We Say Summer
We Are the Reason
It had been one month since Jack had left All Time Low and that one month was nothing but panic and confusion, all of our fans were heartbroken and didn’t want us to find another guitraist, and to be honest, I didn’t want to find someone else either.
“Come on Alex, I know that you don’t want to find another guitarist, but you can’t be the only one playing guitar”
Zack and Rian had been telling me this constantly, but to be honest I wasn’t even sure if I wanted to continue with All Time Low, there was just no fun in the band without Jack’s immature jokes. I had tried calling Jack on numerous occasions, but he wasn’t picking up his phone, he hadn’t even been active on Twitter or anything and it simply felt like he died or something.
Come on Alex don’t think like that, I’m sure Jack is just fine and is simply busy with getting his band up and running. I honestly felt like I was going insane without Jack by my side.
We were supposed to write another album and release it that year, but I had trouble thinking of any lyrics to write that weren’t related to Jack and why he left. Basically every day I would wake up and look at the same rainy weather, doing nothing of value and hoping that Jack would call and tell me that he had changed his mind and wanted to come back to All Time Low, but that day never seemed to come.
But one day something happened, it’s not quite what I wanted to happen, Hell it wasn’t even close to what I wanted. But it was something, in comparison to every other day for the last month.
When I woke up around seven in the morning I was slouching around my house in my jammies and eating some cereal whilst watching Supernatural on T.V.
However, at a very action-packed moment during the show someone knocked on the door.
“Go away, I’m not handing out any signatures!” I shouted from the top of my lungs, by now I had been used to the fact that even if I was in my house, people would still want to have a signature, because I could apparently never have any rest.
“Alex, it’s Taylor, I don’t want a signature… I just want to know what happened to Jack, but if you don’t want to t- ”
She stopped talking, probably because she heard me trip whilst running to open the door.
When I did eventually crawl up and open the door, I exchanged an awkward glance with Taylor.
“If you don’t want to talk about it, it’s fine. I can understand that you are probably a bit shaken up by this whole event.”
“No, it’s fine. But I don’t think I know that much, we probably know just as much as each other, Jack left, and that’s all that I know” I was lying, I knew Jack left so that he could get a chance to get closer to her, so it surpirsed me that she didn’t know anything about him either, that was evident as she told me that he hadn’t been in contact with her at all lately.
“Alex, I know that you know something about Jack, you wouldn’t have asked me if he had talked to me if you didn’t, so don’t deny it.”
“No, the reason that I asked you is because he hasn’t been in contact with me either, so I wanted to know if maybe you had heard from him.” God I felt so bad lying to her, but I don’t want her to know about what Jack feels about her.
Taylor looked away for a split second and closed her eyes for a bit longer than a standard blink, then she threw herself into my arms, burrying her face in my chest, crying.
“I miss him so much, he was always there for me and I can’t even be there for him this one time…”
It seemed to me as if Taylor had feelings for Jack, but I didn’t want to ask her, maybe some part of me was still in love with her and maybe slightly angry at Jack for wanting to take her.
Even thought I was the one who broke up with her. God I felt bad for it, she saw this as a relationship that could last for a while, I just saw it as a fling, and I thought she did too, but that’s why when I broke up with her we lost contact. At least until now…
7/31/13