A Love Like War
Sleep Like I'm Dead.
Jack
I slowly opened my eyes. But quickly shut them due to the bright light. I heard the sounds of beeping, where was I? I tried to move my arm, but I felt something that seemed like wires on it. I let out a soft groan and managed to open my eyes about half way. I was in a room filled with white walls.
“Jack?” I heard a voice say. I knew that voice. It was Zack. I blinked my eyes a few times and finally fully opened them. I sat up slowly, looking around confused. “Jack, you’re in a hospital.” Zack’s voice came again. I looked to the other side of me and saw he was standing right next to what I was sitting on, which now I’m going to guess was a hospital bed.
“How long was I asleep?” I asked. My voice croaky and ridged.
“You were out for four days.” He spoke softly. What? Four days? How was I asleep for four days? Why the hell was I even in a fucking hospital?! “By the look on your face. I can tell you are pretty damn confused right now. Jack, do you remember what happened?” I shook my head as I looked down at my lap. I saw my arms were covered in bandages, as well as my stomach was. “You tried to commit suicide. I found you, but you were already passed out when I did. I got there just in time. I texted Rian and Alex-” I cut him off.
“Why would you text Alex? He doesn’t care about me.”
“Yeah, I wish you were awake to tell me not to text him.” He sighed.
“How long ago did you text him.”
“On Friday, when I made it here to the hospital.
“And what’s today?”
“Tuesday.” It was my turn to sigh now.
I lost everything in the world. Hell, I’m so fucking useless I can’t even end my own damn life.
“You really scared my, Jack. I thought I was losing my best friend.” Zack spoke. “Please never do something like this again. It may seem like no one cares, but I care tell you right now that Rian and I do.”
“Where is Rian then?” I asked.
“Right here.” Another voice said as they walked into the room. I looked up and saw Rian walked in and had a cup of coffee with him, at least that’s normal. “Glad to see you up Jack-o.”
“Glad to see you still love your coffee.” I tried my best to give a light hearted chuckle.
“You have only been asleep for four days. You really think my love for it is going to change that fast?”
“Never know. Four days is a long time.” I sighed again. “How long have you guys been here?”
“I have been here since Friday. I haven’t left your side.” Zack said.
“I got her Saturday morning, Zack texted me what was going on in the middle of the night, I didn’t get it till I woke up. But as soon as I did, I rushed here as fast as I could.” Rian spoke before taking a sip of his coffee.
“Thanks guys. For looking out for me.” I gave them a small smile.
“No problem. Oh, the Doctor said, that the day you wake up, you can go home. But there is a catch to it.” Zack continued on. “You are to not be alone. Therefore, Rian and I will be staying at your house with you.”
“I’m cool with that. At least I don’t have to stay here much longer. I hate hospitals.”
“Well, the hospitals are not to fond of having you in them.” A woman with a white coat said as she entered the room and walked over to the other side of the bed I was currently sitting in. “Good to finally see your eyes open, Jack. How are you feeling?”
“Now that I think about it. I feel like shit. My body hurts.” I said.
“That is to be expected. We have bandages everywhere the cuts are. So, your arms, stomach, thighs, and your legs. You did a pretty bad job on yourself kid. While you are at home, you are to change the bandages every hour. These two lovely boys here said they will be there to help you out at home. I walked by the room and saw you were awake, so I went and got your release papers. I just need you to sign right here and you are okay to leave.”
She said as she handed me a clipboard and pointed to the line she wanted me to write on. I pressed softly on the paper with the pen and sighed my name. “Alright. Just go ahead and get dressed and off you can go. Oh, and like I said, the hospital doesn’t like having you in it, so try your best to stay out of it, Jack. Good luck, if you need anything, the boys have my number. Bye.” She walked out of the room and Zack handed me a bag. I looked at him confused.
“Clothes. Put them on.” He said. “And before you ask, no I didn’t bring you your normal tight as fuck skinny jeans. I brought you a sweater and some sweat pants. Now get dressed, we will be right outside the room.” Zack and Rian turned to walk out.
We just pulled into the driveway of my house, and my whole body was aching as I stepped out of the car. Rian helped me walk into the house, and he brought me into the living room and sat me on the couch.
“What about school?” I asked as they came in.
“You don’t have to go for the rest of the week.” Zack said. “Nor do we.”
“Yeah, I don’t plan on going back, ever.” I spoke.
“What do you mean?” Rian questioned me.
“I’m going to the school tomorrow with all my books and returning them. I’m done with it. I’m dropping out. I can’t be around so many people anymore.”
“You mean you can’t be around Alex anymore.” Zack stated.
“Or Brendon.” I said softly.
I slowly opened my eyes. But quickly shut them due to the bright light. I heard the sounds of beeping, where was I? I tried to move my arm, but I felt something that seemed like wires on it. I let out a soft groan and managed to open my eyes about half way. I was in a room filled with white walls.
“Jack?” I heard a voice say. I knew that voice. It was Zack. I blinked my eyes a few times and finally fully opened them. I sat up slowly, looking around confused. “Jack, you’re in a hospital.” Zack’s voice came again. I looked to the other side of me and saw he was standing right next to what I was sitting on, which now I’m going to guess was a hospital bed.
“How long was I asleep?” I asked. My voice croaky and ridged.
“You were out for four days.” He spoke softly. What? Four days? How was I asleep for four days? Why the hell was I even in a fucking hospital?! “By the look on your face. I can tell you are pretty damn confused right now. Jack, do you remember what happened?” I shook my head as I looked down at my lap. I saw my arms were covered in bandages, as well as my stomach was. “You tried to commit suicide. I found you, but you were already passed out when I did. I got there just in time. I texted Rian and Alex-” I cut him off.
“Why would you text Alex? He doesn’t care about me.”
“Yeah, I wish you were awake to tell me not to text him.” He sighed.
“How long ago did you text him.”
“On Friday, when I made it here to the hospital.
“And what’s today?”
“Tuesday.” It was my turn to sigh now.
I lost everything in the world. Hell, I’m so fucking useless I can’t even end my own damn life.
“You really scared my, Jack. I thought I was losing my best friend.” Zack spoke. “Please never do something like this again. It may seem like no one cares, but I care tell you right now that Rian and I do.”
“Where is Rian then?” I asked.
“Right here.” Another voice said as they walked into the room. I looked up and saw Rian walked in and had a cup of coffee with him, at least that’s normal. “Glad to see you up Jack-o.”
“Glad to see you still love your coffee.” I tried my best to give a light hearted chuckle.
“You have only been asleep for four days. You really think my love for it is going to change that fast?”
“Never know. Four days is a long time.” I sighed again. “How long have you guys been here?”
“I have been here since Friday. I haven’t left your side.” Zack said.
“I got her Saturday morning, Zack texted me what was going on in the middle of the night, I didn’t get it till I woke up. But as soon as I did, I rushed here as fast as I could.” Rian spoke before taking a sip of his coffee.
“Thanks guys. For looking out for me.” I gave them a small smile.
“No problem. Oh, the Doctor said, that the day you wake up, you can go home. But there is a catch to it.” Zack continued on. “You are to not be alone. Therefore, Rian and I will be staying at your house with you.”
“I’m cool with that. At least I don’t have to stay here much longer. I hate hospitals.”
“Well, the hospitals are not to fond of having you in them.” A woman with a white coat said as she entered the room and walked over to the other side of the bed I was currently sitting in. “Good to finally see your eyes open, Jack. How are you feeling?”
“Now that I think about it. I feel like shit. My body hurts.” I said.
“That is to be expected. We have bandages everywhere the cuts are. So, your arms, stomach, thighs, and your legs. You did a pretty bad job on yourself kid. While you are at home, you are to change the bandages every hour. These two lovely boys here said they will be there to help you out at home. I walked by the room and saw you were awake, so I went and got your release papers. I just need you to sign right here and you are okay to leave.”
She said as she handed me a clipboard and pointed to the line she wanted me to write on. I pressed softly on the paper with the pen and sighed my name. “Alright. Just go ahead and get dressed and off you can go. Oh, and like I said, the hospital doesn’t like having you in it, so try your best to stay out of it, Jack. Good luck, if you need anything, the boys have my number. Bye.” She walked out of the room and Zack handed me a bag. I looked at him confused.
“Clothes. Put them on.” He said. “And before you ask, no I didn’t bring you your normal tight as fuck skinny jeans. I brought you a sweater and some sweat pants. Now get dressed, we will be right outside the room.” Zack and Rian turned to walk out.
We just pulled into the driveway of my house, and my whole body was aching as I stepped out of the car. Rian helped me walk into the house, and he brought me into the living room and sat me on the couch.
“What about school?” I asked as they came in.
“You don’t have to go for the rest of the week.” Zack said. “Nor do we.”
“Yeah, I don’t plan on going back, ever.” I spoke.
“What do you mean?” Rian questioned me.
“I’m going to the school tomorrow with all my books and returning them. I’m done with it. I’m dropping out. I can’t be around so many people anymore.”
“You mean you can’t be around Alex anymore.” Zack stated.
“Or Brendon.” I said softly.
Notes
Jack's alive guys!
~Jagk.
Wow that story was amazing. It was so shocking.
5/19/16