I Did it For You.(JALEX BARAKARTH FAN FICTION)

I sat in my hospital room. I couldn't help but feel
alone. What would I do without him? Does he hate me? Why hasn't he seen me yet? Why am I so stupid!? Did I scare him off?
I sighed heavyily, and a tear slid down my face. I've never been so confused before.
I needed Jack here with me. I needed somebody other then my own thoguht questioning me about how much I've screwed up.
Just when I was about to give up, and think he was never coming, he crashed through the door, running in and embracing me in his arms.
A relieved sigh left my lips, as Jack's skin came in contact with mine.


"I'm so sorry it took me so long Lex. The stupid doctors wouldn't let me in until today. Lexy oh my god. I'm so scared for you."
Jack was slightly crying. "Do you realize what you did? Alex, you tried to kill yourself! Alex please tell me it wasn't an attempt to kill yourself..." He puled back and held
me at arms length, looking in my eyes. "Please..." His voice was so fragile, and breaking. The one word he muttered sent me over the edge, and I dove into his chest
crying. "Jack, no I didn't mean to, I'm so sorry! You mean so much to me! I wouldn't leave you like Tom did to me...I couldn't do that to you..." My voice broke
and by the end of the sentence, I was full on sobbing.
Jack pushed me away carefully, and grabbed my arms, looking at them, and lightly tracing over the stitched up wounds. "Then..." He was quiet. His voice turned dim.
"Why? Why do this to yourself with no intent of dying? Alex why would you hurt yourself like this?"
Jack kept staring at my cuts, and it made me uncomfortable. "I-i"
"You know they are sending you to rehab right?"


At that moment, my world stopped. My heart paused, my eyes glued to Jack's face, which hung low. I couldn't breath.
The next thing I new I was blacked out, and waking up with the doctors face in mine instead of Jacks.
"Mr. Gaskarth, you had a panic attack. You'll be alright. But, we have re planned your transfer to the rehabilitation center back a few days. We need to keep an eye
on you."
He walked out, and all I could do was stare at the ceiling. I tried to count all the black dots in one tile to pass the time.
I got to 703 when my mom walked in, crying. But no sign of Jack.
I sighed heavily, and tuned away from her. She was sending me off to a place I had never been before. Making me stay at a place where I couldn't even shave my face.
I understand she was doing the logical thing, but I was still mad. So mad that if I let one word leave my mouth, I feel like I would blow up.
"Alex baby, Jack ran off." I didn't want to hear it. I scared him off.
I fucked up my chances with someone perfect. "Alex, they don't know where he went. The police are coming in to talk to you about the last time you two talked.
Please, just answer honestly. I know you've been through a lot, but baby you gotta bare with us on this one. Jack's mom is taking this hard...."
I didn't move. Didn't nod. I barely breathed until I heard the door click, signaling she was gone.
Jack has ran off. My vision was getting blurry, and my head was spinning. I scared him off. I scared the sweetest guy I know off. I shouldn't have done it.



A sob escaped my lips as the door opened again and two overly huge police officers came in, armed with a notepad and pen.
"Mr. Gaskarth. I hope your day is doing well."
I stared at the, not saying anything. "We have a few questions. When was the last time you talked to Mr. Barakat?" My lip quivered, and a tear fell down my face. "Yesterday.'
They nodded and wrote it down. "Around what time?" The biggest one asked. " I don't know." My voice was low and filled with regret.
"I-i really don't know."
"That's okay kid. Did he say anything about leaving?" The two officers looked at me intently.
I thought back. Nothing came to mind. "N-no. He didn't. He just asked me...Why I did it."
The officers eyes gestured to my arm, then quickly wet to stare into mine. "Yes..Well. Thanks. We will leave you to your recovery."
The door closing was the most torturing sound I've heard. It was the conformation that, yes, Jack did leave me here alone. And it gave my mind silence,
it's favorite place to think. "J-Jack.." I whispered, hopelessly. Why? Why would he leave me here like this? How could he? He's just like the rest.
Everyone was leaving me, left and right. I had no one. Th realization hit me so hard. I didn't even cry, I was so shocked at my stupidity.
Without Jack, I'm alone.

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