Welcome to my crazy life!

I woke up to my phone ringing and it was from Ashton. That's a big shock. "Hello?"
"hey alex. It's uh Ashton"

"I know. Uh what's up?"

"I didn't see you this morning. I just wanted to make sure you're okay"

"I'm fine I'm doing online now and my mom is calling me I'll talk to you later ash" I hung up and went to the bathroom and did a few cuts on my hips and cleaned up and walked down."good morning love how are?" My mom asked
"I hurt a lot momma"

"it'll be okay soon love" she said doing a half smile frown." We had some good news and bad news" I nodded. "Alan won't be home until February". I immediately started crying." No no no baby girl don't cry. Good news is that Alan said you can come and stay with him on the bus for the rest of the tour they have a free day actually free week next week and they are flying back home for it so you get to go!" I nodded and wrote thank you for letting me go. They nodded and smiled. Alan and I have been texting all day. Man this was gonna be rough being on tour with my brother and a guy who we have a thing for. With my mental stuff. For the love of god this was going to be bad. Oh did I not mention that me and Austin Carlile have a thing? He doesn't know about my stuff neither does Alan or Zack. I should say my parents are aware of it but not the anxiety or self harm or suicidal thoughts. Haha I'm just a fuck up. Alan I guess told Austin I'm staying with them and he's really excited. How are we gonna do this! It's not even time and I'm fucking panicking about it and over thinking about. What am I gonna do!!!!!! Might as well just smoke and get fucked up. And who knows what else will happen. I sneakily got some whiskey, vodka, Malibu, a few beers and what not. Parents won't know since we have a lot. Locked my door and turned on some Suicide Silence and sat on my balcony and smoked... but someone decides to face time me......

Notes

Thank you for the amount of views so far!!! I didn't expect that!! But.... CLIFFHANGER!!!! What do you think so far? Will Alan and Zack help? Will Alan fond out? What will happen once things start unfolding? Who's face timing Alex? See what happens in the update Monday night ;) Like! Subscribe! Comment?!?! Please it'll mean alot!