Every day after that I would just spend all my free time thinking about Kellin's offer, he would text me regularly to see if I'd decided on anything yet, his curiosity was nice, but at one point just started getting plain annoying but I couldn't block him out as he was my chance to get out of this situation in a nice and easy way.

My thoughts were very diverse, one day I'd be thinking about how I would leave the band and have a great life, and then the day after, I would be thinking about how I love being around Alex and the rest, then I'd get mad at him, then I'd get desperate to leave. It seemed like I would never come to a conclusion, and that was driving me insane all the time, I was having sleepless nights and the band had started worrying about me, and so had the fans.

Of course, I couldn't tell them anything, because it would just be two-sided, the sentimental kids who wanted me to leave for Tay, of which there'd be little, and the people who would say that I needed to stay for the bands' own good.
I didn't want anyone to alter my own thought process, I knew what was best for me, or in this case, I didn't.

One day Zack came into the bus while I was alone thinking, and he caught me off guard, as the rest of the band was usually out drinking somewhere after the concerts.
"Hey Jack, I really want to talk to you, not because Alex or anyone forced me to, it's just that you seem really out of it, and it's kind of scaring me, like, you're barely bouncing around the way you used to, and honestly, I don't think Alex really cares all that much right now, so I figured someone has to, right?"
God damnit Zack, quit being so damn nice to me, it's like you're just giving me a reason to tell you everything.
So I did, I opened up to Zack, and he fully supported me and said that he wouldn't tell anyone about my secret, so there's one person that actually supports me, no matter what, it really makes me feel a bit better about myself.

By the end of the tour I was pretty certain that I wanted to leave, my second thoughts had subdued, and I started texting Kellin a lot more frequently about what we might call our own band, a name that we both seemed to like was Sleeping with Sirens.

All in all, I was nearly a hundred percent certain that I was leaving. Nearly. I still had second thoughts from time to time, I thought about the fans, but Zack was still there to support me and wish me luck.

Notes

OOOOHH, I'm kinda holding out on you guys, sorry, it's late, and I just had kind of an eye-opening event happen to me, so I'm a bit out of it, so, to make up for it, excpect another chapter tomorrow! (I'm always open to suggetions by the way!)
On a side note, I'll be taking IB soon, and I'm planning to focus primarily on English and whatnot, so if any of you see grammatical errors, please do tell me. <3
Also, thanks for taking the time to read my fic which I started for no reason whatsoever. :)