A Love Like War
Don't speak to me.
Jack
It’s been a whole week since I stormed out of the hospital. Alex hasn’t made any tries to talk to me, which tells me he understands that I called things off that day. I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss him like crazy. I saw him having a hard time at practice today, and I wanted to just run up to him and hold him and my child. Oh wait, he most likely already got rid of my child, my bad.
But then again, with the trouble he was having running, told me that he still had not got the abortion yet. My whole being wants him not to do it. I want to be a Father. I don’t care if I’m still in highschool, I don’t care if I am only seventeen years old. I’ll love it no less if I was older.
It was the next day at school, and it is starting off the same as any other day the past week. Normally, I would have dragged Alex into the janitor's closet by now and would be making out with him. I couldn’t seem to get him off my mind. Hell, I can hear his voice calling my right now in my mind. Wait, that’s not in my mind. I turned around and saw Alex running down the hall shouting my name. I rolled my eyes and turned around, putting my headphones in and ignoring him. He ended up catching up to me pretty quickly, which I, again, rolled my eyes as he stood in front of me and looked out of breath. I crossed my arms over my chest and turned my head to look away from him. He took this moment to pull my headphones out of my ears, everyone knows not to fuck with my music.
“Alexander William Gaskarth. You fucking know better than to touch my fucking headphones.” I growled at him. Now it was his time to roll his eyes.
“Yeah, whatever. Shut up. I need to talk to you.” He rushed out. Oh, so telling me to shut up is going to make me want to stay around you any longer?
“Fuck off Alex. I don’t want to hear what you have to say.” I said as I put my headphones back in my ears and went to turn up my music and walk away. Before I could, he grabbed my headphones again and yanked them out. “Fucking quit it!”
“Fucking listen to me!” He said, raising his voice. I hate when people raise their voice to me. It basically lights something up in me and makes me blow up.
“First off, don’t raise your fucking voice to me Gaskarth! Secondly, when I say fuck away from me! Fucking do it! I want nothing to do with you! Leave me the fuck alone!” I shouted, getting basically everyone in the hallway to stop and stare at us.
“Just-” I cut him off.
“Shut the fuck up! I don’t care what you have to say! Good fucking bye!” I shouted again, this time pushing passed him and storming down the hall as I jammed my headphones back into my ears, flipping thru my playlist till I got to Killpop by Slipknot. Instead of going to class, I went to the parking lot and sat on the hood of my car, reaching into my leather jacket, and grabbing my pack of cigarettes out from the pocket in it. I don’t normally smoke, only when I’m really stressed out, and boy was I stressed out.
It’s been a whole week since I stormed out of the hospital. Alex hasn’t made any tries to talk to me, which tells me he understands that I called things off that day. I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss him like crazy. I saw him having a hard time at practice today, and I wanted to just run up to him and hold him and my child. Oh wait, he most likely already got rid of my child, my bad.
But then again, with the trouble he was having running, told me that he still had not got the abortion yet. My whole being wants him not to do it. I want to be a Father. I don’t care if I’m still in highschool, I don’t care if I am only seventeen years old. I’ll love it no less if I was older.
It was the next day at school, and it is starting off the same as any other day the past week. Normally, I would have dragged Alex into the janitor's closet by now and would be making out with him. I couldn’t seem to get him off my mind. Hell, I can hear his voice calling my right now in my mind. Wait, that’s not in my mind. I turned around and saw Alex running down the hall shouting my name. I rolled my eyes and turned around, putting my headphones in and ignoring him. He ended up catching up to me pretty quickly, which I, again, rolled my eyes as he stood in front of me and looked out of breath. I crossed my arms over my chest and turned my head to look away from him. He took this moment to pull my headphones out of my ears, everyone knows not to fuck with my music.
“Alexander William Gaskarth. You fucking know better than to touch my fucking headphones.” I growled at him. Now it was his time to roll his eyes.
“Yeah, whatever. Shut up. I need to talk to you.” He rushed out. Oh, so telling me to shut up is going to make me want to stay around you any longer?
“Fuck off Alex. I don’t want to hear what you have to say.” I said as I put my headphones back in my ears and went to turn up my music and walk away. Before I could, he grabbed my headphones again and yanked them out. “Fucking quit it!”
“Fucking listen to me!” He said, raising his voice. I hate when people raise their voice to me. It basically lights something up in me and makes me blow up.
“First off, don’t raise your fucking voice to me Gaskarth! Secondly, when I say fuck away from me! Fucking do it! I want nothing to do with you! Leave me the fuck alone!” I shouted, getting basically everyone in the hallway to stop and stare at us.
“Just-” I cut him off.
“Shut the fuck up! I don’t care what you have to say! Good fucking bye!” I shouted again, this time pushing passed him and storming down the hall as I jammed my headphones back into my ears, flipping thru my playlist till I got to Killpop by Slipknot. Instead of going to class, I went to the parking lot and sat on the hood of my car, reaching into my leather jacket, and grabbing my pack of cigarettes out from the pocket in it. I don’t normally smoke, only when I’m really stressed out, and boy was I stressed out.
Notes
So, Jack wants nothing to do with Alex guys.
~Jagk.
Wow that story was amazing. It was so shocking.
5/19/16