Jack

"Oh, hey Zack, what's up," I asked.

"I need to talk to you, can we talk in the hallway," he asked.

"Uh, sure. Alex, I'll be right back, you'll be alright, right?

"Yeah, whatever," Alex muttered.

I followed Zack into the hallway, grabbing my keys just in case. He was fidgeting as he turned to face me. Zack was acting really strange, I thought I had been acting strange lately. I began to scratch at my arm, I wanted a hit, I wanted my poison, my vice.

"What is it Zack," I asked.

"Well a few things I guess," he started.

"Get on with it, I don't have the time."

"I want you to fuck me, right now."

"Zack, get the fuck out of this building and never come back. I can't do this, last week, that wasn't supposed to happen. Don't come back, please leave."

"Stephanie left me, she found out about us. I need you Jack, please."

I walked into the apartment slamming the door in Zack's face. I slid down the door, I knew it was a mistake. I knew it was a mistake to ever bring Zack back but in the drugs seemed to take over. I reached up and locked the door carefully, refusing to move from the floor. Alex looked over and saw my position. He ran over to me, wrapping my arms around him.

"Jack, what's wrong," he asked.

"I shouldn't have done it. I did so much that you don't know about," I whispered.

"What did Zack want?"

"Sex."

"How is that so bad? You're about to break into tears."

"I used sex get money... for drugs..."

"Jack, you're better than that."

"I've been doing it for a while. 'bout as long as I've been on drugs. Alex, this isn't new. I was doing pot when we first met. I just moved onto heavier things. My band mates kind of know, not to the extent that I go though. You're the first person to hear me admit to it."

He rubbed my back and pulled me into his lap as I began to cry. I wasn't proud of what I had become. I was in a professional band but still I sold myself for sex. I bought drugs and alcohol with that money. I wiped my tears with the backs of my hands as if I were a child.

"I guess I just have to work harder than I thought," Alex said.

"You don't care," I questioned.

"No, I do care. In fact I care quite a bit. I'm just choosing to ignore it. Let's get you up and fed."

I stood up with Alex helping me how he could. I walked into the kitchen slowly and saw my plate still there. Alex's hadn't really been touched. I began to pick at the food, not really being hungry. I wanted one thing but I know Alex was trying to keep me from having that, with good reason.

"Thank you for letting me in Jack," Alex said suddenly.

"Things are different with you. They've always been different with you," I said quietly.

"Thank you Jack."

"I'm gonna go up to bed."

I excused myself from the table and begin to go up the stairs to the second floor of my apartment. I crawled into my bed which no longer smelled like alcohol, courtesy of Alex. I wasn't tired, I just wanted to be alone. I was ashamed of what I had admitted to Alex, the love of my life.

I heard footsteps come up the stairs and saw a pink haired boy open my bedroom door. What was he doing? Why was he still here? I would've left the second I found out. Maybe this time it was different. Maybe this is what it meant to be in love.

"Why didn't you leave," I asked out of curiosity.

"Because I'm not like a lot of people. This is nothing but a bump in the road that we can work through," he said.

"Will you stay with me tonight?"

"Absolutely Jay."

I slid over and made room for him in the bed. I felt the bed dip and a warm body next to me. I subconsciously cuddled into the warmth and pressed my face into the boys neck. I think I placed a kiss there before I let sleep begin to pull me under. I love him and I believe him.

Notes

Jack seems a little troubled doesn't he? It's a good thing that Alex is there isn't it? What do you think is going to happen after the one month?

This is more than likely my last update till Thursday or Friday. I have to go buy a lot of music stuff and I have like no time to do so... Whoops...

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- Jess