's using it to prove a point.

"Maybe if I rubbed this in your face you'll wake the fuck up." He growled.
"You wouldn't dare!" She challenged.
He raised his arm and pretty smeared his blood all over her.
I made me feel sick.
Eric and Freddie looked shocked at what he had just done.
"You filthy little bastard!" She shouted.
"Why am I filthy? Because I was raped? Because I self harm? because I'm gay? I know that's the main reasons. I've heard you and Peter talk about me like I'm shit on your shoe. Now you shit on my shoe." He growled and spat in her face and walked off.
I heard him walk upstairs.
"Your fucking sick mum, your worse than Peter." Eric said.
"No I'm not." She snapped and wiped her face with something.
"You are." Dressed growled.
She glared at us.
"What's wrong with you?" Eric asked.
"That's for me to know!" She snapped.
"Really? Because when you drop down dead that's when we find out what's wrong with you. We're your sons, we should know what is wrong with you." Freddie said.
"Get the fuck out of my sight." She shouted.
We all got up and walked upstairs and checked on Alex.

He was sat in his room playing his guitar.
He normally did this to try and stop himself from hurting himself.
"Hey." I said quietly and sat next to him.
"Hey." He sniffed.
"We'll leave you two alone." Freddie said and shut Alex's door.
"Can I just kill myself?" He said quietly.
I pulled him close me.
"Don't say that." I whispered and kissed the top of his head.
"I feel so suicidal, I don't know how to get rid of it. Playing my guitar doesn't work, writing lyrics doesn't work." He sobbed.
I looked at his arm and it was still bleeding.
"Come with me." I said and got up and helped Alex up.
I took him to the bathroom and Alex sat on the side and I went over to the bath and began to run it.
I went back over to him and started to clean his cut.
"I hate her." He said quietly.
"I would say don't say that but I'm not going to because you have every right to feel like this." I said.
"We have to look after each other now." He said quietly.
"And we will." I said and went to check the bath and turned it off and put some cold water in.
I went back over to him and helped him get undressed and helped him in the bath.
I sat on the edge of the bath too keep an eye on him.

"Why aren't you getting in?" He asked and looked at me.
"Because I have to look after you and that's what I'm going to do." I said.
He smiled a little.
"Do you think I over reacted?" He asked quietly.
"Personally I don't think you did, but some people might think you did." I said.
"But it was fun though. Probably going to get something wrong with my arm, but it was fun." He said.
I shook my head and smiled as this was Alex all over.
"How about when you get out we go to bed and watch a film." I said.
"I'd like that." He said quietly.

Not long after he got out the bath and we was walking to his room when his mum walked up the stairs.
"Alex can I talk to you?" She asked.
"Get fucked." He snarled and walked into his room.
"Jack, can you talk to him for me?" She asked.
"No, the way you acted you desvere what your getting because you have brought this on yourself because all three of them were willing to be there for you but you just threw that back into their faces. So don't come to me when they're not talking to you." I said and walked into Alex's room and shut the door.
"Fucking bitch." He said and climbed into bed in his pants.
I did the same and pulled the covers over us and went onto Netflix and looked at what films we could watch.
Alex cuddled into my side.
"Put Toy Story on." He said and I did that.
Alex started to trace his fingers over my chest.
"You feeling any better?" I asked quietly.
"A little." He mumbled.
"You falling asleep?" I whispered and Alex nodded.
"Go to sleep then." I said quietly and kissed the top of his head and watched Toy Story until I fell asleep.

Notes

Don't know what to make of this ...