Jack's POV:
Nyssa asks Bonnie to have a talk about sex quietly, I was kind of shocked that she asked in front of me and Alex. But I guess with how today went, feeling more comfortable, then seeing that Bonnie is pregnant, it freaked her out. They leave and I sit down by Alex. "What am I going to do Alex," I say to myself. "Well for one thing, be more patient with her." "But I been." "And another, don't pressure her into it." "I'm not, I'm just worried that she's scared now, and she is going past her mind now. But now. I don't know what she's thinking."

"Well for one thing, when you two finally do it, use protection." "What?" "Are you seriously asking me that. Use a condom Jack." "Oh. Yeah." "And don't pull that 'I'll pull out before I climax' shit. Because I swear if we find out that you didn't use a condom-" "Alex I swear I won't do that." "Bonnie will kill you if-" "I KNOW ALEX."

I know what will happen if I pressure her into it, or if I hurt her, or I if I don't use a condom. It will all end the same way. Bonnie and Alex kicking my ass. Along with the Pierce guys.

"Its just, I want it to be special for her." "Special how." "I want her to feel that it is time, that I do truely care about her. I want her first time to be special, not the wrong moment." Alex nods, "now I get it. How about you wait when we're off tour." "Why off tour, why not in a hotel?" He slaps the back of my head, "what was that for!" "I don't care how much you treat her at a hotel, don't do it at a fucking hotel." "Okay okay. Then where."

Alex thinks to himself. "Well... After tour I'm going back to Orlando with Bonnie for a while and then maybe she moves in with me in Baltimore. I know we're going to stay together, I know that for sure. Nyssa on the other hand, you want to make sure that she knows you'll never leave her. Imagine how she'll be if you two have sex, and then you leave her." "...She'll feel so broken.." "Exactly."

"I guess the main question is Jack, do you feel that she's the one Jack." I close my eyes and think. I have helped Nyssa through so much when I first met her. She's changed me into a better person, I like this new me. I think back to all of our little moments, when we first kissed, I have never felt so happy in my life. I never felt that way with any girl before. She makes me feel something that I've never felt before, and I have never met a girl like her before. Someone so... perfect.

"Yeah... she's the one," I smile to myself. "Then here's my tip. Make sure that she is ready when the time comes. But during the rest of tour, just work your up. Just do foreplay. But not to much, I know how you are. So when the time comes, she'll feel more ready. Also, before you to do it, have a plan." "What kind of plan." "A plan as in, is she going to stay in Orlando? Or is she going to stay with you. If she's going to stay with you, then is she going on the next tour with us? You have to figure this out before you two do it."

I nod, "okay. I see what your talking about." "Also, I think I know a good place for you two do it for the first time." "Where?" "Your house." "Why my house?" "You want it special for her, right?" "Yeah." "If she's going to live with you after tour, then make it special for her by having it at her new home with the guy she might one day marry." "Sh-she seems like one of those girls who's been determined to wait till marriage." "Do you have a problem with that?" "No. I'm just saying." "What are you saying Jack."

I think to myself for a few seconds. "If she wants to wait till marriage, I'll wait to. I want to make sure her first time is special, and if the most special time is after we get married, then so be it." "Jack, am I hearing this right?" "What?" "Are you thinking of marrying her someday?"

I smile to myself, "yeah. I am."
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We go back to where Nyssa and Bonnie are. Alex opens the curtain, they were focused on something that was on Alex's mac. "How are you girls doing?," Alex asks. "Good, we're learning about babies," Nyssa speaks up not taking her eyes off the screen. She was really focused. I love seeing her like that.

"Nyssa, do you want to talk about how everything went today," I kind of wanted to steal her away from Bonnie. Nyssa looks at Bonnie and she whispers something in Nyssa's ear. Nyssa nods and gets out. Alex gets in and he closes the curtain. I knew we weren't gonna hear anything from them maybe besides talking.

"My bunk or yours?" "Um.. your bunk. We been in mine two nights now." "Sounds good to me." We get in my bunk and I close the curtain and turn on the bunk light. I lay down first and she lays with me, her head resting on my chest. "How was today?" "It went good, I was nervous at first but then I got used to it. I wasn't used to it because it wasn't you. But Jamie had me picture it was you like I said earlier." I don't know why, but that kind of made me question Jamie. He had her think he was me, and he was able to do stuff to her and she asked for more.

Wait. I'm just being paranoid. He would never do that to me. He loves her like a sister.

"How do you feel?" "I feel normal I guess, but I got this sense that I... wanted to go further." "How do you feel right now?" She looks at me, "I think I'm ready to try." "Are you sure?" She nods, "yeah. Might as well see if it worked, right?" "Yeah, I guess your right."

We switch positions so that I was on top and I started kissing her. I lick her bottom lip and she opens her mouth for me, faster then usual. I slide my tongue in her mouth and she got better more quicker then in the past. I slowly rub her sides and she moaned into my mouth. Well this was different. I slowly slide my hands up her shirt, massaging a bit as I slid my hands up. She moaned again into my mouth, this was really different. I get to her chest and she doesn't stop me, she doesn't freak out. I slide one hand to her back and unhook her bra quickly. I wait for her to freak out but she didn't.

Nothing. She was perfectly fine. I wanted to hear her moan my name so I moved to her neck and started nipping and slide her bra out. Her fingers were tangled in my hair and her breathing was unsteady, but not like how it was in the past. I toss her bra somewhere behind me and I slide my hands back up. She tugged at my hair a bit when I reached her breasts, which only made me want to go further. I quickly pull my hands out and sit up. "Wha-" She went quiet when she saw that I was taking off my shirt. I wasn't planning on taking her shirt off.

I turn off the light and went back down. I start sucking and licking her soft spot and slide my hands back up. Her hands were rubbing my chest and I felt her body arch a bit when I held her breasts. I squeeze her breasts a bit and bite her soft spot when she lets out a loud moan. "Jaaa-" I cut her moan off by kissing her lips. I realize her shirt was half way up and I pull away first.

"How was that?" She takes a few seconds to steady her breathing. I was breathless to. "Wow," she breathes out. I turn the bunk light on and smile down at her and she smiles back. She wasn't scared. She wasn't freaking out. She was completely fine. I lay by her and pull her close to me. "How do you feel?" "...Normal." "Is that a good thing?" "Yeah, its a good thing," I knew she was smiling even though it was dark.

"Di-did you wanna keep going?" I chuckle and kiss her head, "someone is a little to eager." I knew she was blushing, I didn't need light for that. "Maybe another day, that was a good start for now." "Yeah... your right."

We lay there in silence and she fell asleep first. I lay there thinking of what me and Alex talked about. I want her first time to be really special. I want her to know and feel that I won't ever leave her, that I really do love her. I know she's the one, and I think she feels the same way.

I'll wait. I'll do what Alex suggested and work our way up until its time, most likely after tour. The more I think about it, my house sounds like the perfect place for us to do it for the first time and for it to be special for her.