Circles

I ran out to see the huge stadium full of people screaming has my music reached out already. “Hey everyone I am Shaden Heart over there is my sister Shyanna Heart we have something kind of special planned we have two guests and well very great friends of mine so I’d like to welcome my first guest Ashley Purdy the Bassist, and one of the backup vocalists for Black Veil Brides!” I called out to the crowd as he brought out my baby along with his. My beautiful guitar this is it where I start to make myself known “You ready to do this Shay.” Ash said smiling at me. “Yea just let me breathe.” I said giving a nervous laugh. “Alright I am good now let’s do this!” I whispered to Ash before turning to my mic. “Alright so this is my first of 5 songs 3 are just covers on the piano, and guitar, anyways this is called Losing My Mind. How many of you have ever had a relationship where you want to believe the person you want to love them, but if you’re like me you don’t believe in love at all, but your starting to believe till something happens over and over again coming between, but something always pulls you back this is what this song is about it’s a close personal experience that happened to me so here goes nothing

I have been scared for too long
Holding onto all my pain
Wishing there was a way to turn this around
finally let go
I can't pretend anymore
that I'm okay
Because

I'm losing my mind
I need to get away
(Get away)
even if its for a day
Escape this town my own personal hell
Just like in my head
(Holding you down)
like I am bound to this life all on my own
giving me time To think
what we've done

I can't trust you with all I've heard
I wanted this but now I can't be too sure
As much as I want to believe in you
I don't know how
When you're so lost in your own mind
Not seeing your only hurting everyone else
I can't play this game again
Not this time

I'm losing my mind
I need to get away
(Get away)
Even if it’s for a day
Escape this town my own personal hell
Just like in my head
(Holding you down)
like I am bound to this life all on my own
Think of what we've done __________

When will it end this game of cat and mouse we are caught in?
I am sick of hurting over all
this aren't you?
I want to but I can’t let go!
(Eh yeah he yea hey yeah!)
I can't stand all this pain I see in
You're in a losing battle with yourself
But can’t you see you’re the one who's done it to me ?
I've been losing my mind over you for far to long


I'm losing my mind
I need to get away
(Get away)
Even if it’s for one day
Escape this town my own personal hell
Just like in my head
(Holds us down) like I am bound to it this life all alone
To think of what we've done this time______________
Now lookwhat you've done?

“Thanks Ash so much for doing this with me.” I said smiling at him with my guitar still around me “No problem Shay now go kill it.” He said waving to everyone heading off stage. “Hey Shy you ready for this next song I know it hits close to home for both of us so I am sorry if I tear up a little it’s just this song has played a huge role in our lives so this song is a cover and I did ask my friend Ronnie is I could do this tonight this is Keep Holding On. Shy you want to do the back up for me Hun” I said. “I guess yea why not.” She said nervously. “Hey I bet you didn’t know, but my sister can sing too who wants to hear her help me out?” The crowd started roaring it was almost deafening. “See Shy they want you to help out so let’s go.”


I thought I had myself all figured out
But I spent my whole life holding myself down
And it seems to be that sort of thing I keep doing constantly
Addicted to the pain I cause myself
My head is floating somewhere in the clouds
While I'm paid to entertain a lovely crowd
They sing my songs and feel my pain
Cause pain is what creates my fame
A vicious cycle some day I'll get out

I can't believe I'm standing here at all
I can't believe I made it this far
All the way with a smile on my face
See the the top and I'm not falling off
And all I need is a microphone, I'll sing
About the things that have been hurting me
It's safe to say, all the kids, I relate
To their lives so just keep holding on

It's hard enough try walking in my shoes,
To be picked on by my peers who much abuse
And I'm tired of not fitting in true friends is my final wish
Just let me be myself and make it through.
I have tried so hard to be a better soul
I have worked so hard at making myself whole
And through it all my better years are still ahead my mind is clear
Just trust me when I say I'm in control

I can't believe I'm standing here at all
I can't believe I made it this far
All the way with a smile on my face
See the the top and I'm not falling off
And all I need is a microphone, I'll sing
About the things that have been hurting me
It's safe to say, all the kids, I relate
To their lives so just keep holding on

I believe I'm just like you
I believe I'll make it through
It's hard to see at times like this
But I'm not giving in, but I'm not giving in

I believe I'm just like you
I believe I'll make it through
It's hard to see at times like this
But I'm not giving in, but I'm not giving in

And all I need is a microphone
I'll sing about the things that have been hurting me
It's safe to say, all the kids, I relate
To their lives so just keep holding on

I can't believe I'm standing here at all
I can't believe I made it this far
All the way with a smile on my face
See the the top and I'm not falling off
And all I need is a microphone, I'll sing
About the things that have been hurting me
It's safe to say, all the kids, I relate
To their lives so just keep holding on

“This next song is another on that hits me really hard because I know anyone who knows who I am my performances from warped with All Time Low, Courage My Love, and my own Acoustic set will understand I had an ex who had me so messed up I questioned every choice I made. I even hated my own refection. This is Who Are You Now? By Sleeping With Sirens.

Yeah, yeah

Don’t wake me up if I’m sleeping this life away
Tell me that I’ll never be good enough
Sometimes it hurts to think it could really be that way
It won’t be that way

I’m tired and I’m lost
I don’t wanna be found
I put my heart and my soul
And strength in this now

So forgive me ‘cause I won’t forget that
Yeah, this world has changed me
So you know when you ask me

Who are you now?
Did you say what you want?
Don’t go back to the start
I’m asking, who are you now?
Did they break you apart?
Won’t you fight back for what you want?

Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
We’re gonna work it out

Yeah, yeah

Don’t, don’t, don’t wake me up
‘Cause I hate who I am today
So come on, come on
And just take, take, take what you want
Is it now what we’re living for?
We’re always wanting more
(Always take take take take take!)

You made me hate my own reflection
Question every choice I make
So I could try to be perfect
But I will try to be fake

So forgive me ‘cause I really could care less that
This world has changed me
So you know when you ask me

Who are you now?
Did you say what you want?
Don’t go back to the start
I’m asking, who are you now?
Did they break you apart?
Won’t you fight back for what you want?

Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
And sometimes you really live, you’ve gotta try
We can change it all together, in the end you’re gonna find
That what we felt in our hearts was real the whole time
When you open up your eyes, I hope that you find
Who you are, who you are

Who are you now?
Who are you now?

Who are you now?
Did you say what you want?
Don’t go back to the start
I’m asking, who are you now?
Did they break you apart?
Won’t you fight back for what you want?

Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
We’re gonna work it out


“Alright this next song is one I would really like friend of mine to come out if she would Juliet are you up for it?” I looked over seeing her grab a mic before coming out standing next to me “Yea why not guessing this is one of my songs?” She asked. “Yea it is this song means the world to me when my fiancée left me literally a year ago today all I did was sit and cry in my room for hours how this is one of the songs that truly helped me I cried till there was no tears left you see I have a long story that could go on forever, but to say he managed to get under my skin more than anyone ever did. I suffered with horrible self harm I wrote out songs for him. Tried to get him out any way I could but my always remained makeup smeared and I just kept pretending in hopes one day things would be okay one day. Jinxx I know I talked to you about playing the violin can you come out here now, and give us girls a hand.” He walked out getting right into position with a smile
“This is Makeup Smeared Eyes Juliet Hun you sing it I’ll back you up.”


Left your t-shirt in my room
Still smells of you
And the picture you hung on the door
Lay smashed, picture perfect
Explains now
Clearly nothing left but a memory
We only made out
You never kissed me
That's how I learned to hold back all feeling

Wait, please don't go
I won't stay
All these words on replay
I'm okay
It's all right
Good to know that you're fine

Pretending everything is right to make it better
I'll hide my make-up smeared eyes
To show that I'm fine

Some how you have managed to get under my skin
More than anyone ever did
And if every hole makes a scar
And every scar marks its place
Then I will never live freely without your trace
And it'll never be fair
I wrote my songs for you and you never even cared
So I'll forget you
I'll wash your t-shirt and kill the pillow
And cut you out of pictures

Wait, please don't go
I won't stay
All these words on replay
I'm okay
It's all right
Good to know that you're fine

Pretending everything is right to make it better
I'll hide my make-up smeared eyes

This drama sat shotgun
My eyes rained like autumn
Only the glove box knows how the story goes
Now that this bandage is broken
And the cuts left in open
I'll tell you just one thing
This wasn't worth the sting [x3]

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