I Just Want A Place In Your Heart Like You Have A Place In Mine

It was nearing eight and Evan still wasn’t home. It must be going good then if he has been gone for this many hours with her. I looked up to him a lot even though he is younger than me. He is brave for being so out about being transgender, I would never have any guts to come out as anything like that. I wouldn’t be able to and I’m glad I don’t have to. Evan is kinda like the princes in fairytales. If people didn’t know Evan is FTM, they would be all over him. He is a pretty good looking guy and there I am. I’m just the lost boy in Neverland. I’ll hang out with Peter Pan but other than that I’m useless.

I got off the couch and walked over to the window, tripping on the bottom of my pajama pants. The snow was falling harder now. Maybe we wouldn’t have school tomorrow? I looked at Lacey who was sitting in a leather chair drawing away at her sketchbook. Dad was laying on the other couch watching the T.V. Mom came running into the living room yelling, “Alex, do you know when Evan will come home? I want him home soon. I don’t care if he is on a date, it’s snowing and-” She got cut off with Evan walked through the door shaking the snow from his hair.

“Young man!” She scolded. His eyes snapped to her and realization sank in.
“I’m sorry, I know I’m an hour late, I just was having a lot of fun and-” He cut himself by his blush shutting him up.
“Aw, did Evan get a girlfriend.” I said squeezing his cheeks.
“I’d be beating you up right now if I weren’t so happy.” Evan smiled and ran up the stairs.

“Wait,” Dad said sitting up. “He has a girlfriend but you don’t?” He said glaring at me.
“Yeah, apparently.” I muttered. Lacey looked up from her notebook before walking up the stairs probably not wanting to be in the argument but not before looking at me and giving a small smile.
“Whatever happened to Cassie?” Mom asked.
“We split up.” I said rolling my eyes.
“Alex, you have to settle down with someone. You’re turning sixteen in a few days.” Dad glared.
“I’m only in tenth grade! I still have my entire life ahead of me!” I hollered
“I don’t want you growing up to a be a failure.” He said with no emotion. Is he serious right now? I looked at Mom and she was glaring at him.
“Peter, stop. Now, at least, Alex will focus on football.” Mom said just trying to get my father happy and I knew she would probably talk to me later about it.
“How has your training been?” He asked.
“Good, I practice every other day. We haven’t lost a game yet this season.” I said proudly.
“That’s my son!” He cheered happily for once. Mom just laughed and turned on the news.

“The snow is falling harder now and schools in most county’s are already closed for tomorrow.” I stared at the bottom of the screen until it showed we had no school tomorrow.
“Holy shit yeah!” I screamed running around the living room.
“Alex, language.” Mom warned. I hopped onto the couch and my phone buzzed.

From Jack:
No school tomorrow! Only one more week until break!! Hell yeah!

I laughed at the text and waited about five minutes until I responded so he didn’t think like I’ve been waiting for a text from him even though I have been.

To Jack:
I know, I can’t wait!

He didn’t answer for a good ten minutes but when he did I pretty much squealed. What the hell is he doing to me?

From Jack:
Wanna come spend the night? We can study before you leave tomorrow. If you want..

I looked down at my phone smiling but wiping it off my face before my parents could see.

“Since there isn’t any school tomorrow, can I go to friends house?” I asked.
“Who?” Dad asked not looking away from the screen.
“Jack.” I whispered quietly.
“Since when do you hang out with Evan’s friend?” Dad muttered.
“If you paid any attention to your children you would know what is going on in our lives.” I gritted through my teeth.
“Don’t even give me that shit, Alex. If you wanna go, then go.” And with that I ran upstairs and slammed my door.

To Jack:
I’ll be over. I don’t think I can drive since the roads haven’t been cleared so it’ll take a little.

I started packing my bag with some clothes and textbooks and my phone beeped.

From Jack:
Alex you’ll freeze! At least let me come to your house and walk with you.

I smiled down at the iPhone in my dry hands and texted back.

To Jack:
Baby, it’s cold outside (; stay inside by the fire, I’ll be there soon.

I sent message already seeing the blush that most likely covered his face.

From Jack:
Okay fine. Just keep warm and hurry.(:

I walked out of my room and down the numerous flights of steps. I went into the mud room and slipped on my boots, winter jacket, gloves, hat, and scarf. I probably looked like a dumb snowman but oh well. It’s probably freezing outside! I said a quick goodbye to my parents before Mom could insist on driving me.

I stepped out onto the slippery sidewalk as the chilly snow hit my face. I started walking with my arms over my chest towards Jacks house. Ever since I told Cassie about my feelings for Jack they just keep getting stronger and I don’t know if I am ready to accept that. Maybe I’m just going through a phase? Of course this isn’t a fucking phase. Just every time he smiles at me I get butterflies. I wish I would we would be able to just be able to walk around town holding hands without people looking disgusted. Jack came out so early to his parents and I don’t know how he had the guts to do that, I’m terrified to even ask Jack out on one date.

I wonder what he would say if I ever asked him out? I honestly don’t know what his feelings towards me are anymore. Maybe I should try and make a move on him. I don’t know how to fricking flirt with a guy! He is turning me into a fucking girl!

After what seemed like a lifetime I finally reached his small house. I didn’t even know if I had feet anymore. My shaking hand knocked on the door and Jack in his pajamas answered the door. How can someone look attractive in their pajamas? He’ll have to tell me his secret.

“Alex, hurry, get inside! You look like freezing!” Jack said pushing me inside his house.
“Well you got that right.” I laughed dropping my bag and taking off all of my winter gear.
“Come on, I have the heat on in my room. You’re shaking.” He stated. I looked down at my hands and he was right. I was shaking a lot. He picked my bag up for me and started walking up the stairs in front of me. Unlike my house, there was only one flight of stairs so we got to his room quickly and I was still so fucking cold.

Right as we walked in I hopped into his bed and flung off my shoes and covered up with his big comforter. “Chilly?” He joked.
“Not at all,” I said rolling my eyes. “But, it was worth it.” I smiled at the lanky boy who was setting down my bag. A blush crept onto his cheeks and he looked away.
“Wanna watch a movie?” He asked still not looking at me.
“Aw, are you blushing?” I laughed.
“No! I-I can kick you out of my bed and out into the freezing snow.” He warned putting a movie into his DVD player.
“You wouldn’t dare!” I said putting my hand over my chest.
“I will.” He laughed looking at me and sitting down next to me.

He got under the covers and I moved a tad closer to him but he didn’t notice which was good. My eyes looked at the screen and Peter Pan flashed onto it.
“Happy?” He smiled looking at me.
“Very much actually.” I smiled back.
“Want some hot chocolate? He asked getting out of the bed. I nodded silently and he walked out of his bedroom saying he’d be right back.

I looked up at ceiling content. Why did he always make me so happy? I’ve only been here for five minutes and I already want him next to me again. Maybe it would be fun to mess with him a bit? I flung my shirt off and threw it on my bag and I sat up so my bare chest would be showing. He walked into his room soon after and didn’t look at me and just started rambling.

“Here’s your hot chocolate. Mom said it’s a post to snow all night! Can you believe that? I guess we will be in all night. Are you any warmer? ‘Cause if not-” He finally stopped talking when he seen I had taken off my shirt when he handed me my hot drink. “Um, uh, w-where did y-y-your shirt g-go?” That was just the reaction I was looking for.
“I heard if I take my shirt off I’ll get warmer faster.” I smirked drinking the hot chocolate. He was just standing in front of the bed, playing with his fingers and blushing.
“R-really? Where’d y-you hear th-that?” He stuttered dumbly.
“Don’t play dumb, Jack. Just come on, I wanna watch the movie.” I said as I sat my hot chocolate on the bedside table. He nodded and smiled secretly and got in bed next to me.

He was really far away from and I frowned. “I don’t bite.”
“I know.” He mumbled sipping his drink. I slowly started scooting closer to him and he said, “what a-a-re you doing?”
“I’m cold.” I complained and to be honest, I was.
“Ugh, fine. Come here.” He said pretending to be annoyed but I know he wasn’t. I moved closer to him and he put his arm around my shoulder.
“Y’know I’d get warmer if you took your shirt off too.” I flirted, nudging his side with my elbow.
“Are you trying to g-get me n-naked?” He laughed.
“Nope, I just wanna get warm.” I smirked with a laughed. It wasn't a complete lie. He laughed and mumbled something under his breath and took his shirt off. He put his arm around my back and I slowly leaned into his shoulder just to make sure it was okay.

“This okay?” I asked quietly.
“As long as it’s okay with you.” He smiled and rested his head on mine.

Notes

OMG GUYS IM SO SORRY!! I was extremely ill and I couldn't update but I'm back! Since I haven't updated for a while I thought I'd give you guys a little Jalex (;

AND OMG DO YOU GUYS LIKE SOMETHINGS GOTTA GIVE?!?! ME AND MY GRANDMA WAITED UP TILL 1:30 AM FOR IT. (my grandma loves atl aha) Also you guys got tickets to futures hearts tour?? I do! 2 dates! Woohoo!

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