Jack pov


Well I'm sitting here watching zack an mikey hug outside the tour bus, they just been on a first date. Zack told me and only me because he knows how everyone will react to him being gay.i wish I could have the guts like he does, I'm just a stupid worthless freak.

I didn't even realise I was crying when I was think how fucked up and pathetic I am .i run into the bathroom were a slim shinny razor is sitting there screaming my name

"Jack you faggot,your worthless freak" was all I could here in my mind I didn't even realise I had picked up the blade and was slowly making its way across my wrist. Kellin all ways said wrists was for bracelets not to cut on, but fuck him....fuck everyone and there stupid words I fucking hate myself.

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It was the morning and I didn't realise I cried myself to sleep on the bathroom foor, someone was banging on the door

"Jack, for fuck sake I need a piss.......hurry the fuck up....faggot"I could tell it was Alex because he mumbled faggot The end. I splashed water over my face cleaned all the blood that happened to dribble down on to the floor and ran to my bunk were I planed on staying there all day till tomorrow's set.

Alex pov

Well I had to admit I felt really bad for calling jack a faggot and that. I just really liked him and he never realised that, I've all ways liked him and now I found out he liked mikey well that has broke my heart.so it's not my fault he has his knickers in a twist with me.

I needed a pee really bad and I regretted how I approached jack outside the bathroom door,calling him a faggot. I saw he had a red stained jacket on while he ran out...what the fuck have I done ....