I have been dating for almost three weeks, and honestly, it has been the best three weeks of my life. Well, maybe not of my life, but the best three weeks of all the time I have been in this hell hole. He has treated me to more presents from the gift shops and pizzas from the pizza place across the street more times than I count on all four of my limbs. He is also super touchy feely which I kinda don’t and do mind. I have always hated people hovering all over me, so I guess I don’t like it a bit because I’m not used to it. Maybe I’ll get over it over time -- I don’t know. He just loves to cuddle and kiss me every minute of the day. Hayley has told us to get a room on a dozen occasions because Jack loves to make out every chance he gets.

I was now walking toward Mr. Way’s office for one of many more appointments to go until I am released from the hospital. Nurse Tay was at my side, tapping on her thighs to a song’s beat that she must had been playing in her head. I was quiet this morning which was odd. I am usual having conversations out the ass with Nurse Tay before I head to Mr. Way’s office or wherever she’s taking me, but this morning, I was quiet. I wasn’t feeling good, and with everything that was going on in my head at once, I couldn’t really put the finger on exactly one thing that was triggering my silence. Soon, Nurse Tay caught on to my lack of communication, and she perked my attention with, “Alex? You okay, bud?” I looked over at her with droopy eyes.

“Yeah, I’m alright, I guess.” I replied in monotone.

“I guess? Yeah, that is a red flag for you’re not feeling okay. Talk to me, Alex. You can tell me what’s going on -- I’m a good listener.” I looked down at my toes, a frown forming on my face. I rummaged through my filing cabinet full of sorrow thoughts, and after a careful search, I finally could pinpoint what my true problem was.

“I miss them, Nurse Tay.”

“Them?” Nurse Tay questioned, “Who’s ‘them’?”

“My parents. I haven’t gotten to see them -- physically before my own eyes -- for over a month. I really want to see them, Nurse Tay. I want them to meet my friends, especially Jack. But, I guess with me out of the picture for a while, I guess they get to go out and do things they always wanted to do.” Nurse Tay and I entered the elevator that would take up to Mr. Way’s office’s floor, and when the doors shut, Nurse Tay proceeded to respond.

“Alex, that is far from the truth as to why they haven’t visited. You’ve told us this place is far from home, so that’s probably why they haven’t been able to visit. Don’t get down about it, sweetie-pie. They’ll come down here to see you very soon, and when they do, it’ll be a very special occasion; I guarantee it.” I felt Nurse Tay press her fingers to my chin and lift my face so my eyes connected with her’s. “Buddy, smile. I love seeing you smile, and I love it because you don’t do it often.” Her words were surprisingly enough to make me smile. I gave her a small grin, and my changed expression had her smile right along with me but wider. “There it is!” she cheered.

“You’re a dork, Nurse Tay.” I commented with a giggle.

“That makes us the perfect pair, then, doesn’t it?”

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Mr. Way’s appointment was a waste of my time. The only thing we did was have Mr. Way sniffling and coughing up a storm since he had a cold, and I kept having to give him tissues at my tissue pack I carry around. We didn’t talk about much of anything, so I wasn’t able to get those feelings of loneliness out of my system. I still missed my parents, and I still craved for them to be here with me and meet my boyfriend.

When I exited Mr. Way’s office, Nurse Tay wasn’t there to escort me back to my room, so I just started off on my own. I was about to reach the staircase when I heard a voice screaming at me. I was startled, and I turned around as quickly as I could. It was Rian and Hayley, and they were running as fast as they could towards me. They had an expression of worry on their faces; uh oh. When they reached, Hayley immediately began babbling out words. “Alex, i-i-t’s Jack!” she sputtered out. Rian nodded at each of her strangled vowels. “He is throwing up blood, a-and he’s really fucking sick! Zack is down there with him now, but we need you down there!” Her words were enough to make my whole body go into panic mode. I nodded, and the three of us ran towards Jack’s room.

We arrived in Jack’s room in minutes, and when we arrived, two doctors and a nurse were surrounding Jack. I pushed through Hayley, Rian, and Zack and got in between the empty space the nurse and doctor’s left at the foot of Jack’s bed. The sight of Jack was sickening; he had blood all over his shirt from his bloody vomit, and the doctor’s had an oxygen mask over his nose because he most likely couldn’t breathe from the blood. Jack was covered with sweat, and his eyes were drooping. Jack noticed I was there, and he waved at my weakly. His wave caught the attention of one doctor who looked at me. “Who are you, son?” the doctor asked.

“I’m Alex; Jack’s --” I stopped myself. I didn’t know if I could say boyfriend to them because I had no clue if romantic relationships were even allowed between patients. So, I settled with something more appropriate. “ -- bestfriend. We’re all his friends, actually.” The doctor looked at all us, sighing.

“Lemme see all of you in the hallway. Janet,” The doctor turned his attention to the nurse that was working on Jack’s oxygen mask, “keep his breathing levels stable until we get back.” The doctor guided all of us out into the hallway. We all stood in a semi-circle, awaiting for any news that the doctor could provide us. “Kids, your friend, Jack, is going to be taken into the ICU. We believe his lungs are beginning to fill with fluid, hence why he was throwing up blood. We will be taking him into the OR, and once he is done, we will be taking him into the ICU.” As the doctor spoke, Hayley signed out for Rian what he was saying. Zack and I, on the other hand, looked at each other with pained eyes.

“Is… is he going to be okay?” Zack asked in a whimper. The doctor cupped his hands together; that never means anything good.

“We’re honestly unsure. He might be, he might not. We’re uncertain. What we are certain of that this is obviously has something to do with his illness, and we will dig deeper into that as we go into the OR, take some scan, etc. For now, we will just have to wait it out.”

“Wait it out? How long with that take?” Zack continued to question.

“Again, uncertain.”

“What the fuck do you know?!” I shouted unexpectedly. Hayley and Zack looked at me with widened eyes, and the doctor sighed. I guess he was used to people shouting at him when he didn’t have certain eyes. “You are a fucking doctor! You need to know what is going on with your goddamn patients!” I continued. Hayley pulled me back, whispering,

“Dude, chill!” into my ear. I took a breath in and exhaled.

“I need to return to the room. We need to take him to the OR.” We all followed the doctor into the room where he set up his bed to where it could roll down the hall. As they took him out of the room, I stopped them.

“Wait!” I called. “Can I, um, talk to Jack before you take him?” The doctor gave me a short nod, and he and the nurses moved aside. Hayley, Zack, and Rian entered Jack’s now empty room to give me some sense of privacy. I knelt down to be inches away from Jack’s face. “Hey, you. What’s going on?” Jack looked at me with his bloodshot eyes, grinning slightly. He shakily removed his oxygen mask to be able to speak to me briefly.

“Just my body doing what it pleases. It’ll be okay, Lex. I’ll have a nurse get you when I’m out of surgery.” Jack stated in a scratchy voice; it resembled sand paper. I rubbed his cheek softly.

“Don’t give up on me, okay?” I whispered, a tear dripping down my cheek. I didn’t want to cry; Jack needed me to be strong at a time like this, not weak. Jack put his cold hand against my cheek, caressing it.

“I will push through it, Alex. I have been for four years; this cancer won’t stop me now.” Without any warning, Jack pressed a sweet kiss on my lips. Although it made me nervous that the personnel were witnessing us use PDA, I still kissed back as sweetly as he did. I pulled away, and Jack wiped my tears with his trembling thumb. Before he was pulled away, Jack pulled something out of his pocket; it was my band. “Here, Lex. T-Take this back..” I took it from his hands and held it close to my heart. I mouthed a ‘Thank you’, and before I could do anymore, Jack was pushed off to the OR. I let my head drop, and I began to wheeze and sob hysterically. I was scared -- petrified even. What if I lost Jack? What if he never came out of that operating room? I wouldn’t be able to handle losing him; I practically lose my sanity and self confidence. I couldn’t lose the person who made this stay bearable.

Notes

hey guys. i thank you guys so much for sticking with me through my short hiatus. i am back for a bit, and although i am still not feeling too hot, i will update as much as i can.

i am planning a new solo story that might be horror, and it might be based off another show/movie. i'm thinking American Horror Story.

i might also do one where straight and homosexual are switched in society's views: homosexual is the norm while straight isn't??? i've seen a video made on that topic, so that may be my first taylex story?? don't know.

anyway, enjoy this update, cuties.

and as always, here's a jack gif :)



xoxo krys