Therapy *Sequel to Circles*

3 months after tour
Shaden's P.O.V.

its been a week and a few days that I've been here and its driving me nuts. There is none of my type of music, I am having major withdrawals like I was in tears from missing it last night Garrett had to hold onto me for three hours, there is never anything sharp enough to hurt myself if so they watch me like a hawk, and if one more person says oh the withdrawals will pass and you will feel better I am going to snap. "Shay just stop pacing or I will make you sit your ass right the fuck down this is the last time I am going to warn you I am having withdrawals too, but you don't see me being an ass to everyone." Garrett snapped at me. "Shut the fuck up I can pace if I want to its my space too." I snapped back. "Just shut up" He said calmly before throwing something at me. I ducked down feeling it just fly over me. "Ha missed me asshole." I said standing next thing I know something soft hit me in the head. "Really I missed did I now." He said smirking. "Fuck you!" I exclaimed still pacing. "Shay I mean it I am ready to tackle you stop fucking pacing." He said seriously. "Fuck you do it I don't give two shits I hate this place I was god damn fine I never starved myself bad enough to pass out, I was never super addicted to drugs, I never went too far whining up in the hospital for drinking way too much, my cutting may have been bad and couldn't stop it a lot, but you guys fucking took that at least one of you asswhores ended up in here too so I don't fucking care tackle me Garrett I dare you." I said dangerously egging him on. "Shay what is wrong with you for months all you did was stay locked in your room writing songs, get high, drink yourself to passing out over and over, you were popping pills, cutting we found you 4 times passed out on the floor with blood on you and a razor near by. You weren't sleeping, and so I came with you I went willingly I knew I had a problem I wanted it fixed, but you just because both Scott, and Jack hate you, you lost your mind we want to help you, but your being a serious bitch right now." He said causing me to stop dead in my tracks freezing he didn't just bring up what I think he did that tears it bringing up the two things we all that were on that tour and who was back home wouldn't talk about Scott, and Jack. "That's it you bastard." I yelled lunging at him only to be caught in his arms tightly as I wailed on his chest and arms, but he wouldn't let go till I need him in the groin. He dropped down holding himself as I went to my bed ripping off all the sheets the pillows my blankets throwing them across the room at everything before flipping my mattress off my bed before going to my dresser pulling all the drawers out tossing them and my clothes on the floor before taking my photo album they let me keep with everthing of Jack, I and everyone on tour, and all the memories with the guys throwing the hollowed out book causing all the pictures to sprawl across the room as I spaced out.

-Flashback
go play with someone else’s heart Shay because I know you know how it feels to be hurt, but do you know the shame of hurting someone else?” he questioned me coyly. “Oh wait you don’t because your just another band whore who used people to get to the top. Can’t believe I fell in love with you. He grumbled climbing on the bus “We can go now.” He yelled as he slammed the door with the engen starting up I watched as they pulled away I fell to my knee’s crying ranking my fringer through my hair pulling slightly on it shaking from crying so hard looking up catching in the back window as they were almost out of view seeing Jack staring out at me almost like he was conflicted.
- End flashback

I fell to my knees crying as all the pictures finally hit the ground I kept looking down as one fell directly in front of me it was from warped where Jack was spinning me around with a look of pure joy on my face while he has this soft almost loving look on his laughing at me causing me to pick up the picture staring at it. "in the end I guess it never was meant god I am such a fool." I said standing gripping the picture as I walked to the mirror from where I was. "Shay.." Garrett tried I just stood there as I saw him pull himself onto his bed laying back. "Shay are you alright.. Sha.." His voice seemed to disapear all I heard was a humming noise like nothing was there just me staring at what I didn't see before a hollow girl who has lost eveyone and everything she loved because she was too stupid to believe in love that someone can love her. "What is wrong with you look what you made me become you witch I fucking hate you everything that you are." I said pointing at the mirror. "You made me hate everything about me because of what one idiot said when he broke my heart you aren't me you never were I'm not this girl just fuck off leave me be let me be happy you fucker your not me I am not you this reflection isn't right its telling me a lie no I'm only lying to myself." I said seeing Garrett writting something down. "So fuck you. You whore." I said to myself in the mirror before punching it straight on breaking it before grabbing the glass. "Shay Don't you dare do it..." Garrett yelled breaking the none existant sound barrier that was put up around me while he was getting up. "Shay" He yelled as I got up. I quickly ran it over my wrist while backing away from him. "You don't get it do you Garrett I've done this for 8 years almost 9 just to get by this is something you can't take away." I said making another line. "Shay listen to me you don't need it you can be better we love you so much you are so close to me please stop hurting yourself." He said moving forward as the door opened causing me to move it against my wrist again holding it there making me look to the doorway seeing Terry standing there with Mason in shock at the mess I had caused. "Is everything alright?" Mason asked as I felt someone full force tackle me. "Go get a nurse Terry..." I stayed looking at them gripping the shard tight causing my hand to now start bleeding. "Now she cut herself and she's bleeding Mason come help me she's got the shard to tight." he said. As I realised he was fighting me for it. I heard two sets of foot steps on kept fading as I heard yelling. "Shay just give it to us." Garrett said getting in my face. "No I need it stop" I yelled. "Shay please let go we only want to help you." Mason said holing my arms as I squeermed to get away aas I heard running coming back in the room. "Dr.Annes please do something." Terry yelled frightened. As the shard was ripped from my hand making me scream out. "Boys is she alright?" Dr.Annes asked. "She's fine, but she is having serious withdrawals like to the point I couldn't stop her and I am a pretty big guy." Garrett said holding my chest down as Mason held my one arm up and the other down on the ground. "she'd breeding get her up and to my to the infirmary I'll deal with this there Garrett I will need you to stay since you seem to have a few scratches." She said for the first time I looked around at the scene I caused then up to Garrett's face, chest and arms seeing scratches from my long nails. and the fight with me. "I'm sorry" I croaked as the boys pulled me up Mason still keeping my arm in the air though. "That't not good and its fine Shay I forgive you I know it was the withdrawals and everything finally letting go. I hope she won't need stitches." He said flashing me a sad smile as we went down the hall causing a crowd to follow us. "Hey all of you nothing to see fuck off leave her alone and shut the fuck up just go about your damn business we've all been there." Terry yelled at the crowd making them leave whispering.


"I don't think she will need stitches just some gauss and rest now let me see your face Garrett, and Terry, Mason you can go I got these two." Dr. Annes mine and Terry's group doctor and Psychologist said finishing putting the gauss on it. "I'm sorry guys that you had to see that." I said as they left. "It's fine we just heard some yelling a crash then Garrett yell at you we thought to check it out and well comes in hand when you sadly know how to B&E." Mason said laughing heading out as where Terry just gave me a sad smile and small nod. "Are you alright Shay." Garrett said as Dr. Annes checked him over. "I guess just I feel so bad I never should have bursted like that on you I feel like a bitch." I told him hanging my head "Well don't you heard Terry we've all been there I bursted like a week ago so you were bound to soon, but now that I am done lets go back to the room. I'll clean it up." He said smiling at me I'm so lucky to have a friend like him. "Already cleaned actually when Terry called me I asked the janitor to stand by and get everything picked up back in place and the glass cleaned." She said looking at us both with a smile. "Thank you." I said getting up heading for the door with Garrett.

"Shay come here we can just relax on my bed tonight so if you need someone I'm right here." He said hugging me tight. "Thanks." I said with a yawn laying my head on his chest while we were sitting. My eyes started to close and that was the end of that day.

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