Switchblade Attitude.
13. It Kills Me To Say Our Goodbyes As We Turn The Page And Move Onto The Next Chapter.
Alex
It was about 9am when I finally woke up with a stinking hangover, I crawl out of bed and go towards the medicine cabinet grabbing a couple of pain killers and heading into the front lounge to see everyone looking pretty assertive for the morning anyway.
“What’s going on?”
Zack was the first to answer
“We have a photo shoot today”
“Do we have too?”
“Yes Alex, you’ll like it when we get there alright?”
“Whatever”
I go off into the back looking for Delilah I know we had another big argument last night, but I wanted to make it right, if my plan to get Ivy back was going to work, she will need to be here and be good with me.
“Delilah?”
“Alex”
“Hey I’m sorry about last night; you know I don’t mean it. I just get drunk and then angry. I’m so sorry.”
“You’re not sorry Alex; can you even remember what we fought about?”
I try replaying last night in my head; all I can remember is me screaming at her.
“No, like I said I was drunk”
“We spoke about Ivy Alex, then you started going mental at me, for not being her. For not loving you like she did. I said that she didn’t love you enough to not leave you and you just got more mad, I had no idea what you wanted me to do”
“Delilah I’m sorry but I just can’t talk about her, she was my first real love, and it hurts knowing how she left me”
“It’s not just that Alex, you’re right I’m not her and I can’t love you the way that she did, but I can leave you the same way as she did.”
“What do you mean...Leave me?”
“Alex I’m getting out of here, and today my plane is in a few hours and a taxi is coming by soon to get me, if you ever need me you know I’m here for you. But just can’t be near you right now. I’m sorry. I love you Alex, but I have to let you go, you need to be with Ivy not me.”
“Wait your serious? You’re leaving me?”
“Yes baby, if a miracle happens and you realise you love me, then that door will always be open”
I never thought I would feel like this, but I didn’t want her to leave. She was part of my plan and now she’s leaving? I knew there was nothing I could do to change her mind.
“Alright, I’ll miss you De”
I wrapped my arms tightly around her, and kissed her.
“We should go tell the others?”
“Sure”
We walk into the front lounge hand in hand
“Guys we have something to tell you”
The shock look on their faces made me giggle, Jack was the first to speak
“You guys aren’t having a baby are you?”
“No Jack, Delilah is leaving today”
“Oh, well have fun back in America, but Alex you need to get ready, we are going to be at
this photo shoot about 1:30 ”
I knew they weren’t too bothered about it, they never really liked her. They think she made me worse than I already was, they knew she was just to get over Ivy.
“Okay! What do I need to wear or do they have that planned out there?”
“I have no idea so just wear whatever”
“Alright”
I took Delilah with me, not wanting her to leave so soon
“De, why didn’t you tell me you were going to leave?”
“Well I’ve been thinking about it since Ivy came back on the scene, you’ve literally just been
a drunk idiot for the past week, I know that you’re trying to get over her but every time you get drunk you always shout at me for everything that’s ever gone wrong between the relationship you once had with her. I just can’t be around that anymore, not just that I know none of the guys like me, they all want you with that Ivy girl not me”
“I’m sorry Delilah I never intended to hurt you, I didn’t mean for any of this to happen”
“Its fine Alex, I knew you couldn’t ever feel for me the way you felt for her, I’m getting out now whilst I still can because if I stay around for much longer I’m just going to fall for you harder”
“I will miss you”
“I’ll miss you too”
There was a beep outside.
“That will be mine; I need to do a few things before I leave so I wanted to go early”
“Okay”
I walked her to the door of the bus. I cuddled her before she got into the taxi.
I hurried to get ready for our shoot, I knew we couldn’t be late Zack looked like he was going to kill me when it got to about 1:10
“Zack I couldn’t find anything to wear, but I’m ready okay?”
“Well, you should be happy because actually no I can’t tell you”
“What?”
“Nothing”
I ignored whatever Zack was saying; I walked towards the fridge taking a shot of Vodka
“Guys are we walking to the Studio?”
“Yes, that’s why we have to leave now Alex”
“Urgh great can’t wait for this”
“I bet you can’t”
I saw Zack nudge him and shake his head at Jack, I had no Idea what was going on with them today and I didn’t want to know.
As we walk into the front of the studio my eyes searched all around, until they fell on the girl nearly directly in front of me, and the man holding her hand.
Did they plan this? I honestly did not know what to do; I was too excited to talk. I just wanted her close to me again. I needed her so much.
I looked over to Rian who was also looking at me, he winked at me. I gave him a confused expression before turning my eyes to look at her again, she looked angry; maybe she didn’t want to see us. She wanted everything to be normal again she wanted to go back to not talking to us. I could read her like a book; I guess that is what you get when you’ve known a person for too long.
It was about 9am when I finally woke up with a stinking hangover, I crawl out of bed and go towards the medicine cabinet grabbing a couple of pain killers and heading into the front lounge to see everyone looking pretty assertive for the morning anyway.
“What’s going on?”
Zack was the first to answer
“We have a photo shoot today”
“Do we have too?”
“Yes Alex, you’ll like it when we get there alright?”
“Whatever”
I go off into the back looking for Delilah I know we had another big argument last night, but I wanted to make it right, if my plan to get Ivy back was going to work, she will need to be here and be good with me.
“Delilah?”
“Alex”
“Hey I’m sorry about last night; you know I don’t mean it. I just get drunk and then angry. I’m so sorry.”
“You’re not sorry Alex; can you even remember what we fought about?”
I try replaying last night in my head; all I can remember is me screaming at her.
“No, like I said I was drunk”
“We spoke about Ivy Alex, then you started going mental at me, for not being her. For not loving you like she did. I said that she didn’t love you enough to not leave you and you just got more mad, I had no idea what you wanted me to do”
“Delilah I’m sorry but I just can’t talk about her, she was my first real love, and it hurts knowing how she left me”
“It’s not just that Alex, you’re right I’m not her and I can’t love you the way that she did, but I can leave you the same way as she did.”
“What do you mean...Leave me?”
“Alex I’m getting out of here, and today my plane is in a few hours and a taxi is coming by soon to get me, if you ever need me you know I’m here for you. But just can’t be near you right now. I’m sorry. I love you Alex, but I have to let you go, you need to be with Ivy not me.”
“Wait your serious? You’re leaving me?”
“Yes baby, if a miracle happens and you realise you love me, then that door will always be open”
I never thought I would feel like this, but I didn’t want her to leave. She was part of my plan and now she’s leaving? I knew there was nothing I could do to change her mind.
“Alright, I’ll miss you De”
I wrapped my arms tightly around her, and kissed her.
“We should go tell the others?”
“Sure”
We walk into the front lounge hand in hand
“Guys we have something to tell you”
The shock look on their faces made me giggle, Jack was the first to speak
“You guys aren’t having a baby are you?”
“No Jack, Delilah is leaving today”
“Oh, well have fun back in America, but Alex you need to get ready, we are going to be at
this photo shoot about 1:30 ”
I knew they weren’t too bothered about it, they never really liked her. They think she made me worse than I already was, they knew she was just to get over Ivy.
“Okay! What do I need to wear or do they have that planned out there?”
“I have no idea so just wear whatever”
“Alright”
I took Delilah with me, not wanting her to leave so soon
“De, why didn’t you tell me you were going to leave?”
“Well I’ve been thinking about it since Ivy came back on the scene, you’ve literally just been
a drunk idiot for the past week, I know that you’re trying to get over her but every time you get drunk you always shout at me for everything that’s ever gone wrong between the relationship you once had with her. I just can’t be around that anymore, not just that I know none of the guys like me, they all want you with that Ivy girl not me”
“I’m sorry Delilah I never intended to hurt you, I didn’t mean for any of this to happen”
“Its fine Alex, I knew you couldn’t ever feel for me the way you felt for her, I’m getting out now whilst I still can because if I stay around for much longer I’m just going to fall for you harder”
“I will miss you”
“I’ll miss you too”
There was a beep outside.
“That will be mine; I need to do a few things before I leave so I wanted to go early”
“Okay”
I walked her to the door of the bus. I cuddled her before she got into the taxi.
I hurried to get ready for our shoot, I knew we couldn’t be late Zack looked like he was going to kill me when it got to about 1:10
“Zack I couldn’t find anything to wear, but I’m ready okay?”
“Well, you should be happy because actually no I can’t tell you”
“What?”
“Nothing”
I ignored whatever Zack was saying; I walked towards the fridge taking a shot of Vodka
“Guys are we walking to the Studio?”
“Yes, that’s why we have to leave now Alex”
“Urgh great can’t wait for this”
“I bet you can’t”
I saw Zack nudge him and shake his head at Jack, I had no Idea what was going on with them today and I didn’t want to know.
As we walk into the front of the studio my eyes searched all around, until they fell on the girl nearly directly in front of me, and the man holding her hand.
Did they plan this? I honestly did not know what to do; I was too excited to talk. I just wanted her close to me again. I needed her so much.
I looked over to Rian who was also looking at me, he winked at me. I gave him a confused expression before turning my eyes to look at her again, she looked angry; maybe she didn’t want to see us. She wanted everything to be normal again she wanted to go back to not talking to us. I could read her like a book; I guess that is what you get when you’ve known a person for too long.
Notes
Next chapter should be up tomorrow!
-Kay
@Forgetful-Insomniacs
I hope you've been okay sweet.
Ive been dealing with it and it's getting better now, I love this story but there isn't much I can do with it anymore but I might start another one soon! And when I do I'll post the link on here
-Kayxo
2/26/15