A Love Like War

I don't know how I feel, or how to face it. All I want is to die, after my parents died things been difficult for me and I have no idea of how I face them. Kellin is always here for me and I know I can count on him and the band. But to be honest, there's just one thing that keeps me going Alex Gaskarth and his band, All Time Low. Everyday when I feel I can't move on, that's what I do. I think about them and on how they are saving a lot of kids out there, that can barely move on. I lost my parents, but I still have my brother. Kellin helped me through a lot of stuff. Eating disorders, anxiety, depression, self harming..and he's still helping me. He haven't give up on me like most people do..I had a best friend, Abby...I told her everything about me and of how I was battling, but she just left me and started to treat me like if I was nothing. I'm picked on at school, not just because I'm a nerd, but because I'm different. But Kellin said different is beautiful...and I believe him. I made my way downstairs, making sure my sleeves cover my recent cuts. Kellin was watching a movie and I joined him. I sat next to him and he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my temple.
"Are you okay, baby girl?", he asked.
I nodded, "I'm fine.."
"Do you want to order food or you want my awesome homecooking?"
I chuckled, "You suck at cooking, Kellin"
"I was talking about cereal, maybe is the only thing I don't burn.."
"Let's order food.."
"Okay..", he said as he kissed my forehead.
"Is so cold in here.."
"Cold? Mia, are you sick?", he asked as he placed his hand in my forehead.
"I'm fine.."
"Take the hoodie off.."
"Why?"
"Show me your wrists.."
"What for?"
"Mia Kelly Quinn!"
"I don't know why you want me to take it off, when you know what you'll find.."
"Mia you need to stop.."
"It helps me forget about the pain.."
"No it doesn't..It's killing you"
I looked down at my palms and let the tears I've been holding back fall, "I-I'm sorry"
"I'm here..you know you can talk to me..", he said as he holded me.
Kellin had done enough and he doesn't needs to do more. I love my brother more than anyone and I'm glad he haven't give up on me. He's always here for me and I couldn't ask for more. If something I know is that he's always going to be here for me, taking care of me, holding me, protecting me. But I know that won't last long, he'll make his life and forget about me.
"Hold me.."
"Here I am, princess"
"I just need time, Kellin"
"I know, sweetheart"
"Why you haven't walk out on me?"
He lifted my chin up, "Because I love you, you're my sister and I'm going to be here until the end, okay?"
"Thank you..", I said as I hugged him.
"I love you, Mia.."
"I love you more"
Kellin kissed my forehead and ordered food. To be honest, he's the sweetest person I know...he's caring and very overprotective too. I standed up and made my way up the stairs, I needed to go to bed early since tomorrow I'm going to the hell, I call school. I sat in my bed and sighed. Kellin got in and sat next to me.
"Everything is going to be fine, okay? I'll pick you up early", he said as he kissed my cheek.
I nodded, "I hope.."
"Good night, sweetie", he said as he hugged me, kissed my temple and left my room.
I don't know how I'll ever survive without Kellin. There's something that tells me that tomorrow is going to be the worst day ever..

Notes

My first fanfiction in this site!! Hopw you like it :D