Kiss and Sell

Alex didn't want Jack to see his face. No, not at all. He had already rejected his kiss, he couldn't have him seeing how ugly he looked too, but when he woke up the next morning -having told himself he'd wake up before Jack the night before -Jack was already up and gone from the side of the bed he had fallen asleep on last night. He had scooted all the way over -back to Alex -and fell asleep without so much as even glancing at Alex again. Alex knew he hadn't liked him that way and just wanted to forget that the kiss ever happened, but he just couldn't. He couldn't forget how he felt. It was different from his usual fucks and when he'd kiss them. It felt like more than just needy lips slotting together to lead to bed. Alex didn't know how to explain how it felt. It was nice.

He wasn't going to admit that to Jack, though. He was going to stay quiet and pretend it never happened for as long as he could. He glanced at the time -seeing it was about three in the afternoon which mean he had slept a lot longer than he expected and groaned a little as he sat up. He needed to piss -he could feel his bladder filling and about to spill over -but it was so hard to get out of bed with his ribs rubbing against his lung and rendering him near impossible to even move and breath for a moment -but he got up and waddled to the bathroom.

From inside the little room he heard the door open and close to Jack's room -assuming it was Jack. He glanced down at his piss -still pinking with blood in color. He didn't know what it meant, but obviously it wasn't good. He flushed the toilet and walked out slowly -careful of his side as he looked up and saw Jack standing right in front of him. He opened his mouth to say something, but closed it as he frowned at Alex's face. Alex bowed his head and adverted his eyes -feeling so insecure which he's never really felt before.

"I didn't want you to see it..." Alex said softly -meaning his face.

"I already looked when you were asleep." Jack said -Alex hearing no remorse in his words. He knew Alex hadn't wanted him to look at him, but he did anyways. Alex felt a little more hurt Jack was so easy to just do whatever he wanted and not care if it bothered Alex.

He frowned a little and snapped, "Well, I didn't want you to, I still don't!"

Jack scoffed a little, "Well, I fucking did. Get over it."

Alex felt the pain welding up in his heart -clenching it as the beats quickened in pace. His face turned red out of embarrassment and shame and probably anger too as he said, "Well you shouldn't have! And I won't get over it! You're fucking rude."

Jack laughed bitterly, "Maybe you should have thought about that when I told you this was going to fucking happen. Maybe you should have listened to me and none of this would of happened."

"Yeah, maybe I should have 'cause then I wouldn't have kissed you!" Alex cried. And, wow, that hurt. Jack stepped back a little as if the insult had slapped him in the face itself and stared at Alex with his mouth agape as the elder continued loudly, "It's not like I even asked for this! I didn't ask for my dad to kick my ass!"

"Well, he did," Jack retorted oh so cleverly, "And you're sitting here and doing nothing about it."

"What do you expect me to fucking do?!" Alex screamed. Jack didn't even care that his parents were down stairs. He hoped they heard everything. Maybe they'd leave him alone about how he should ask Alex out because now it was obvious Alex didn't like him anymore. He hated him now. "You expect me to be a fucking man? Well, guess the fuck what. I'm not! I'm a terrified little bitch who's hurt and expecting his best friend to at least help him a little but all you fucking do is push me away and, yeah, I fucking messed up and probably should have listened to you but that doesn't mean you have to be a fucking dick!" He cried before turning away and saying, "I just wanted you to help me, I didn't need a goddamn lecture I've been giving myself for the past six years, okay? I just... I just want everything to go back to no-normal..." He bowed his head before turning back around to continue but Jack was cutting him off as he pulled at his hair fiercely, "It can't be. It'll never be normal again because of you! You know what I want? I want you to call the fucking cops! Your dad tried to fucking kill you Alex! He left you out in the road because he already thought you were dead! And now he's coming after me because you're a goddamn idiot!" He shouted.

"He didn't think I was d-dead." Alex argued weakly.

"Alex, do you even realize how long you've been gone? When did this even happen?" Jack asked -gesturing to Alex's face.

"The day you dropped me off."

"Alex! That was five fucking days ago!" Jack cried, "He thought you were fucking dead. He was trying to dump your body, you fucking idiot!"

Alex felt his tears brimming his eyes as he tried to blink them away, "Why is he after you then? How do you even know he's after you?"

Jack sighed a little, "I went to your house looking for you and your mom said he was looking for me because I gave you drugs."

"You didn't!" Alex cried suddenly. Jack nodded -rolling his eyes, "I fucking know I didn't give you drugs, you idiot." He said before pinching the bridge of his nose and saying, "Do you do drugs?"

Alex bit his lip as he looked down at his feet making Jack groan and say, "You are the fucking stupidest person I've ever met. Do you know how fucked up that shit will make you Alex?! What is wrong with you?! Do you want to go to prison or something?! What if you are caught?!"

"I haven't even done any since the first time!" Alex cried.

Jack began pacing and pulling at his hair before turning and looking at him, "You're never doing that again. Not drugs, not drinking, nothing. I don't care if I have to tie you down in my goddamn basement, you're not ruining your life."

"It's already over!" Alex screamed, "I'm already a fucking worthless piece of trash! My dad sure did see me as one seeing as he dumped my unconscious body in the middle of the fucking road! What the fuck exactly am I ruining?! A-and who says you can even boss me around! I'm not your goddamn sex slave, Jack! I am not doing shit. I will do and stop whatever the fuck I want to do and stop!" He shouted.

Jack furrowed his brow, "Everything you want to do is pathetic. You're a fucking whore because you're scared of people hurting you and then you do drugs and drink to help you deal with your problems. That's fucking pathetic." And Jack felt like a horrible, horrible hypocrite, but it wasn't like he was going to come out and tell Alex he cut and understood why he did all these horrible, self harming things because he was trying to make a point. Alex needed to stop because drugs and alcohol was different from cutting, right? "You're stopping. I don't care if you not my boyfriend. You're not doing this to yourself. I wont let you."

And Alex would feel really flattered Jack cared so much if he wasn't fucking pissed. He knew he should just let Jack help him but he wasn't going to because who did he think he was telling Alex what the fuck to do? So, instead of giving in and rolling over, Alex just started screaming, "I don't have to! You're not my mom!" and he never felt this pissed off. Usually, it was the other way around. He was used to irritating Jack until he was about to blow, but now the tables had turned.

Jack looked completely calm as he scoffed and crossed his arms over his chest, "As if your mom would tell you to do anything. She's just as fucked up as you are."

That's when Alex blew up. He didn't realize what he was doing until he slapped Jack right across the face -seeing his hand print stained a deep shade of irritating red across Jack's face. Jack furrowed his brow -completely calm as he cupped his cheek. Obviously, he was shocked Alex had even thought about slapping him. Alex shouted, "Don't you dare talk about my mother she is a good woman and you have no right to say anything about her!! You don't even know her, as a matter of fact, you don't even fucking know me!! I don't have to listen to you, and you do not ever talk about either of my parents or I wont hesitate to kick your fucking ass!" He slapped him again -Jack already having his hand dropped as he listened to Alex defend the man who beat him, the woman who lied and got him beat in the first place -first hand print being overlapped with another just as stinging and red -and Jack didn't know if he was hurt (okay he was pretty hurt in his face) or completely turned on. He didn't react to the turn on, though, it could be used for another day -instead he grabbed Alex as he went to punch Jack in the chest -only hitting him once right in the peck and making Jack wince -before raising his hand to fight back because Jack wasn't going to not hit him back, but then Alex flinched and ducked -suddenly dropping to his knees with Jack's hand still holding his arm up.

Jack let him go -still utterly shocked he had slapped him in the face, twice (and the might have really liked it) and began to pace back and forth. He was about to scream -turned around to yell right in Alex's face -when he looked down to see Alex a quivering, crying mess on his floor at the foot of his bed. He closed his opened mouth -forgetting completely about yelling or even the slaps (but his dick didn't) and stepped forward to maybe help him -reaching down to pick Alex up and dust him off (maybe kiss him and make up) but Alex cringed and held up his arms to shield his face from anything that was coming to him.

Jack stared down at him -hurt he was flinching from him and scared he'd actually hurt him like how his father had. He was never scared of Jack slapping him around before, liked it before, but now Jack could tell he was terrified of him. He whimpered as Jack lowered to his knee -pushing himself further against the bed and wanting to curl up but couldn't because of his ribs -and slowly lowered his arms as he looked over at Jack. The raven haired boy bowed his head -feeling ashamed he had raised his hand at him -and listened to Alex sniffle as he moved to sit in between his legs that were only slightly spread from where he had got on them and sat on the back of his thighs. He hid his face in the crook of Jack's neck -not really wanting his comfort but then again just craving his touch -and felt Jack wrap his arms around his middle.

Jack's arm slipped up and hit his ribs making him cry louder suddenly -Jack wincing at the sound and looking down while asking, "What'd I do?"

Alex grabbed his hand and led it to be over his shoulder instead of under his own arms and shifted to bow his head under Jack's chin and look down at how uncomfortable Jack's legs had stretched to fit him in between them. He felt bad for putting him in an uncomfortable position, but not that bad, and let his arms fold under Jack's arms so his hands rested on Jack's shoulder blades.

"Sh-she's a good w-woman... Y-you shou-shouldn't ta-talk about h-her that w-way." Alex whimpered into his chest making Jack sigh a little and hold him a little tighter -Alex returning it by squeezing him closer as well. He felt Jack place his hand on the back of his head and curl his fingers in his hair as he rubbed his back a little. He thought he felt Jack kiss his head, but he could be wrong. As he calmed down he quickly regained his composure and decided he was mad at Jack, so, he pushed him away half-heartedly and whimpered, "I-I want to g-go somewhere e-else." with his arms crossing over his chest.

"You're not going back home." Jack stated -having no more energy to argue with the elder boy.

"I don't want to go home. I just wa-want to go somewhere else. Anywhere but here."

Alex looked up to see Jack's hurt eyes. He didn't know why Jack cared so much. It's not like he liked him. He bowed his head again and Jack nodded slowly as he breathed, "Fine, where do you want to go then?"

"Brendon's." Alex muttered.

Notes

I feel like their arguments make no since sometimes. Hopefully this wasn't too bad xD.

Anyways, ALEX IS GOING TO BRENDON'S I CAN'T BELIEVE IM DOING THIS TO EVERYONE IM SORRY HE CANT STAY WITH JACK BECAUSE HE TRIED TO SLAP HIM OH SORRY

Its not gonna happen ever I gave you Jalex and I took it away omg I'm such a horrible person ugh.