I need to find a reason to feel,
Like everything was meant to be let go,

The two men finished the rest of their dinner in silence. Neither one of them knew what to say. Both Jack and Alex cleaned the table and washed the used dishes, putting them up after they were dry. Jack awkwardly took a seat on the couch and Alex leaned on the countertop, looking right at Jack.

“Jack, you’re a really strong person you know that?” Alex blurted out, killing the silence.

“What do you mean?” Jack turned at the brunette.

“Well, you’ve managed to deal with the loss of your girlfriend for so long. People move on fairly quickly, and those that don’t move on hurt themselves or even end up killing themselves. But you, you’ve managed to live with that for so long. I know you’re special someone will surely cross your path,” A warm smile began to form on Alex’s face.


You have no idea.


“I guess you’re right,” Jack covered his mouth with his palm, thinking about the fact that he was going to do away with his life. But didn’t because of this guy. He felt disappointed in himself. Alex said all these nice things to him and here he was, trying to get away from him to kill himself. Alex was a really nice person. Jack never thought he’d ever make friends with anyone again, but he was sure as hell happy he met Alex.

“I lost my girlfriend too. About a few years ago,” Alex said grabbing a chair, turning it around and sitting on it backwards.

“Why did you guys break up? If I may ask,” Jack looked at Alex. His expression completely changed after he said that.


Shit.


Why’d you ask that?


You’re such an asshole.


“Well we didn’t exactly break up, you see. She um, took her own life one day. After arguing with her parents. They had really high expectations set for her, she exceed them all. Even so, that wasn’t enough for them. Her dad use to abuse her physically and emotionally, yet she always found a reason to smile. I never would’ve guessed a cheery, social lite like her would ever go through the horrible things she suffered. Well I moved from England during middle school. I met her there my first day, She was the one to show me around school and everything. We became great friends and we spent all of our middle school years together. During my freshman year I confessed to her and she accepted me. After dating her for a few months I became aware of her home life and how much she was suffering. I was so determined to keep her safe, I told her to run away with me. I would find a job and make sure her dad would never hurt her again. But I was only sixteen. I told her to live with me at my house for the meantime. It was only Dad, Mom, and I. She was able to stay with us for about a week, until her parents found out where she was. They took her home, and god knows what they did to her. They did something so terrible that s-she…” Alex’s eyes began to fill with tears. Jack walked up to him a hugged him tightly. Letting Alex cry on his shoulder.

“I’m so sorry Alex,” The dark haired man began to rub circles on the brunette’s back.

“I-it’s o-okay. I-it was for the better. She was s-suffering too much. I used to blame myself for her death. But I feel like there r-really wasn’t any-thing m-more I could do. May-maybe if I-”

“Alex, death is inevitable. You couldn’t have done anything else. Don’t blame yourself. You did your best. You were willing to give up everything for her. That was very brave of you too. You did all that you could to keep her safe, she loved you and you loved her,” Jack whispered.

“Th-thank you J-jack,” Alex pulled away from the hug to look at the younger man’s eyes.
“Hey, you heard me out. So now it was my turn to hear you,”

“You’re right, I-I guess,” Alex smiled slightly.

“Now let’s go set up that room of yours,” Jack grabbed Alex’s shoulder. They both walked towards the brunette’s room and Jack helped Alex unpack his things and inflate his bed.


Jack and Alex have been living with each other for about a month. They didn’t do much but just work and sleep. They occasionally watched television together and listen to music as they ate dinner. Alex was hired at Horizons thanks to Jack and their schedules were slightly different. So there were times when Jack was at home and Alex was at work, vice-versa. When the weekend came along, they both went to the pub. Alex would go play his acoustic sets while Jack drank. It’d become a routine for them. Yet this Sunday, Alex wanted to change plans. After his set, he and Alex walked into the parking lot towards Alex’s car. He had to stay sober because he was the one who would drive them home.



“Hey, this isn’t fair,” Alex pouted.

“What?” Jack asked as he entered the car.

“You always get to drink, and I don’t. Let go get some booze,” Alex said as he drove out of the parking lot.

“If you want, I guess,” Jack shrugged. He wasn’t drunk, but he wouldn’t mind drinking some more.

“Awesome,” Alex drove towards the corner store. He was back with only a twelve pack.

"Shit I only brought beer I'm so stupid," Alex slapped his face as he drove.

“I have Jack at home,” The dark haired boy yawned.

“And I have Alex,” The brunette giggled.

“No stupid, I mean I have Jack Daniel’s,” Jack smirked lightly hitting Alex on the head.

“I know,” Alex frowned as he parked his car.

They both entered the apartment, and sat on the couch. Alex opened two cans and handed one to Jack.

“Man, just drinking is kind of boring isn’t it?” Alex said as he pressed his lips against the cold can.

“Then why did you want to do it so badly?” Jack laughed.

“Because, I thought it’d be fun if we both drank together.” Alex finished.

“Am I not fun enough?” Jack raised an eyebrow.

“No I mean, it’s like. We should play a game or something!” Alex jumped up from the couch. His hyper personality made him seem as if were drunk, but he was just excited.

“Okay, lemme bring the Jack,” The dark haired boy rose from the couch and walked towards the kitchen. Grabbing a few disposable shot glasses and the bottle itself.

“What do you want to play?” Jack couldn’t help but laugh. Alex was older than him, but yet still acted very childish.

“Um, we should play… Truth Or Dare,” Alex giggled.

“What? That’s like child’s play,” Jack coughed. In Jack’s mind it was the complete opposite.

“Well then you think of a game!” Alex crossed his arms.

“Uh, I’m too drunk to think,” Jack rubbed his forehead.

“Then it’s settled! We’ll play my game. That way we can get to know each other a little more,” The brunette smirked.

“Truth Or Dare!” Alex blurted out as he filled the last shot glass.

“Truth,” Jack squinted his eyes.

“Have you ever, touched a girl randomly in a public place?” Alex covered his mouth.

“What the fuck? You couldn’t come up with anything else?” Jack gave a goofy laugh as he took a shot. “And no, I’m not a pervert,”

“Truth or Dare?” Jack glanced at Alex.

“Dare,” Alex glared right at Jack. “Do your worst,” The drunken boy didn’t know what to tell Alex. He thought of the worst thing he could make Alex do without actually hurting him.

“I dare you to… take your clothes off,” Jack said, not knowing what he was saying.

“What? All of it?” Alex shook his head, laughing at Jack’s dizziness.

“J-just your shirt and pants I guess. I don’t know,” Jack slurred.

“Alright,”

Jack couldn’t help but watch as Alex took his clothes off slowly as if Alex were doing it on purpose. He saw Alex’s V-Line and his chest and couldn’t help but gasp. Alex was hot. He wasn’t gay, but damn did that guy have a body. He already thought Alex was good looking, but now seeing the brunette unclothed, made Jack feel funny in his stomach.

“What?” Alex laughed, because Jack just stared at the boy’s chest.

“Ugh, your turn right?”

“Actually it’s my turn to ask you,” Alex took another shot.

“No, it’s mine. Now truth or dare?” Jack sing-songed the last few words.

“Dare again, I guess” Alex responded, as he noticed the younger boy getting up and sitting right next to him.

“Kiss me,” Jack stared right at Alex. The brunette could now understand what he saw in those dark brown eyes.


Lust.


“Uh- Jack are you sure? Are you even gay? Hell, I’m not even-“

Jack didn’t hesitate, and smashed his lips on to Alex’s. The brunette wanted to pull away, but he loved how Jack’s lips seemed to perfectly fit on his. He couldn’t help but kiss back. He felt the younger boy’s tongue pleading entrance inside his mouth. He licked Alex’s bottom lip as Jack grabbed him by the waist bringing the older man closer. Alex couldn’t help but drop his jaw, giving Jack complete access. His tongue moved all around his mouth, having complete control over Alex’s.

Alex had never kissed a man before, hell he wasn’t gay. But ever since the first day he saw Jack, his sexuality was in question. This younger man was very good looking, and his dark raven hair was perfectly messy. His eyes were something Alex felt he could stare at for days, and his dominance over Alex was sexy. Something Alex wanted to get used to, but denied it to himself every time he felt that way. He couldn’t be gay. There was no way, but the way Jack looked at him made Alex feel otherwise.

He felt the younger boy climb on top of him. Alex was now laying on the floor. Jack parted their lips for a moment and stared into Alex’s eyes. Then came back down to attack his neck with kisses, that’s when Alex began to hear moans. His own moans being caused by the younger boy now sucking and biting his neck. He then felt heat and pressure in his lower abdomen. He was getting an erection from the things Jack was doing too him.

“F-fuck Jack I,” Alex gasped as felt his dick get harder by the second. Jack rose up to remove his own shirt and pants. When Jack went back down on him, he felt Jack’s hardening dick pressing on his. Alex felt his pre cum begin to release. Jack teasingly pulled on the brunette’s boxer band, rubbing his fingers against his naval.

“Alex, you’re so hot,” Jack blew his warm breath on Alex’s chest.

“J-jack,”

“Do you want me to stop?” Jack gave him a concerned look, but the desire in his eyes made Alex want Jack even more.

“F-fuck Jack touch me please,” Alex moaned.

Jack slowly dropped Alex’s boxers down to his thighs revealing Alex’s erection. He began to pump his length while kissing the older man’s lips. Alex pulled away, gasping and moaning as Jack began to jerk him in a steady rhythm. Jack rubbed himself against Alex’s thigh, his erection was just begging for some kind of friction.

Jack pumped faster, causing Alex to thrust his hips forward. Fucking the younger boy’s hand. Jack worked up and down Alex’s dick. When he reached the top, he licked his thumb and rubbed it over the slit of the head, causing Alex to moan and throw his head back. Jack spat in his hand, giving him some kind of lubrication to work faster on Alex’s length. The brunette moaned loudly, thrusting forward. Causing his thigh to brush up against Jack’s dick.

“I-I’m close,” Alex squinted his eyes.

“Do it Alex, do it for me please,” Jack groaned as he pressed himself harder against Alex’s thigh.

Alex came all over his stomach and Jack’s hand. Soon after, Jack did as well. He lowered himself to lick the brunette clean, tasting him. Licking his lower stomach and his now softening length.

“Fuck Jack,” Alex groaned as Jack sat up next to him. Jack clearly wasn’t drunk anymore.

“Alex, I-“

“It’s okay Jack, I guess you got kind of horny and you were drunk so,”

“I didn’t know what came over me. You just looked so damn hot, I couldn’t help myself,” Jack put his pants back on and handing his clothes to Alex.

“Jack, I’m not gay but, I liked it,” He giggled giving Jack a reassuring smile.

“I’m not either, But I liked it too,” Jack smirked. “So are we good? I’m not mad and you’re not mad I hope,”

“I can’t be, no one could ever jerk me off that well,” Alex laughed as he put his pants back on.
They both looked at each other for second. Admiring one another. Alex walked into his bedroom and shut the door.

What the fuck did I just do?

Notes

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This is the first smut I've ever written so please bare with me. I'm sorry if it's not good. ;-;
I don't know if I'm going too fast in this story, but I mean come on. Smut it smut.
anyway! Thanks for taking the time to read this!
Title and Lyrics are from All Time Low. (I changed one word becos yerler and it felt right xD)
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