My mind was constantly racing when I woke up this morning. I was having issues concentrating. I hated being off my medication. Luckily, Nyssa made me my favorite breakfast to help me relax a little. I was still on edge, but my French toast hit the spot.
We were in transit to the next city on the tour. I was in my bunk, just relaxing with Alex. I was tracing his rose and skeleton tattoos to help keep me occupied.
“Bonnie,” Alex called to get my attention. I had spaced I guess.
“Huh, what,” I asked, dazed a little.
“You spaced a bit babe. I was trying to ask you if you wanted to watch a movie,” he smiled warmly. I’m glad I had him here to help out with getting used to having to force myself to concentrate.
“What movie did you have in mind,” I asked him.
“I have a bunch saved on my mac. I’ll go grab so you can surf through my collection,” Alex left my bunk and went below to his.
His mac landed up on my mattress and I snagged it. I surfed through his movies folder and I found a movie I’ve been dying to watch, The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh. I was a sucker for Winnie the Pooh and I loved to watch this all the time when I was little. I even watched it when I was in high school I was so hooked on it. I was even tempted to pack my Pooh bear I had at the apartment.
“Found one,” I told Alex as he climbed back in.
“Which one did you pick,” he asked.
“Winnie the Pooh. Why do you have it on your computer,” I asked him.
“I’m a sucker for Disney movies. That and Flyzik was the one that loaded it on there,” Alex explained.
“I’m glad you have it. It’s one of my favorites. Along with Peter Pan, Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella, and Aladdin,” I told him.
“You like Peter Pan? I can’t let you go ever. You are too damn perfect,” Alex and I laughed as I fired up Winnie the Pooh.
♪Alex♪
Bonnie fell asleep half way through Sleeping Beauty, which is pretty funny. I left the bunk for a moment to get something to drink and get some snacks to have in her bunk. I wasn’t going to leave her side when she’s awake so that way she can be comfortable and relaxed. I had that effect on her.
I climbed back into the bunk and Bonnie cuddled up to me again. I placed the snacks in the wall caddy before I wrapped my arms around my girl. I loved the idea of having her with me. I knew when the tour ended; she’d have to go back to Florida with Nyssa. I wasn’t willing to uproot myself and my dogs to go live in Florida with her. I wasn’t sure if she’d want to come up to Baltimore without Nyssa since they look after each other. Maybe Jack will convince Nyssa to move to Baltimore to live with hims o the girls could remain close.
“Alex,” Bonnie whimpered softly, pulling me out of my thoughts.
“What’s the matter Bonnie,” I asked her.
“I feel off, like something wrong is going to happen,” she looked up into my eyes and I saw worry and fear in her eyes. I saw her anxiety.
“Nothing bad is going to happen, Bonnie. I promise. I’ll stay close to you as much as I can. When I can’t I’ll have Vic and Nyssa look after you. Okay,” I moved a strand of her long brunette hair out of her face before I kissed her softly.
“I can’t help but worry, Alex. I feel lost right now,” she sighed sadly.
“Well you’re my lost girl, okay. I’ll be your lost boy,” I smiled warmly at her as I held onto her tighter.
“Am I making you anxious too,” Bonnie was concerned about my anxiety.
“A little, but it’s a concerned type of anxiety. I’m worried about you and how you’re holding up,” I told her the truth.
“Don’t worry yourself into an attack. I might get triggered if that happens,” Bonnie replied quietly.
“I won’t allow myself to slip in front of you Bonnie. I can’t. I would be able to live with myself if I did,” I kissed her forehead and then her lips tenderly.
♪Bonnie♪
We finally pulled up to the venue in Lowell and I was relieved to finally get off the bus and stretch out my legs. Being in my bunk most of the ride trying to watch movies to keep me distracted, it didn’t help me much.
Alex finally got off the bus nearly last since he was talking to Jack while I was with Nyssa. Nyssa was racing in to hang out with Vic and the Pierce boys while I waited for Alex. Jack went after her. Alex took hold of my hand and gave it a quick squeeze.
“Let’s go inside and have a couple drinks. Maybe playing Kings or Never Have I Ever will help keep you calm,” Alex offered.
“Yeah let’s play Never Have I Ever,” I snickered, “I need to learn more private things about you.”
“I’m going to regret this aren’t I,” he asked.
“Yep,” I replied, popping the “p.”
“As long as it makes you happy, I’ll bear through it,” he sighed and smiled sweetly at me.
“Come on, before we miss out on getting started,” I pull Alex into the venue and we get into the dressing room everyone was hanging out in.
Mike and Tony got all of the shots set up for the game. Alex and I sat together on a couch with Nyssa and Jack. Nyssa was going to watch us get wasted from out little game. Once the shot were poured, everyone playing played “nose goes” to pick who’d go first. Jack lost so he had to go first.
This game was going to be very interesting to be sure.