When it's broke it's perfect

I don’t think I have ever been so nervous to see Jack. In the back of my mind I know I am hoping Zack comes along with him and we start right where we left off a couple months ago. Of course me being pregnant kind of puts a wrench in that idea. I just need to tell someone, other than Kate, the news even if I do not know if and when I will tell my baby daddy. Of anyone I can think of who I could tell Jack is the only one I can think that would not judge me. Hopefully he can keep this secret while I figure this all out in my own brain.
I take a deep breath and remove my keys out of the ignition. Then I step into the pub and look around to see if Jack beat me there. I then head to a table by the window and wait for my ex-best friend to show up.
Hey beautiful girl… I am just now getting in the cab to the pub, sorry!
Typical Jack Jack running late. The longer I sit here alone the more self conscious I become and my brain begins to tell me to back out and to go through this in solitude. Right when I reach down to grab my bag since I had decided I was just going to go to my hotel I hear his booming voice as he walks in the door. Instinctively I stand up for a hug.
“Hey beautiful! Sorry I am late,” he says as he squeezes all of the air out of my lungs.
“Can’t breathe,” I gasp and he lets go. “I take it you missed me,” I end my sentence smirking.
We chat for a bit before I get up the courage to tell him. Once I decide I need to tell him I wait patiently for him to finish his millionth story about the European tour.
Once he finishes I sort of blurt out, “Jack I have a secret that I need to tell you.” I instantly regret this decision.
“W-What Em?”
“I need you to promise to not tell ANYONE, especially Zack, best friend.”
“Okay I promise.” He looks me in the eyes, this is how I know he is serious and he will do his best to not tell anyone.
“I’m pregnant,” I say and then bite the corner of my lip.
“You’re what?” he replies fairly loudly.
“I am pregnant Jack.”
“What? How? Who? What?”
The poor guy looks so confused.
“Well Jack when a girl and a boy like each other a lot they-”
“I know how a baby is made Emme. Who’s the dad? When did this happen? And why are you telling me instead of the father?”
“Well you are the father,” I say with a smirk. He just gives me the really come on Emme this is serious look. “Zack is the father, happened the night we broke up, and I am telling you because I am lost and I needed to tell someone other than Kate.”
“You need to tell him Emme.”
“I will. I just need some time. You better not snitch on me, you promised.”
“I won’t, I swear,” he replies with his hand on his heart.
We finish our food and continue to catch up. Talking to Jack has made me realize how much I miss his goofiness to make a bad day good.
“He misses you, ya know?”
“I miss him too,” I say as I stare at my straw in my water, “but that doesn’t change what happened. He wanted a clean break so that is what I will give him.”
“A baby complicates that Em.”
“Which is why he will never be obligated to be a dad to this baby and a baby daddy to me.”
He just looks at me and nods. We pay our bills and get up. As we walk to our cabs he give me a big bear hug and whispers in my ear, “I support you in whatever you do but please promise me you will tell him he has a kid on the way.”
“I promise Jack Jack.” Then we went our separate ways.
Little does Jack know but I do not plan to tell Zack about this pregnancy, at least not yet. I mean I don’t even know what I am going to do yet. I have never really wanted to be a mom but I have also never really believed in abortion. Talking to Jack was supposed to solve the debate going on in my head but it only made it worse. I just don’t know what to do anymore.

2 weeks later
I had my official 12 week ultrasound today. I have no idea why I ever thought I would abort this baby. It already looks like a little human being. The appointment went well and my OB here in MD said I am doing everything correct. I just can’t stop smiling and Kate can tell as we drive off from my appointment.
“I take it you know what you are going to do,” she says with a smirk
“Yeah, I’m keeping this baby.Thanks for being my partner today Kate.”
“No problem,” she says as we get on the highway.
And to think 2 weeks ago I was thinking of the impossible just because I was scared to do this alone. I mean I can totally do this alone, and I have an awesome best friend to help me along the way. Maybe I don’t need to tell Zack, maybe Kate and I can raise this kid by ourselves and I just don’t talk to any of the guys again.

Notes

Sorry this has taken so long subscriber(s). I got super busy with work but I am back I promise. Let me know if you think Emme should tell Zack soon or if she shouldn't.

Telling Jack

Ultrasound