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Alex finally decided it was time for him to go back home, after he ran out of clothes. He still came over from time to time when I’m back home from work. Sometimes we’ll just hangout, and sometimes he’ll just come over to have sex then leave in the morning. Sometimes both. Either way, I always enjoy being around him. He gives me feelings I can’t even express in words.
And I still don’t know why I’m feeling them in the first place.
So, as I usually do when I’m confused or need to get things off my chest, I called Zack.

He got here about ten minutes ago, and we were getting things rolling. Literally.
He lit his blunt then passed me the lighter so I could light mine as well.
We both took a long hit before exhaling.
“So, what’s going on?” Zack asked, always knowing when his services were needed.
“I don’t know what I’m doing with Alex.” I answered, truthfully.
I wasn’t even sure what we were anymore and I had no idea what I wanted us to be.
“Well that’s easy. You’re fucking him, aren’t you?” He took another hit.
“Well yeah but.. It’s more than that now. More than just sex..”
He let out a little chuckle before taking another hit.
“What? What’s so funny?” I looked at him confused.
“It isn’t more than that, Jack. Don’t set yourself up.”
I took a hit of my blunt and frowned.
“I don’t know what you mean..”
“Oh, I think you know exactly what I mean. Don’t start catching feelings when you know you’re gonna regret it.”
I wanted to yell at him for saying such a thing, but I was in too much of a euphoric state; so instead, I broke out into an involuntary fit of laughter.
“I don’t have feelings for himmm! I’m done with that shit and you know it..” I took yet another hit.
“Yeah well-“ Zack stopped mid-sentence when he heard the basement door open, followed by the sound of someone coughing as they walked down the stairs.
“What the hell is going on down here?!” Alex yelled, as he stepped down from the last stair.
Oh yeah.. I forgot I told him where the spare key was. Must’ve not heard him knocking.
“This must be him, huh?” Zack chuckled.
“Baaabyy! Hey!” I chuckled, holding my arms out to him.
“No fucking way.” He looked at us in disgust.
“What’s your problem, dude?” Zack frowned at him.
“Who the hell are you?” Alex shot back at him.
“Hey, don’t talk to my best friend like that..” I pouted.
“I don’t give a fuck, Jack!” He screamed.
“Uhh.. I’m just gonna go back to mine. Buzzkill crashed the party.” Zack stood up, taking his stuff with him.
I just shrugged, and took another hit as he left.
“Put that thing away!” Alex yelled at me, furiously.
“Pshh.. Are you crazy?” I continued to smoke it.
“Um.. Are YOU crazy?? Get rid of it!” He practically had smoke coming out of his ears.
Haha, smoke.
“Okay okay, I’m almost done!” I finished it eventually, while he just stood there, watching me the whole time with his face red from anger.
“You are so fucking disgusting!”
“Why are you yelling so much?? Just chill..” I foolishly attempted to calm him down and failed.
“How could you smoke this stuff?! What is wrong with you??”
“Uh.. It’s weed. Calm down..” I responded, nonchalantly.
“It’s a drug! Drugs are harmful and gross! Smoking is gross!” He continued to get all worked up over nothing.
“What are you? Some little goody two shoes?” I doubled over in laughter at my own joke.
“You make me sick. And who was that guy?! Your supplier or something?!”
“Annndd best friend. He’s cool.” I smiled.
“Cool? More like, as dumb as you are. I just cannot believe you! Next, you’re gonna tell me you smoke cigarettes or something!”
“Only when I’m stressed and Zack isn’t here.” I mumbled.
“Oh my God!!” He looked at me like I was the scum of earth, and I was starting to get sick of it.
“Oh, what now?” I rolled my eyes.
“Cigarettes, Jack? That’s so gross! How could you be so fucking stupid?!”
Okay, this was starting to hurt now, even in the carefree state I was in.
“I said it’s when I’m stressed. I don’t need you criticizing me for trying to control my mood.” I glared at him.
He took a deep breath, then. Maybe to calm down.
“Why do you need to turn to drugs and that Zack guy when you’re stressed? Why don’t you just come to me instead?”
What is this? A middle school health class?
“I don’t come to you because you’re fucking stressful!”
“Oh, I’m stressful?!” He immediately dropped his nice act.
“Heck yeah, you’re stressful! Hell, you just came marching in here yelling at everyone and killing the whole vibe! Listen, if you don’t like me anymore because I smoke, then fine. Just go because I don’t need you judging me as if you’re so fucking perfect. Bitch.” I couldn’t help but end my rant with chuckle, while he was frozen with tears in his eyes.
I just shrugged at him, then watched him turn around and race up the stairs to leave.
Serves him right.
But why does my heart hurt so bad?

Notes

So are you on team Alex or team Jack?

And no, this is not the huge secret in the story bio. XD
That comes later.

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Title cred: The First Punch- Pierce The Veil