Many Of Horror

Jacks POV

I haven't seen Alex for a few days, Eric and Freddie have been in school but they looked like they was just done with everything.
I didn't manage to get things sorted with Rian but Zack came over every so often too see if I was okay.

I was walking to lesson when someone grabbed my arm.
"Get the fuck off me!" I snapped and spun round and went to punch them but they caught hold of my hand before I could punch them.
"Easy, I'm not going to hurt you." Eric said.
"Sorry." I said and looked down.
"When you coming round and seeing Alex?" He asked.
"I dunno, I have stuff going on and stuff in this shithole isn't good either." I said.
"Come round soon. We need someone too help to get him out of bed." He said.
I looked at him.
"What do you mean by that?" I asked.
"Look, stuff at home isn't rosey right now and Alex isn't coping with what is happening and he hasn't moved from his bed since you've been round." He said.
"I'll go round this afternoon I don't like lessons so I'll spend the afternoon with him for you." I said.
"You can stay round if you want." He said.
"I cant do that not with eveything which is happening to you right now." I said.
"We dont mind, Alex is proably going to open his mouth to you anyway." He said.
"But i would be invading your privacy." I said.
"Stop making excuses. Me and Fred would like one night in our bed." He said getting annoyed.
"So im just another baby sitter for you." I said.
"No, your meant to be Alexs friend. Friends are meant to be there for each other. That's what I thought friends where anyway, guess over here the meaning is different." He said and walked off.

"I am his friend." I said after him.
He stopped and turned round aand walked over too me.
He looked pissed off as well.
"If you was his friend you would be there for him! You would off come round too see how he was. For all you know he could be dead." He whispered shouted at me.
I looked down.
"Don't fucking look down. Not when I'm talking too you." He growled.
I looked at him.
"He thinks you hate him. He thinks you want fuck all too do with him." He said.
"I don't hate him." I said.
"But Alex doesn't think like the rest off us. He always thinks about the negative and hardly ever the positive." Eric said.
I didn't say anything.
"I'm going to make sure you don't hurt him like that bastard did, like how everyone back in England treated him. Hes a good lad with problems who dont need people dropping in and out off his life. Using him when they want to use him." He said.
"I dont want too hurt him, i have a life, ive got family who i woukd like too see. I'm not going to treat him like them posh fucks over there did. I know he's good I want people too see that he's good and that he's not all bad. I don't use people. I've been used too many times and I don't want to do that too anyone else." I said.
"See I know your lying straight away about seeing family." He said quietly.
How the fuck does he know?
"How?" I asked.
"Just do. But its safe with me don't worry." He said and walked off and this time I let him.
I watched him as he walked off.
I noticed he had Freddie's bag and not his.
I shook my head and decided to go and see Alex.

I got too the front door and knocked and waited.
Freddie answered the door.
"What you doing here?" He growled.
"Too see Alex, since I had a nice chat with Eric I don't need one from you." I said.
He moved out the way and walked in.
The house felt dead compared to when I was last here.
Some of the photos was off the side as well .
I looked at Freddie.
"You looked bushed, go and get some sleep." I said.
He smiled a little.
"Some how me and Alex have swapped. He can sleep and I can't." He said.
"You don't have to worry anymore, I'll keep an eye on him while you sleep. You can't run on no sleep." I said.
"And yet Alex can, I don't understand how he does it." He said.
"Neither can I." I said.
He smiled.
"Go too bed, I'm just going to make Alex a tea and take him something to eat." I said.
"You defently know a way to his heart." He chuckled.
I smiled made his tea and went up to Alex's room.

"Hey." I said and walked into his room.
"Go away." He said quietly.
"But I've brought you tea." I said and sat on the bed.
He rolled over and looked at me.
"But it took you 3 days too come and see me." He said quietly.
"I'm sorry, I thought you guys want some space. Eric said things aren't rosey here at the moment." I said.
Alex sat up and looked down and messed with his fingers.
"Dad walked out on us after we found out he had an affair while I was on my death bed." He said quietly.
I moved and sat next to him and handed him his tea.
"Is that how you got the cuts on your knuckles?" I asked and ran my finger along his knuckles.
He nodded.
He sipped his tea and smiled.
"Your getting better." He said quietly.
"That's good then." I said.
Alex moved and rested his head on my shoulder and moved his legs so they was resting against mine.
"The way to my heart is a good cuppa." He said quietly.
I smiled and traced my finger over his scars.
"I'm proud of you for not hurting yourself." I said quietly.
"Can't be bothered to do nothing, just want to sleep all the time." He said.
I just put my arm round him and pulled him too my side.

Alex was messing around with my hands when Eric popped his head round the door.
Alex didn't notice him but I did.
He smiled and I smiled back.
"Want something too eat?" I asked.
"No." He said quietly and put my hand down.
"When was the last time you eaten anything?" I asked.
"I dunno." He said.
"Up, you getting out of this bed and your going to come downstairs and you'll have your meds and have something too eat." I said and sat up.
Alex grumbled and moved away and looked at me.
'Do I have too?" He asked.
"Yes now up." I said and got off the bed and stood in front off him.
"No mum I don't want too." He said and flipped back onto the bed.
I stood over his legs and grabbed hold of his arms and pulled him up so he was sat up.
I moved and pulled him hard so he would stand but he crashed into my chest.
"Ow." We both muttered.
Alex looked at me and smiled.
"Let's get you something too eat." I said and walked off and Alex followed close behind.

We went downstairs to the kitchen and Freddie and Eric was there.
"Hey look who got the hermit out of his room." Eric said.
"Don't be mean. At least he managed to get him out his room which we didn't manage to do." Freddie said and slapped Eric round the back of the bed.
Alex chuckled behind me.
"Your lucky your my brother otherwise you'll be dead." Eric said.
"Yeah but you love me really." Freddie said and walked over too him and put his arms around his shoulders.
"True. I love you both." He said and looked at Alex.
Alex smiled and walked over too Freddie and Eric.
Freddie and moved and Eric got up and pulled Alex into a hug.
Alex put his head in Eric chest.
Eric said something and Alex nodded and pulled back and sat on the table.

I made Alex a sandwich and went over and sat next to him.
"Here, have this." I said quietly.
He shook his head.
"Am I going to have too feed you this?" I asked.
He looked down.
I picked a bit of sandwich up and took it to his mouth.
He looked at me.
"Your not starving yourself to death. Not on my watch anyway." I said.
He took the sandwich from my hand with his mouth and slowly ate it.
I smiled.
"And take these." I said and opened my hand where his meds where.
He pushed my hand away and looked away.
"I don't want them." He said quietly.
"Why not?" I asked and put another bit of sandwich in his mouth.
"I'm not meant to take them when I'm like this, it sends me more on a downward spiral as they are to help me calm down and all that." He said and looked at me.
"Okay, what about your sleep meds?" I asked.
"Don't need them, I'm sleeping perfectly fine without them." He said and I put another bit of sandwich in his mouth.
"If you wake me up at 2 in the morning we will be having words." I said.
He smiled.
"You want anymore?" I asked and Alex shook his head.
I smiled and put the plate in the sink.
I held my hand out.
"It's late, I'm tired and so must you. Bed?" I asked.
Alex took my hand and nodded and he got down off the table.
He walked in front of me and didn't let go of my hand and he took me upstairs.

He took his t-shirt and trousers off and pulled a pair of pajamas bottoms on.
I watched him as he did that and I felt completely different around him than what I did round anyone else.
He turned round and brought a pair of pajama bottoms over.
"I'm guessing these would be more comfy to sleep in than in jeans." He said.
"Thanks." I smiled and got them off him and pulled my top off.
I could feel Alex watching.
I took my jeans off and put the bottoms on and turned round and saw Alex with a small smirk on his face.
"Like what you see?" I asked.
Alex walked over to me and wrapped his arms round my waist.
"I might do." He said quietly and looked at my lips he bit his gently.
I lent down and kissed his softly which he returned.
I pulled back and looked at him.
He looked me in the eye.
He reached up and kissed me a little harder than what I did.
I felt his hand moved round my hips.
I smiled.
"I'm tired but I'm enjoying this." He said quietly and looked down my chest.
"Well go to bed and enjoy it in there." I said.
He smiled and got hold of my hand and took me into his bed and led down and I led behind him.
He rolled over and face me.
"But now I can't see you." He yawned.
"You'll see me when you wake up." I said quietly.
"But i want too see you now." He said trying nto fight the sleep off but it wasn't working and he fell asleep.
"You'll just have too wait." I said quietly and kissed the top of his head and got comfy and fell asleep.
Alex moved more into my chest and sighed and was out like a light.

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