Kiss Me Again

Alex has been acting really weird today.
Weird as in...distant.
He hasn't said more to me than "hey" when I woke up this morning!
No hugs, no kisses, not even a wink! And being the flirty person that he is, that's really surprising!!
But he hasn't spoken to anyone, really. He's just looked really tense all day, with the same unreadable expression on his face.
He hasn't come to meet me after my classes, and in algebra, he didn't even give me a glance. I tried writing him a note asking what's up, and it was like he didn't even acknowledge it! After a while, he actually did look at it, but he just turned for a second and gave me a little forced smile. Then, at the end of class, he sprinted out the door.
I really wonder what's wrong with him?
He seems to want some space. I guess I'll ask him about it later...
I walked into the cafeteria and sat in my usual seat with the guys, but Alex wasn't there. I was wondering where he was, but then I just shrugged it off, thinking that maybe he just went to the bathroom.
After 20 minutes though, I was starting to worry again. The guys noticed his absence, as well.
"Hey, have you heard from Alex?" Rian asked me, concerned.
I sighed and shrugged.
"Not a single word."
Jack took a sip of his light blue Gatorade, and furrowed his brows.
"Hasn't he seemed a little...off to you, lately?"
I thought about it and nodded.
"Well that's weird.." Zack started.
"I know he hasn't talked to us, but he hasn't talked to you?? Are you guys okay?"
I sighed and looked down at my opened bag of chips.
"I really hope so..."

After school, I met Alex at his locker.
He didn't really acknowledge me. It was really starting to bum me out.
"Hey, babe." I tried.
He shut his locker and gave me a tiny smile before starting to walk to his car.
I sighed, and followed him.

The whole ride home was completely silent. I would sneak little glances at him to try to see what was going on through his head, but he just sat here, stone-faced.
When he parked the car in the driveway, neither of us got out. I turned to look at him. He had a bit of a sad expression, and he was staring down at his hands.
I can't fucking take it anymore.
"Alex! We pretty much live together now! You can't just try to keep putting it off and escaping me! You know I'm going to ask you sooner or later, so just...tell me."
He turned his head to me, and just stared at me for a moment.
"Alex, please tell me what's wrong.."
He stared at me a bit longer, then the most dreadful words came out of his mouth.
"I think we should break-up."
Right when I heard those words, I froze.
I couldn't speak, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't even think. I just froze.
The realization of what he said hit him, and his eyes widened.
"Wait! No, I-"
I cut him off by quickly scrambling out of the car, and pacing to the front door with tears starting to fill up in my eyes.
He wants to break up? What did I do? What did I say? How could he?
I entered the house, and started walking towards the stairs, wanting to just pack my bags and go.
He caught up to me though, and grabbed my arm before I could walk up a step.
I spun around and scowled at him.
"If you want me to go then I'll just go, Alex!!"
"No, Tay! I don't, I just- I'm just...I'm really fucking stressed out right now!" He grabbed at his hair in frustration.
"Why, Alex? Why are you so fucking stressed?!"
He sighed, and hung his head in defeat.
He mumbled something inaudible.
"What?" I furrowed my brows.
"I said I got a B." He said more clearer.
"I went down to a B in one of my classes, and its gonna be on the report card this quarter, and I can't change it."
There was silence.
By the time he looked back up, I was already halfway up the stairs.
He came running after me.
"Tay, wait!"
"Alex, are you fucking kidding me?!? You're really that distressed over a fucking B? You could pull that shit back up to an A in no time, what's the big deal??" I yelled, feeling anger run through me.
He shook his head.
"Y-you don't get it, Tay."
I glared at him.
"Oh, what don't I get?? You're giving yourself so much shit because your grade changed from an A to a fucking B!! Because you have to be Mr. Perfect Gaskarth, right? You walk around smiling to everybody with your little facade that you're the most happiest person in the world, but you're not. And you know you're not. So why do you do it, Alex? Huh? Tell me, why?!?"
His face held a really sad expression after my outburst. He looked down at the ground, and took a deep breath before answering.
"I don't do it for popularity, if that's what you're thinking. I do it because..well...because of my dad. I-I always feel pressured to be the best, because that's all he expects me to be. It's always been- 'get straight As every single time', and 'don't be a fucking weakling', and 'stand with pride' and all that. And yeah, I know I'm far from perfect, but I kinda have to be.."
It fell silent for a while.
I instantly felt even shittier, if possible.
"Alex, you don't have to be. Your dad should be proud of you, no matter what."
He shook his head, and looked back down at his feet.
"I've never gotten a B, before..ever." He whispered, sounding disappointed.
"I'm sorry I must have ruined that for you. I didn't mean to.." I sniffled.
His head popped up at that, and he walked over and wrapped his arms around me.
"Shit..no, Tay. No no no, it's not your fault. I'm sorry I acted that way...I'm sorry I said that, I was just-"
"You were stressed, I know. But its j-just that...y-you didn't talk to me all day, and when you did you said...th-that." I sobbed into his shirt.
"I know, and I'm sorry, I'm a jerk and a dumbass to ever even suggest breaking up with you. I don't know what was going on in my head, I didn't mean that. I shouldn't have taken it out on you. I need you, Tay. I don't want you to leave, ever." He kissed the top of my head, and hugged me even tighter.
We stood there for a moment, content in each others embrace.
"You know that thing you said? About you being far from perfect?" I whispered.
"Yeah?"
"You're wrong. You're the most perfect boy I've ever met."

Notes

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