We don't belong here

Alex's POV

Can't believe that I punched Jack not once but twice.
He was fast asleep on my bed softly snoring and mumbling as well.
I smiled.
He said that he wasn't scared of me, he should be.
Everyone is scared of me, even I'm scared of myself.

I couldn't sleep so I just watched Jack sleep.
Since it was only me and Jack on the ward the nurses where a little bit more relaxed about everything which included checks.
I was thinking about doing something but Jack sat bolt up right and looked around the place.
"Need to get out of here." He muttered and got off the bed and walked out the room.
"Jack what are you doing out of bed?" A nurse asked.
"I need to get out of here." He said quietly and headed towards the exit.
The doors where locked and bolted.
No one could get in or out.
I've tried to escape but there was no way out.
"Jack go back to bed." The nurse said.
"No, he's gonna get me. I have to get out of here." He shouted and started and shake the door.
I walked towards the door and stood in the corridor and watched him.
"Who's going to get you?" The nurse asked.
"He knows, he knows." Jack said and moved from the door and started to kick it hard. He soon gave up with that and ran too the common room.
I turned and walked to the common room while the nurse went and got the other nurses to help her.

I went over to Jack.
"Who's going to get you Jack?" I asked quietly.
Jack was stood by the window looking outside.
"He's by the tree." He said quietly and I looked out the window and couldn't see anyone.
"There's no one there Jack." I whispered and looked at him.
"Yeah there is! Why won't anyone believe me!" He shouted.
He walked off and I looked out the window.
I couldn't see anyone I looked over to Jack.
He was aruging with the nurses.
I went over and grabbed his hand and took him to our room and sat him in our room on my bed.

He was crying a little so I sat next to him and pulled him to my side and just hugged him like he has done to me when I'm like this.
The nurses came in.
"I have this." I said and looked at them.
"We can't leave you with him, not when he's like this, it could trigger you and it wouldn't be fair on you or him." She said.
I shook my head and I refused to go.
"Alex come on don't be difficult now." She said.
Something just clicked and I changed into one of my other personalities. "Get out." I growled.
I felt Jack tense next to me.
Ugh I hate it when my personality changes like this.
"Alex.." She said warily.
"GET OUT!" I screamed at her and stood up and towered over her.
She flinched and walked back out to the corridor.
I walked to the door and slammed it shut and moved Jacks bed over to the door to make sure they can't get in.

I turned round and saw Jack sat in the corner, fear radiating off him and he was crying harder now.
I went over to him and kneeled in front off him.
He moved away from me.
That hurt for some reason and that made me angry.
I got up and went over to my side of the room.
I screamed loudly and punched the wall really hard and punched it over and over again until it was out my system.
But it wasn't enough.
I moved and looked under the bed.
I found my box and got it out and looked inside it.
I couldn't find what I wasn't looking for which made me more angry.
"Why can't you leave my fucking stuff alone!" I shouted at no one but I was looking at Jack.
He moved further into the corner.
I groaned in frustration and pulled my hair really hard that it made my cry and little.

I felt a pair of hands on my wrists and I looked up and saw Jack.
"Let go of your hair." He sniffed.
I did and Jack brought my hands down to my slides.
He picked the hand which I punched the wall with and looked at it.
He touched it gently.
"Get the fuck off me!" I growled.
Jack nodded and put my hand down gently and moved away from me and sat on his bed, which was still by the door.
I didn't want him to move away from me I want him to be near me.
I just sat here and wrapped my arms round my legs and rested my head on my knees and started to cry quietly.
I could hear Jack cry as well which made me cry harder.

Notes

Oh dear