*The Next Morning, Zjael's POV*

I woke up with a pounding headache. I don't remember anything from last night. The last thing I remember was Jack leaving to get me another drink. I noticed a body next to mine. It was Jack and we were both naked. Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit!!

I quickly and quietly got out of the bunk and crawled into mine right under it. I grabbed my pajamas and put them on. What did I do? Why did I do that? Did anyone even try to stop it?
I felt tears coming to my eyes and started looking for my sweatshirt. I ended up finding it in the front lounge. I slipped it on and walked outside. There was a bench nearby so I walked up and sat down, pulling my hood on so it covered most of my face.

I slowly grabbed one of my cigarettes and tried lighting it while I had tears streaming down my face. "Please, just light. Things would start feeling better if you did." I cried quietly and tried again. This time, it worked. "Now, please stop crying." I begged myself and took a drag, feeling the smoke in my lungs.

Very slowly, I exhaled, blowing out the smoke. I brought my knees up and hugged them with one arm, the other continuously brought the cigarette to my lips until it was done. I felt a little better, but not enough to say I was okay or wanted to live. So, I lit up another.

Halfway done with that one, I heard the bus door open, close, and footsteps up to me. I looked up and hoped it wasn't Jack, but was relieved to see it was Zack. "Why are you out here all alone?" He asked softly and sat down beside me.

"'Cause." Was my only response before taking a drag of my cigarette and holding in the smoke till I needed to breathe again.

"Do you have a hangover?" I nodded in response to his question. "You probably shouldn't be out here then."

"I don't care. I needed to smoke." I said and finished the cancer stick.

"Why?" He asked as I slowly stood up.

"'Cause I fucked up." I said and walked back to the bus as Rian came out. Just who I was looking for. "Good, both of you are here. I can't stay here so we need to find me a place to stay and a good job."

"I knew it!" Rian said sounding frustrated.

"What do you mean?" Zack and I asked at the same time.

"You went to sleep which left me to stay away and make sure Zjael was okay. I knew this was gonna happen." Rian said to Zack.

"Please explain to me, how did you know this was gonna happen?" I asked. Did he know Jack and I had sex? If he did, why didn't he stop us? Or...did he try to?

"I walked in on you and Jack, hopefully just kissing, and asked to talk to you. I told you that if you didn't get away from Jack at that moment, you would wake up this morning next to him, naked, and not want to stay."

"What did I say?"

"You said it was bullshit. Clearly, I was right but a deal is a deal. What kind of career would you like to do?"

"Photography, that's my favorite class I took in high school. It took my mind off things and made me happy." I said softly. Rian and Zack looked at each other as the bus door opened again, this time it was Jack.

"There you are, Z. I was looking for you." Jack said sounding and looking relieved.

"Yup." I said and looked down.

"You were smoking again, weren't you?" Jack asked, suddenly upset.

"Yeah, what does it matter?" I asked.

"It matters 'cause of what we talked about last night." He said and I looked at him confused. "You don't remember what we talked about?"

"The last thing I remember from last night is you going to refill my drink." I said honestly. I only remember him refilling my drink once.

"Which time? The first time or second time?" Jack asked sounding even more upset.

"I'd assume the first time, 'cause I only remember you refilling my drink once."

"I guess I should talk to you about the missing pieces of last night, then."

"No, I can put the pieces together just fine." I said and started internally freaking out. Did he find out about my past and use it against me? Did he roofie me? Why can't I remember anything? I'm never drinking again!

"Please, just let me explain." Jack pleaded, but I ignored him and walked back on the bus to my bunk and went to sleep.

Notes

Hope this is good and you guys like it. So, Z doesn't want to stay....what do you think will happen in the next chapter? Where do you think they'll have her work and live? Will she change her mind? How will Jack react when he realizes she's gone? How will Rian and Zack move her in to a new place without Jack knowing? But most of all, will we ever find out about her past?

I really do hope this is good and liked, I don't know how to feel about anything I'm writing right now. There's a lot of bullshit and hate going on in my house and I can't ignore it cause it's here where I am living and I can't escape it at all. So, if there's any hate or anger seeped into any of the newer chapters.....I'm sorry. Writing is my positive outlet and it's the only way I can express my feelings and they stay as hidden as possible in my stories.

Sorry for this rant. Leave me some comments and feedback?

-Rose