Chance.

Alex’s POV

Jack didn’t tell me where we were going or anything, and I was too upset to listen to anything around me, so I just let Jack drag me around. I didn’t care where we went, I just wanted to be with him. I could tell that yesterday he had some doubt in us, and I would be lying if I said I didn’t doubt us a little bit. But Jack brought me out of my shell, I need to be with him, he’s everything I have ever wanted. He’s everything I have ever looked for in a person. We had just gotten off a plane and I looked around the airport. My eyes landed on one person. Rian. We were back in Baltimore. I stopped my footsteps as Jack was pulling me over to Rian.

“Alex?” Jack spoke as he turned around to, as he noticed I stopped walking.

“Why are we in Baltimore?” I asked, my voice so small.

“Because, we’re going back to your college.” He replied.

“But I don’t want to go back. I want to be with you.” I said as I felt tears brim my eyes.

“Hey, don’t cry. I’m staying with you. I’m not leaving you.”

“Promise?”

“Promise.” He spoke, but his eyes looked so sad, like he was breaking on the inside. I nodded my head slowly, not wanting to question it right now. He placed a kiss on my forehead and we made our way over to Rian. Once we were closer to him, I let go of Jack’s hand, and ran to my best friend with open arms, which he accepted with open arms as well.

“I have missed you so much Ri!” I said as I hugged my best friend tightly.

“Haha, calm down Lex. I have missed you, too.” He spoke. We both pulled away from the hug a few minutes later, and I looked to his side and noticed a girl. She had beautiful brown and blonde hair.

“Hello Alex. I’m Cassadee.” She spoke. Wow. So this is what Rian meant when he said she was beautiful. If I wasn’t gay, I would totally try and hit on her. What am I saying? Jack really has rubbed off on me this past month.

“Hi Cassadee. It’s so nice to finally meet you.” I said as I brought her into a hug as well. To which I was happy she returned. We pulled away from the hug and I mouthed a ‘wow’ to Rian, making him chuckle. I turned around and saw Jack looking awkward. I walked over to him and took my bag from him, and used my open hand to grab his now open hand, and pulled him over to Rian and Cassadee. “Rian, you know Jack. But, Cassadee, this is my boyfriend Jack.”

“Hey Jack. Nice to meet you. I’m Cassadee, Rian’s girlfriend.” She spoke with a smile and her hand held out to him. He put down his bag and shook her hand with a smile as well.

“Very nice to meet you, Cassadee.” He spoke. “It’s nice to see you again, Rian.”

“It’s good to see you too, Jack.” Rian said, matching Jack’s smile. I couldn’t help but feel like Jack’s smile was being forced. I let the thought drown my brain, but was broken away from it by Rian. “The car is waiting outside, let’s get going.” We all nodded our heads in agreement. We walked out to the car and got in, and I noticed how tired I was. I cuddled up to Jack’s side and fell asleep.
I ended up being asleep the whole ride back to the dorms, and when I woke up, I noticed I was back in my dorm, in my own bed. I looked to my side and saw Jack wasn’t there. I looked at my phone and saw the time. 8:32pm. I got out of my bed and went into our living room, since we had a pretty big dorm, it was almost like a apartment. I looked all around the dorm and I couldn’t find Jack. I saw Rian and Cass on the couch, watching a movie.

“Hey guys, have you seen Jack?” I asked. They looked at each other and shook their heads, but I could tell by the look in their eyes that they were lying. I ignored it and went back into my room. I saw a note on my desk, that I didn’t see before I left my room. I picked up the note and my heart broke.

Dear,
Alex.

So, uh, I don’t really know how to say this. But, I was starting to have some doubt about our relationship. We can’t keep running away like this, it’s bad for the both of us. Don’t get me wrong, I really do love you. Like, really, really love you. But I can’t keep doing this. I will only end up breaking your heart, I hate seeing you hurt, which is why I left. I don’t want Zack, or anyone else causing you any pain. That’s what would happen if I stayed around. Cause you pain. That’s all I ever do to people.
Zack came and picked me up, and we are on our way back to California right now. I didn’t want to wake you up, because you look so innocent and adorable when you sleep. I’m using this note as a final good-bye, I deleted both of our numbers, from both of our phones, that way we can move on with our lives. I love you, please never forget that. I'm sorry I broke the promise. Good-bye Lex.

Love always,
Jack.

I couldn’t help but break down. I fell to the ground and broke my knees to my chest. This is all my fault. He left me and it’s all my fault. I wasn’t a good enough boyfriend for him, he wanted someone better, someone who could give him the world. I couldn’t do that for him. In the midst of my break down, I heard footsteps running. When the footsteps stopped, a second I was brought into strong arms, who I knew belonged to Rian.

“Shh. Calm down Lex. This was for the best. I know it hurts. Trust me, I know what it’s like to get my heart broke by my first love. Everything is going to be fine. Just calm down.” Rian spoke to me. I cried into the chest of my best friend as he tightened his grip around me. I heard soft whimpers, and I lifted my head up and saw Cass was crying in the doorway. I put my head my in Rian’s chest and broke down again, great. I was the cause of someone else’s tears. I hate making people cry. Everything is my fault.

“Shit, I hate seeing him like this.” I heard Rian speak, as he rocked up back and forth. I could hear little sniffles coming from him, telling me he was crying as well. Just great, another person who is crying because of me. It’s always my fault. I can’t do anything right.

Notes

I gave you a feels warning, I warned you....
Good-bye Jalex....




~Jagk