Kiss and Sell

"I love you."

It wasn't what he was expecting to come out of his mouth, and by the look on Alex's face he wasn't expecting it either, and for some reason after Jack stupidly blurted the words all he could do was laugh, a fierce blush crossing his face as he continued, "I do. I -oh my god -I love you. I really love you." He laughed nervously, watching as all Alex did was stare at him with an unreadable look while being unable to control himself and continued to ramble on, "I-I know you don't believe in love or wh-whatever you have going on, but I-I really do, Alex, I really love you. I love your smile and your hair and your voice and your stupid personality, a-and everything you do I just love it. Especially when your mad at m-me and you make this face and I know I'm just pissing you off but it's so cute and all I want to do is kiss you and tell you how much I love you, b-but I get so scared to say it because I think it's too fast and too soon and it took me this long to get you and I don't want to fuck it up and lose you somehow and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Please don't break up with me for saying it because it's too soon, please. I can't live without you. I love you."

"Stop saying it." Alex said, pushing at Jack's chest when he leaned closer to him. He felt overwhelmed and smothered because he was sure Jack expected him to say it back, but he couldn't say it back. He wasn't ready, Jack was right it was too soon for him. He was always so confused about his emotions for Jack. When he was around he loved him, but when he wasn't he hated him and everything he ever did to him.

Jack hesitated, seeing the seriousness in Alex's face and felt slightly disappointed and a bit worried he was actually going to break up with him if he said it again, "I love you."

"Stop!"

Alex covered his ears with his hands and shook his head, writhing slightly as Jack wrapped his arms around him and clasped his hands around his knees that were pulled to Alex's chest, "I can't stop. I've been holding it in too long. I love you so much, Alex." He kissed the side of his head and then moved his kisses down to Alex's neck while whispering, "I want you to take my virginity and to marry you and have a hundred kids together and to wake up every morning until we both have gray hair and be able to say 'I love you' everyday for the rest of our lives."

Alex felt tears weld in his eyes as he shook his head, but Jack just continued to kiss him and mumble, "I love you so much." Against his skin.

"It feels so good to say it." He murmured, looking down at Alex who turned in his arms and hid his face in Jack's chest. Alex had tears falling down his face. He wasn't sure if it was because Jack was so sweet to him and said such beautiful words, or that he was angry with himself for not being able to say sweet things back to someone who meant so much to him, "I love you."

"Please stop." Alex whimpered, "I-I can't say it back, Jack, I ju-just can't. I d-don't know how I-I feel."

"You don't have to say it back, dimples." Jack whispered, kissing Alex's hair and hugging him tighter as he breathed, "As long as you don't hate me for loving you you won't have to say it ever if you don't want to."

"Why would I ever hate you?" Alex asked, pulling back and wiping away his tears before looking up and pressing his lips gently against Jack's, "How could anyone hate someone as sweet as you?"

Jack pushed his lips back onto Alex's, savoring his taste, before whispering, "I love you." Against them for what could possibly be the hundredth time out of many to come. Alex smiled a little, hoping it wasn't too obvious how happy it made him to hear Jack say those words and mean it before he suddenly asked, "You're a virgin?"

Jack blushed, "Oh god I was hoping you didn't catch that."

Alex laughed, shaking his head at his boyfriend, "I'm not that surprised. You were always weird whenever we did anything." He shrugged, leaning forward to rest his head on Jack's shoulder while Jack let out a little sigh and pulled him between his legs and snuggled closer as they watched the sun begin to rise fully.

"I know. I was just scared you'd leave me after we had sex." He admitted, blushing. He felt like he was an open book to Alex now. Something about saying 'I love you' seemed to change Jack and even Alex somewhat noticed. Maybe having it so pent up all the time made it hard for him to admit even small things.

"I don't think I'd ever leave you, Jack. You're my best friend and you've put up with me since, like, forever." He said, returning to facing Jack from where he had turned slightly to look at the sun, "Plus you took me out on my first date."

"What?" Jack asked, frowning in confusion, "You've dated before."

Alex rolled his eyes, "I had a boyfriend; I never went out on a date."

Jack hummed, "Wait, so this is our first date?"

"Yeah, duh, you took me out ice skating; that's totally a date thing, silly." Alex chuckled, leaning forward and pressing a kiss to Jack's lips while the younger sighed contently into it. Jack could feel the snow melting from behind him and the water seeping into his clothes, but he didn't care because right now he was exactly where he wanted to be with Alex and he wouldn't give him or this moment up for the world.

"I love you." He whispered again, hearing Alex hum into the crook of his neck making him smile happily, actually feeling elation coursing through him for the first time in quite a while.

"You really want to marry a slut like me?" Alex asked quietly, looking at his boyfriend who frowned at the word.

"You're not a slut."

"You call me a slut all the time." Alex retorted.

Jack's frown deepened, "I don't mean it, Alex. You're not a slut, and I really do want to marry you someday." He truly meant that. He had so many day dreams about marrying Alex and having hundreds (not even an exaggeration he's really thought up a hundred kids and a hundred names just for those kids he's got a fucking list on his laptop) of kids running around in their big house he'd somehow pay for with a room for every single one of them and how they'd watch the sunset every night in the backyard with all of them and Alex would teach them all about stars and Jack would teach them all to play guitar and maybe Alex could even teach them to sing and that's how Jack really spends most of his days just thinking about things that probably were less than likely to happen as perfect as he hoped, but a boy could dream and Jack did a lot of it.

"Why?"

"Because I love you."

Notes

AND EVERYONE THOUGHT ALEX WAS GOING TO BE A DOUCHE ABOUT IT. Anyways yep Jack said it oh goodness only sixty fucking chapters later right?!

Also, I'll try and post a few more chapters later (probs one or none dont get your hopes up) because like its took me five days okay five days to update when i've literally got the rest of the goddamn chapters finished already for part one of this. I am lazy af.