*Rian's POV*

"So, do you want to stay with us or should we start helping you look for a place?" I asked looking back at Zjael in the back seat.

"Ask again in the morning? I kinda wanna see how I feel after the party tonight." Zjael said quietly.

"Yeah, we'll talk about it in the morning." Zack said with a small smile. The rest of the car ride was only filled with music flowing through the speakers, until they were almost to the bus. "I hope you're prepared to be hammered." Zack said to her to warn her.

"I've never had a drink in my life." Zjael said sheepishly.

"Don't be around Jack if you don't want a lot. He parties hard." I warned her.

"Thanks for the heads up." Zjael said as Zack parked and turned off the car. All three of us hesitated before getting out of the car. We walked to the bus. Zack and I hesitated before going in; we had to prepare ourselves. Jack was probably already buzzed if not drunk.

"Alright, let's go." I said and Zack opened the bus door. I was the first on and Zjael followed me with Zack behind her. Jack was drinking.

"Where have you guys been? Zjael, I thought you left me forever!" Jack slurred. Yup, he's drunk.

*Zjael's POV*

"Where have you guys been? Zjael, I thought you left me forever!" Jack slurred his words. Is he drunk? Someone turned on the music and turned it up. Alex came from the bunk area with 6 shot glasses.

"Everyone has to at least take a birthday shot with Jack." Alex said to me. I nodded. I'm a little scared. Rian handed me a soda.

"Drink this after you take the shot. It'll help get rid of the bitter taste." Rian said. I nodded as Alex handed out the shots. Once everyone had one, Jack got everyone's attention.

"Thanks for always being there for me and thank you for being here with me to celebrate my 27th birthday. I love you guys so much, especially you, Zjael." Jack said and took his shot. Everyone followed suit and I was the last. I took the shot expecting it to taste bad, but it didn't really bother me much.

"That actually wasn't too bad." I said with a small smile and everyone cheered. As everyone dispersed around the bus, I walked up to Jack. "Happy Birthday." I said with a smile.

"Best I've had in years. I've got you with me." Jack said pulling me into a hug. I slowly wrapped my arms around him and closed my eyes. The last time I actually hugged someone, it was my dad.

"W-Will-Will you get me a drink?" I asked sheepishly. Jack nodded, let go of me, and went to make me a drink. Maybe I really can stay.

"Are you good?" Rian asked softly, coming up behind me.

"So far." I said with a smile as Jack came back with a drink for me.

"You're probably gonna get shitfaced and be hungover in the morning if you let him make your drinks." Rian said after I took the cup from Jack.

"I know, you warned me already." I giggled and looked to Jack. "I'll be fine." Rian nodded and walked away. Jack and I went to the back lounge where everyone was. We started dancing and drinking. When my drink was gone, I asked Jack to make me another.

After that second cup, I was feeling really good, but I wanted to smoke a cigarette. "Do you want another drink?" Jack asked looking at me.

"Yes, please. I'm gonna go out for a cigarette too." I said handing him my cup and grabbing my sweatshirt. Once it was on and I made sure I still had my lighter and cigarettes then stumbled off the bus. I sat down against the bus as Jack came out.

"How are you feeling?" Jack asked sitting next to me.

"I'm feeling really good right now. It's a beautiful night." I said pulling out a cigarette and lighting it. I don't even know why I'm smoking. Maybe the alcohol is making me want the nicotine.

"You shouldn't do that." Jack said softly.

"I know, but it helps with anxiety."

"Talk to Alex about that. He has anxiety too. Sometimes it's bad and we'll be on stage and he has to go back stage till he's okay."

"Okay." I said. Jack took the cigarette from between my fingers and put it out.

"Let's go back inside, Z. I'm gonna help you stop smoking." Jack said standing up; he helped me to stand and gave me my cup.

"Thank you." I said and stumbled on the bus with Jack right behind me. I sat down on the couch and started to drink what Jack gave me. He sat down by me and finished his drink.

"Z, I'm sorry." Jack said and looked at me.

"For what?"

"For yelling at you today. For not looking for you sooner. For not trying to help sooner. For whatever you've been through since your dad died. For not looking for you when you didn't show up to the funeral or didn't show up once you turned 18. I should've been a better friend."

"Don't apologize. It's my fault."

"No, it's not."

"Yes, it is." I said feeling the tears coming to my eyes. "I pushed you to yell at me, I hid every single time you were in town, you're not responsible for helping me, I didn't fight against anything that has happened when I should've, and I wouldn't let you be around to even be a friend."

Without a word, Jack leaned towards me and kissed me. It felt so right.

*Jack's POV*

Kissing Zjael felt so magical and so right. I wanted this moment to continue, but I knew it couldn't. I didn't want to take advantage of her, but if she pushed for it I wouldn't be taking advantage of her, right? She had to show she wanted it like I do. I pulled away and opened my eyes to see her blushing and smiling.

I couldn't read her expression as she put her empty cup down. She gripped part of my shirt in her hands and pulled me to her. She kissed me hungrily and wrapped her arms around my neck. Neither of us pulled away till we heard someone clearing their throat, it was Rian.

"Hey, Zjael, can I talk to you for a minute?" Rian asked. Zjael got up and followed him away into bunk alley. I didn't listen in on the conversation. I just sat and waited. When she cam back she was instantly straddling me. She leaned down and started kissing me while her hands went under my shirt and felt along my torso. She only stopped kissing me to take my shirt off.

"What are you doing?" I asked softly.

"I want you, Jacky." She said seductively in my ear then started biting my neck. She bit down to my collarbone and sucked on it. I stopped her feeling myself steadily grow hard and kissed her before taking both her sweatshirt and shirt off.

"God, you're beautiful." I whispered before kissing her again and picking her up. She wrapped her legs around my waist and my hands were on her ass, holding her up. I walked to my bunk and sat her on the edge of it.

Zjael brought her hands down and started to rub my through my jeans. I moaned quietly and bit down on her neck. She slowly unbuttoned and unzipped my pants, pushing then down to my knees with her legs. I broke free from her legs and took my pants off fully before pulling hers off.

She crawled into the bunk and I followed her and closed the curtain to the bunk. Zjael moved down to the bottom of the bunk and pulled my boxers down a little bit. My erection sprung free. She licked it along the shaft, from the bottom to the tip a few times before taking some of my into her mouth. She ran her tongue over the tip a few times making me moan out.

Zjael took more of me into her mouth until I felt the back of her throat. Suddenly, I didn't feel anything anymore and looked to see she was taking off her bra and underwear. I took off my boxers completely. "Jack."

"Yeah, Zjael?"

"Will you fuck me?"

"Only if you really want me to."

"I do." She said. I nodded and changed our position so she was laying on her back with her legs spread enough for me to be in between them.

"Are you sure you want this?" I asked before doing anything else.

"Yes." She said. I slowly pushed into her causing her to moan loudly. I kissed her to quiet her down and began to thrust in and out. This wasn't just sex to me, for once it really meant something to me. She meant something to me. After a few minutes of thrusting I could feel myself getting closer to my climax.

Zjael stopped kissing me and moaned out in between her words. "Jack....I'm close." She said breathless.

"Me too, Z." I said breathless. I slammed into her one more time as we both climaxed moaning out each other's names. I waited a minute or so before pulling out and laying down between her and the wall. I grabbed the blanket at our feet and covered us. Zjael cuddled up to me and I wrapped my arms around her.

"I love you, Jacky." She said softly.

"I love you too." I said before we both slowly drifted asleep.

Notes

Sorry if the ending somewhat sucks, its been a while since I've written a sex scene haha, but will she stay or go? The question still stands. Hope you like this chapter :)

-Rose