When we finally got to our stop in Denver I was so happy. I couldn’t stand to play any more Halo with Alex. I can’t stand that game anymore. I wanted to wring Alex’s neck for making me play.
“I will never play another game of that stupid game again,” I yelled at my boyfriend running from him as I trash talked about his game.
“Bonnie, my game is not stupid. You’re just jealous that I kicked your ass at it,” he snickered as he chased after me.
“It’s a terrible game. The physics suck in that game. Man up and play me again on Call of Duty, you pansy,” I yelled at him.
“Me, a pansy? Woman, I’m putting up with you trashing on my game. That takes balls,” he replied.
“Bonnie, stop running around before you hurt your baby,” Nyssa whined as she got off the bus.
“Fine, I’ll stop,” I gave up and let Alex throw his arms around my shoulders.
“Thank you,” Nyssa breathed.
“Oh Nyssa did I ever tell you that along with my skull tattoo I was looking into getting another one,” I told her.
“What other tattoo,” she asked.
“The honey pot from Winnie the Pooh; I’d have the honey pot like how it is in the movie and get two honey bees on the rim to represent myself and now Alex. Then with every baby I have I’d add a honey and the flight trail will have their initials inside,” I told her.
“That’s a clever idea. I think it would be cute,” Nyssa gushed at my idea.
“I like it too. And I’m buying it for you,” Alex added.
“Hey, you two have a couple hours until the show. I’ll handle sound check for you Alex. Take Bonnie out for a sonogram to kill time,” Matt suggested.
“Okay, come on Bonnie, let’s go get our stuff to head out,” Alex guided onto the bus to grab his wallet and keys before he got on the phone and called for a cab.
♪Alex♪
I’m glad Matt gave me the idea to take Bonnie for our first sonogram today. I was excited to see what our baby looks like right now. Hopefully we can find out when the baby was conceived so we can figure out a due date. I do not want to be on tour when Bonnie’s close to having our baby. I want to be there every step of the way when she delivers.
“I’m really excited to see our baby for the first time,” Bonnie gushed as we waited for a nurse to call us back for us to get the sonogram done and get Bonnie everything she’d need for her pregnancy to run smoothly.
“Bonnie Howell,” a nurse called us and we got up and followed her to an exam room.
“So Miss Howell who do we have with us today,” the nurse asked once we had gotten into the room.
“My boyfriend, Alex,” Bonnie replied.
“Not to be rude, but he’s the happy father-to-be,” she asked innocently.
“Yes, I am,” I replied, smiling kindly to her as I took hold of Bonnie’s hand once she was up in the table.
“So you have been tested for your pregnancy, correct,” she asked.
“Yes I have. We want to see how far along I am and how the baby is doing,” Bonnie replied.
“Alright, let’s get started. Please lift up your shirt and loosen your jeans so I can get to wand in the right place to find our little baby,” the nurse instructed.
Bonnie laid back as she lifted her shirt and loosened her jeans. I could tell she was nervous about seeing our little baby. I was bursting at the seams with excitement. I wanted to see how big our baby is. I know it’s way too early to find out if we’re having a boy or a girl, but I just want to see my baby that’s growing in my fantastic girlfriend.
“Alright now let’s do this, shall we,” the nurse said as she applied a gel to the tip of the wand that would take the pictures of the baby, “It’ll be a little cold.”
She was right; Bonnie flinched at the cold gel from the wand, tightening her grip on my hand. She and I watched as the black screen lit up and then we saw the baby. It looked very healthy and we could hear the strong heartbeat. I was so happy with this and Bonnie was too; I could hear her holding in her squeals of joy.
“Well based on what I see here, she’s close to a month along. Have you been going through symptoms like morning sickness or mood swings,” the nurse asked.
“Oh yeah, I wake up every morning sick to my stomach and I can tell my emotions are constantly changing all the time. Which doesn’t help my anxiety,” Bonnie explained.
“Well I’m sure as you progress everything will get easier. Here are some pamphlets on easy ways to keep yourself healthy and well rested while pregnant. These are the prenatal vitamins I recommend. I also have a list of anxiety medications that are safe for you to take along with safe pain killers and cold and flu meds,” the nurse explained.
“Is there anything I should know,” Bonnie asked.
“Be careful not to get sick and avoid stressing out your body too much. Also no drinking or smoking. Also when you start seeing your bump getting bigger, get a proper wardrobe to fit comfortably around your growing baby; tight clothing can cause complications and health issues for the baby,” she added.
“Thank you for your help,” I said as Bonnie and I left, the sonogram pictures of our baby held tightly in my hand.

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When Bonnie and I got back to the venue, Nyssa stole Bonnie from me to talk about how the sonogram went. Jack came over to talk to me about it.
“So how did it go,” Jack asked.
“Great. The baby is healthy and Bonnie’s nearly a month along. Meaning when she and I first did it my condom failed on us. But I don’t mind it much. I wish I had waited until I was going to marry her or be married to her before having a baby, but I’m happy to be a father in around eight months,” I told him.
“Do you have an idea on when you’ll know if it’s a boy or a girl,” he asked.
“Not until Bonnie’s showing, maybe around when she’s three months along or so we’ll know,” I told him.
“Whether it’s a boy or a girl, I hope that baby makes you two super happy and becomes your ‘cure’ for your anxiety,” Jack commented.
“I hope so too. Maybe our anxiety with just change to be centered on our baby and being worried that it stays happy and healthy,” I told him.
I know that for a fact I’m going to enjoy the idea of planning out my family with Bonnie. I want everything to be perfect for us. I definitely want to have nothing but love in our family to raise our baby. I know now that I wanted to spend the rest of my days with Bonnie at my side. I just have to find the perfect ring for her and the perfect time to ask the big question.